DW1983
02-15-2017, 09:43 PM
Hello All. First off a little about myself. Im 33yr old male from PA. Normal guy. Well up until a few months ago LOL. Anyhow here's a little bit about me and my "anxiety" issues.
Sept 30th of 2015 I lost my mom in a terrible car accident due to negligence of another driver doped up on heroin. Well since there was no life insurance ect.. for my mother I had to raise the money and use part of my own savings for funeral expenses. During this whole thing I was tore up, my mom was my best friend! Yes I was a mommas boy. Anyhow I was dealing with allot of cops, lawyers ect... So I guess I didn't want to pay much attention to the fact my mom is gone so I buried it and tried not to think about it. Well a few months had gone by, I started to get these spells of what felt like my BP was high, I would get dizzy.... Never paid much attention to it. Well court hearings and everything is finally over. So this past October and November I suddenly got this anxious, scared almost panic type of feeling. I thought I was going nuts!. After a few minutes passed by I was fine but still did not feel like myself at all. This happened out of the blue! Its been like this since that day. I went to my doctor to see what's up. Told him what happened, The first thing he asked was, what did I ever do about my moms situation, Meaning did I ever grieve about it? I told him no I did not. So instead of putting me on meds which I don't want anyhow he suggested I go see a counselor. Been seeing one about a half dozen times now. I can't tell if its been helping as I still feel not myself like. They both think its due to the fact I kept all that bottled up and Im doing the right thing by talking about it. My counselor has a way to bring it up that just makes me loose it and I will get very emotional about it. Now I don't have a bad life at all I actually love my life. Some of the symptoms I feel are... Like things sometimes aren't real, anxious, fear of dying ect... I am a man of facts so I am always looking for advice. Is this normal? Will this eventually subside without meds, I think meds most of the time just hides what's actually bothering you, been on them before for another reason. I just don't know why this happened to me out of the blue. I want to be myself and feel like myself again!! Is this truly anxiety issues or something else? Any and all advice is greatly appreciated!
Sept 30th of 2015 I lost my mom in a terrible car accident due to negligence of another driver doped up on heroin. Well since there was no life insurance ect.. for my mother I had to raise the money and use part of my own savings for funeral expenses. During this whole thing I was tore up, my mom was my best friend! Yes I was a mommas boy. Anyhow I was dealing with allot of cops, lawyers ect... So I guess I didn't want to pay much attention to the fact my mom is gone so I buried it and tried not to think about it. Well a few months had gone by, I started to get these spells of what felt like my BP was high, I would get dizzy.... Never paid much attention to it. Well court hearings and everything is finally over. So this past October and November I suddenly got this anxious, scared almost panic type of feeling. I thought I was going nuts!. After a few minutes passed by I was fine but still did not feel like myself at all. This happened out of the blue! Its been like this since that day. I went to my doctor to see what's up. Told him what happened, The first thing he asked was, what did I ever do about my moms situation, Meaning did I ever grieve about it? I told him no I did not. So instead of putting me on meds which I don't want anyhow he suggested I go see a counselor. Been seeing one about a half dozen times now. I can't tell if its been helping as I still feel not myself like. They both think its due to the fact I kept all that bottled up and Im doing the right thing by talking about it. My counselor has a way to bring it up that just makes me loose it and I will get very emotional about it. Now I don't have a bad life at all I actually love my life. Some of the symptoms I feel are... Like things sometimes aren't real, anxious, fear of dying ect... I am a man of facts so I am always looking for advice. Is this normal? Will this eventually subside without meds, I think meds most of the time just hides what's actually bothering you, been on them before for another reason. I just don't know why this happened to me out of the blue. I want to be myself and feel like myself again!! Is this truly anxiety issues or something else? Any and all advice is greatly appreciated!