In a cloud of depression

[Daisy_Love]

I have found it hard to get up in the morning and go to my college classes. I just do not have the motivation to do it. More times than not I do not get out of bed unless I have to work. I am not sure how to get out of the endless circle of depression that always seems to come back. It goes away and then comes back in the most inconvenient times, and it is frustrating I just wish I could get out of my depression cloud, and be able to relax and enjoy life.

[Ponder]

Unsubscribe and move on.

[gypsylee]

Unsubscribe and move on.

From the forum?

[Daisy_Love]

Unsubscribe and move on.

Why do I have to do that? I don't understand why you have to take the time out of your day to post something like this. We are all supposed to support each other.

[Ponder]

From the forum? Oh my! Why Of course not my dear Gypsy. You know me better than that. Not unless one wishes to imprint a negative response in the OPs mind. O oh ... too late. None the less, I should thank your for the opportunity to waffle on and further explain the intended meaning. You know how Kirk loves read all the extra text. I guess this is why tweeting one line responses rarely works. Sigh. LOL - just messing with ya Gypsy. Yes I can see I was unclear. I am in deep despair now and will attempt to clarify in as many words as possible. : )


Why do I have to do that? I don't understand why you have to take the time out of your day to post something like this. We are all supposed to support each other.

First of all it, thanks for sharing your concern about me exerting energy in relation to my limited time throughout the day. That's very kind of you. It was nothing at all. You are most welcome. Thankfully I was able to put off a few things.
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So let's breakdown the word Unsubscribe and then work out the context in how I used such a term. I can see it warrants immediate attention.


Whilst the term UNSUBSCRIBE typically means to deregister one's name and or email with a forum, Youtube Channel, Blog, Website, Business, Mailing List and so on; the term can also be used to remove one's signature from a point of view (http://idioms.thefreedictionary.com/subscribe+to). I do apologize that I was unclear on the latter.

"If you like what your seeing and hearing please do like and "subscribe!" is the common cry I typically hear as I go from day to day in this technological age. "Just text to sign up or press the button below!" OR better yet - "UNTICK the box if you do NOT Agree!" LMFAO at that last one. Sigh. "But sir, clearly you ascribe (https://jeremybutterfield.wordpress.com/2014/12/04/1660/) to such a notion for you have not yet unchecked the box that says you agree?" To which I reply, "nor have I even laid eyes upon this email to which you refer!" The last example really shows the insanity of this world for me.

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So wtf did I mean when I said:
Unsubscribe and move on.

I meant to suggest - that the OP (excuse third person ... very rude is it not? ... happens a lot in forums like these.) that Daisy_Love would do well to sever the connection to that which is making one feel so depressed. All to often we cling to sadness/pain when unable to make sense of why or what is; or is not. (it's like a drug) It manifests in many disabling ways and in such a state knows no end. Yet we continually subscribe to negative trains of thought that derail us and leave us feeling worthless and at fault. It's a nightmare that many of us share.

Thought is the culprit to my mind as in we think too much. So without actually going to deep ... I'll just say my little twit to "unsubscribe" was more about disconnecting with at least those thoughts that do not help. Especially when it impacts one in such a disabling way. Perhaps better said, "Unsubscribe from negative thoughts and move on." Let's not get hung up on my tactless response - but more get the gist of what I meant.

For me ... I know what its like to not want to wake up, have no purpose, yet be systematically be digitally imprinted with desire, shame and blame. Today I will be uninstalling a lot of the imprinting that comes pre-installed with my new laptop - I will be unsubscribing/unticking negative imprints that have no place in my abode, but yet there the intrusions lay unless I take the time to sever those connections. We may not wish to participate in this life or some facets of it and it may so happen to come or typically occur at the most inconvenient of times; but the fact remains - it's up to us to unsubscribe from those programs we have no wish to allow into our lives.

Doing so - I find helps to keep my mind less congested than it already is. It sucks living in a world like is - but once you understand the power of unsubscribing in a world bent on predestined spam; it makes the effort to get out of bed more hopeful and in some cases when you uninstall enough garbage it even makes that act going to school worthwhile. Especially if its a lesson to which your ascribed. This world gives us less and less choices behind a veil of many questions designed to make us fear and fit in. Alas it's always helpful to remember that we have the choice no matter what; to either accept or reject.

I had a friend that was warring me down. I unsubscribed. BYE BYE - disconnect ... no more friend ... I felt freedom immediately in that situation. However with my family it's not so easy - I try to focus on how I react despite feeling there is less an option to disconnect. In this case I unsubscribe from the negative thoughts and focus more on being proactive than reactive. Not easy though, but I think most of us know that.

I hope this clarifies more my meaning.

Unsubscribe Today!!!

[Ponder]

PS - Finding, doing or being in something that we/I/you actually like also helps. Less thinking that way although requires the retraining (via less thinking) of our thoughts. To unsubscribe often requires another direction in which to go. - preferable a positive one of some sort.

Here is a book I found really insightful in helping me to understand the importance of seeking out and finding positive experiences that we know works for us - regardless of how black life my seem:
The Proactive Twelve Steps for Mindful Recovery (http://anxietyforum.net/forum/showthread.php?35017-My-Take-on-The-Proactive-Twelve-Steps-for-Mindful-Recovery&highlight=Twelve+Steps+Book)

I do hope the clouds clears soon enough. Wishing you well.~Dave

[Kirk]

For once I agree with Ponder. It may snow here in Baltimore. Ha ha.

[Ponder]

Now that's a connection to which I subscribe. lol Kirk. Good one. :)