I have returned yet again :)

[Ponder]

BY POPULAR DEMAND ... I HAVE RETURNED

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I'll open the curtain shortly Dahila. I just have to go shopping first. :)
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This is about where I left off: ... I've been well enough since although struggling with ISOLATION. Getting lot's of sunshine helps!!!

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My writing course starts in about 11 days ... I should log in & check to see what's happening with that.

As the saying goes ... adios; until next post! ;)

[Dahila]

It is so good to see you D. fantastic, ;)

[Ponder]

So you think it's a little cold to go outside D ... : ) ... The extreme temps over here are breaking records every year. It's now been ten years running with each being hotter than the one before. We don't have four seasons anymore. If we do, the transition are barley noticeable. One moment we have summer; the next we have winter. There is no autumn or spring. Here is a pic of my front lawn. It's the same with most every other house in the street. I find it amusing to see people still watering their yards for very little green in return. I think it would be smarter to lay a heap of bark chips down and grow native fauna instead of English gardens. Having said that, the native plants are starting to do it tough with each passing year. I think a desert garden would be a wise move. Alas you know how selfish people can be ... they just got to have the best of everything. Nothing like showing off one's status by having a pool in the middle of the desert. Is how we are all conditioned ... yadda yadda ... la la and la.


As you know, Lisa requires the aircon on pretty much all the time. That reminds me ... varioius cities and surrounding district have being suffering power outages as a result of increased demands. Sign of the times. Since we still use coal to power these cities once can only deduce that each year will continue to see temperatures rise. Go Figure! Click on the pic to see the mondo grass used as edging around the front gardens → this is what it normally looks like. (https://www.google.com.au/imgres?imgurl=https%3A%2F%2Fs-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com%2Foriginals%2F41%2F33%2Fea%2F4133ea d6525b9ca407a20316534796b3.jpg&imgrefurl=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.pinterest.com%2Fritama rie22%2Fmonkey-grass-plants-that-grow-in-the-shade%2F&docid=l0mgHw-XMzoK-M&tbnid=D9R4Cx1TJRVOmM%3A&vet=1&w=1200&h=860&bih=988&biw=1920&q=mondo%20grass%20edging&ved=0ahUKEwi5y-C6ppTSAhXKzbwKHc7gARQQMwhUKDAwMA&iact=mrc&uact=8#h=860&imgrc=D9R4Cx1TJRVOmM:&vet=1&w=1200) WATER RATES COST WAY TO MUCH TO JUSTIFY HAVING SUCH GARDENS. As renters, it's not our responsibility to "constantly water" the gardens (I'll cut back - nothing more) ... if owners want to push the issue "we will move" to avoid such high costs. Home owners should plant their gardens accordingly. This place put lose stone through its gardens which acts as a heat sink. Some mothers do have em! I am a good Gardner - but will not look after gardens that have no thought put into their design. We don't have enough income to cover such stupidity.


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I ordered a new pair of sun glasses as the glare of late has been a strain on my eyes. There has been a reduction in the number of people out walking in general. Most people seem to be taking shelter indoors. I on the other find that leads to sedentary lifestyle which of course has a lot of associated health risks that I don't need. It's a double edged sword I guess. My answer to the problem is to start living like a desert dweller; although the air con being on so much does not help. But that's OK ... as I am looking forward to when the big freeze takes place. But that's another story. : )

For the moment I am just going through the motions with keeping active and eating right + playing World of Tanks. : ) When I am feeling a little more in tune and at peace with things ... I'll upload a new vid. : )



Couple more pics for the others reading on ... my recent trip to smog city where I almost chocked on the smell of the city river whilst doing an 8.5km jog.

Mapping out my route from the hotel, around the river and back:
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A pic I took on the way into the science museum ... thankfully we don't have smellivsioin. Trust me ... if you live on the coast, then the cleanest of our cities will make you gag.
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Adios ... until next post. ;)

[Ponder]

Funny Pranks - Crimes Against Humanity; Justly So! :) ... Gets better as it goes along.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRJoTkPc6ig

Night Night ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

[Dahila]

Hi the grass looks awful, if it was a case I would make a rock garden on front. yeah we will not live long enough to see deep freeze. thanks for the giggling :)

[Ponder]

I just pretend I am living on a desolate planet. I actually like the contrast that comes to my mind.

Your welcome.

Here's to a good day for all! http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/fighting/hair-fire.gif

[Ponder]

Got caught up making a new playlist for my workouts late tonight. Will have to download them before heading out the door upon waking. Best get some ZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzs for my morning run. Hopefully my injury will come good during that session. I'll avoid the hilly run for now and just head to the beach and back.

Here's one of the songs in my playlist thus far:


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2vV_L7OQtU0 http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/penguins/peppy-dancing-penguin-smiley-emoticon.gif

I'll link a One Hit Wonder as well. In fact I found a video on corny 80's music and was quite thankful to find it as I'm now finding a lot of music that I LOVE! Nothing like stoking the fire to keep moving.http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/penguins/peppy-dancing-penguin-smiley-emoticon.gif
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yJSnls7ZgpY&index=14&list=PLTtbhjtVLRyTdcRftLFq9d21YF0ELlC2o COOL ... that one brings up the playlist thus far. It's all over the place and there's like a hundred songs missing. None the less it's a start and all the vids are based on High Quality Sound rather than selected video. I'll keep working on it.

Tis good to be back .... Time for that sleep now. http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/sleep/sleep.gif

[Dahila]

super, I do listen a lot to and a lot of music I had never heard before, well we all pretend otherwise the life would be not survivable. I am getting ready for market which is always so difficult for me, :)

[Ponder]

Glad your still doing the markets D. All the best for the weekend. ;)

[Ponder]

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz My day was so active that I am too tired to type in this here thread. http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/sleep/sleeping-on-keyboard.gif

[Ponder]

Just a lose journal entry. Time to stop eating again. Let's see what how far I can get this time. Enjoyed the sun this morning with a couple of bouts in and out. Just preparing some fava beans for when I recommend eating. lol Still buying premium beans, wild rice, and other foods online. Still soaking, drying, slow cooking and all that kind of thing. Keeping motivated can be hard at times, but I am pleased that for the most part I have stayed the course for a few years running now. In fact I can once again run! I've nailed a variety of exercising methods, a way of eating and even resting. I just have to bring it all together which is why I am determined to successfully water fast once again.

My somewhat recent other attempts always ran into some kind of stress that countered my intent. Not so this time. The previous efforts will this time see me off to a good start. 24 hours is my first goal and I'll just see what happens from there. Time to log out. ;)

[Ponder]

So far so good ... 19 hours and counting. :) Just getting into the hard part now as evening slowly approaches. The first night is always the hardest!

[Ponder]

The fava beans looked and smelt so good I busted. :) Now to really enjoy my next meal.

[Ponder]

Let's keep things real shall we:


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PxfG9QYUn50

I still find it all very interesting. :)

If you take out the sci/fi fantasy, it's pretty much how our society is run.

[Dahila]

Hi I have friend who just finished his ten days fasting. He says he feels wonderful, he is your age, very slim and healthy as hell. I am really wondering If I should do intermediate fasting. I was so tired after yesterday......

[Ponder]

We eat way toooo much D and as we age we don't need nearly as much. If human conditioning is not bad enough, add to that the instability of compulsion! Is it any wonder we constantly struggle not trying to fill the void with food.

YES - I also feel intermittent fasting is the way to go. I keep forgetting just how much I screwed up my liver and kidneys. Fasting intermittently is a much safer and obtainable way for me. But you know me; always into the extremes. :)


Having said that though ... I am pulling myself up this week. This week is all bout balance and stretching. I can see the dawn light starting to brighten up so I best go for my walk now.

You have made me think about my approach to food once more D ... this week I look into caloric restriction along the lines of the 5:2 diet ... although minus latter term. I was down to 69kg eating mostly RAW ... what and when we eat is just as important and then of course there is the stress lvl factor and quality of sleep.

I am hoping this weeks focus on balance will help even those last few factors out.

I ponder more when I get back ...
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How did yesterday go?

[Ponder]

So anyways - here is what the last two weeks of exercise looks like for me:

WEEK3:
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WEEK4:
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Making up the table then having it ready to make an entry is getting easier to do. Just got back from an hour + walk and feeling much better now. I'm treating myself for heavy metals now D. Back to using food grade DIATOMACEOUS EARTH (http://diatomaceous.org/heavy-metal-detoxification/). Sometimes I feel as though I can taste the amalgamated fillings I have. Keeping the my body neutral is such a chore at times.

Anyways ... for the most part, despite going through the motions at this point and time ... there is no substitute for the positive effects I am currently undergoing. Not any synthesized ones at least! Yes I get that tired feeling too. That's life! I'm just going to play this week by ear and see what happens. This morning's dawn walk reminded me just how much I need to start timing my sessions and avoid getting tooooo much sun ... OR ... at least = that exposure with qualtiy time syncing with the raising and going down of the sun.

I might even start writing more about the experience as well as just making the activity entries ... it all depends on how much I have left in the tank. I am still very early into establishing my "running" routine. I think I will take at least 6 months to establish for the long haul. It's good that I have knocked back my weight training to only twice a week. I intend to stick to that. If anything ... I am thinking of including a palates workout here and there with more focus on stretching as well.
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That's just the activity part. The meditative side - I feel this will come into effect as my activity routine takes less effort. A result of sustained commitment and clear thinking. WEEK 5 hey ... hmmm ... we shall see ... still riding out a few injuries whilst at the same time building up bone density. Building up over all strength and resilience.

I think I will start weighing myself again. Doing so with a healthy mind set saw me making healthier choices with what, when and how much I eat. I'll make a new template up for that and include in my activity specs.

Other Notes* Time between workouts best sort with a mix of milder activities rather than long bouts at this here keyboard. Keep min goals in mind and listen to your body. MORE IN SYNC TIMES with dawn and dusk!!! Pic some more locations conducive to my temperament. Forget about what does not work and ride with what does!

Adios ... time to take the little one for a run. ;)

PS --- Week 5 → HERE I COME!!!

[salvator here]

Hello Ponder,

Just reading your journal and noticed you mention water fasting. I've been also thinking about giving this a try even for just 1 full day a week. At times, I feel I have lots of chemicals and toxins running through my body and could use a cleanse. I've lost weight also since the middle of January from about 170 to a fluctuating weight of 163 (+/- 3 pounds up/down). I'm happy waking up at 159/160. I started weighing myself again and got a bit carried away with it, finding myself getting a bit obsessed, so now I only weight myself upon waking up and go by that. I'm not muscular and am small boned, so even 155 would not be and unrealistic healthy weight when not bloated or after a hearty meal. I was a skinny kid anyway. I've also started walking almost everyday and even been able to run for short spurts and it feels good. That being said...I'm not on any diet other than avoiding sweets, unnecessary carbs, plus I stop eating 6 hours before bed which has also helped the acid reflux. My blood pressure has gone from 160 over 95 to 140 over 90; this is an improvement (still need to get lower and I'm on a diuretic medication now as well). I am also now in bed by 11:30PM every night and waking up to start the day with the sun goes up, and I feel this combination had really help my mental state of mind, and its progress.

Anyways..

I'll keep reading on the water fasting to see how this works out for you.

Good luck!

[Ponder]

Hi Salvator : ) Are you taking meds? Medication is the first thing one must come off when going the way of water fasting. If you do research it, any good book will be sure to point this fact out. I don’t just say this because I am bias about medication … it’s a fact and the last thing I would want to see is anyone get hurt taking on a water fast.
Definitely read up on it! I can PM and then arrange to email/link you a “Good Book” on the subject as well as an excellent podcast on the subject to help you get your head around it.
I have decided to go the way of intermittent fasting. Whilst intermittent fasting does not offer up the same deep cleansing effect; it’s a lot safer and still offers a lot of health benefits and more doable.
I have had issues with damaging both my liver and sadly my kidneys. I also have a lot of metal in my mouth that I can’t afford to get out. Some dentist won’t even take them out. Point is physiology and past damage can make water fasting dangerous as well as other variables.
Your intention to do it is good! Much better than those who just want to lose weight. Sadly many of those people rush the process and don’t know nearly enough as they should when entering into it.
I have a friend popping so have to go right now but will pick this back up when I have time.
NOTE TO SELF … REMEMBER TO GIVE SOME MORE ADVICE TO SALVATOR RE WATER FASTING.

SRRY I have a memory like a sieve. O oh … friend just arrived … we catch up soon enough.
PS – Srry if my bias about meds is distasteful … I apologise. I have many friends who take them … perhaps one day I will end up back on them. Inevitable to some degree living in this world the way it be. Is all good. I just prefer to do what I can to stay natural is all.
I have been enjoying your musings … glad you popped in. : )


PPS - I leave you with the following podcast. IMO after much searching it is one of the BEST for anyone LEARNING ABOUT WATER FASTING ... I bought one of the recorded books from this cast. It's a long pod cast but the is a little download icon you can use to download and take it walking. I have listened to this one 3 times over. :)

Give it time to load - is long podcast is all.
http://www.blogtalkradio.com/drloradio/2012/02/22/water-fasting-juice-cleansing-with-dr-mark-carney (http://www.blogtalkradio.com/drloradio/2012/02/22/water-fasting-juice-cleansing-with-dr-mark-carney)

If your interested and the link does not work ... let me know.

[Ponder]

Salvator ... Congats on the weight loss!!! Your efforts and sharing them is muchly appreciated. You sound like you know what your doing and the fact that you are doing speaks volumes to me. Is the only way to learn my friend. This is what I like about reading you ... your not just speaking it; but living it! It matters little to me whether it works or not ... just that we keep moving and growing as we go. No such thing as fail although I use the term often myself.

Here's a few notes I thought of whilst out on my run this afternoon:

1. It all begins with what we put in our bodies.

2. MOVEMENT - Walking is excellent!!! (the calf muscle pumps blood in much the same way as our heart pumps blood ... an excellent podcast to download and go walking with ... to inspire you → CLICK HERE (http://hwcdn.libsyn.com/p/d/b/f/dbf04ca1576048aa/S1_E10_Steve_Talbot_Final.mp3?c_id=11351740&expiration=1487590260&hwt=e1cc46ed24c152cea37c6b86c2a3edd4) - or here (http://www.positivitylife.com/season-1-episode-10-the-amazing-benefits-of-walking-with-steven-r-talbot/).

3. Stretching - Do this often ... lactic acid is bad enough sitting in one spot. Get up and walk round, drink some water and do a little stretching - then return to what you where doing (sitting no doubt)

4. Get Some Sun Go outside!!! Yea yea ... everyone is afraid of the sun these days. I live in a country that has the highest skin cancer rate in the world yet I still advocate getting plenty of sun. Just be sensible about it is all. Even if you live in a part of the work that does not get enough UV ... still go outside to get some fresh air at least. Bit hard in the city, however you can pick the least toxic times to go outside and still reap a little benifit of dusting oneself of from indoor particulates. People are now getting cancer simply from indoor exposure. LMFAO @ that one ... yet there is some science to back it and it makes sense to me. Take vitimin D3 supp if your getting on with age, have liver issues and lack of UV in your part of the world. I don't like taking pills, but I do give in and take the odd supp ... not all the time, but sometimes I feel the benifits. B12 is debatable if your eating clean but yea ... some supps can help. Natural from real food is best though.

4. Self Massage Organ Massage I find makes a difference for me. I put on some organic coconut oil and rub my liver and kidney area to good effect. I do in the mornings and sometimes after a big run.

5.Good Hygiene From a perspective of a clinical anxiety sufferer ... states of depression often lead to poor hygiene which greatly aids in the build up of toxins. Not just from poor choices but from not showering and exfoliating. Sounds ridiculous or at least I though it to be when I did not understand about the body and toxic build up. Even in water fasting - Dry Exfoliating is a recommended way of helping the detox process. Our skin is the largest body organ that allows toxins to escape. Since I started taking regular showers where I scrub myself properly, not only do I no longer have scabies ... I can feel as though my skin is breathing. Before when I was obese and could not give two fucks ... I was suffocating every night I went to bed. Keeping clean really helps with the detox process it also help me to better revive the sun when out and about. Re search Natural Hygiene. (http://health101.org/art_hygiene.htm) Seems like a good link and also ends with a not on fasting. Of course like many other concepts is has a lot of pros, cons and bias / debates. For the most part it's interesting to read about.

6. Circadian Rhythm is an excellent subject to learn about as is the way I tie all my practiced methods/concepts and routines into some kind of balancing point. This subject is the key to quality sleep. rest and recovery, good digestion and healing in general.

7. SLEEP!!!!!! Forget about taking melatonin tablets! Seriously - learning about the subjects above within the context of natural hygiene/path combined with a routine in sync (circadian rhythm) with the dawn and dusk (research indoor lights/spectrum/blue light exposure and sleep (https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/q-a-why-is-blue-light-before-bedtime-bad-for-sleep/))

8. STRESS!!!! Cortisol being the BUZZ word of late and for good reason, however just learn about the basics as again ... marketers put everything in a bottle come of with whatever articles and CH-CHing! - out go the pills. People miss the point. Just learn to D-stress at the source in the same way that it's best to detox by watching what goes in and what we expose ourselves to. Mediation - Self reflection - Therapist/counseling - Learning what works and focusing on healing rather than negative purging ... are all things I dedicate myself to in order that I avoid building up toxins ... as too - releasing negative / residual energy from years past still knotted deep within my soul ... comes down to all the unlearning I talk about ... the recondition of oneself ... building up one's worth from the ground up .. find purpose within boxes we don't fit ... Creating new positive experiences where negative mindsets can not live.

9. Creating Conducive Environments & Minsets - This is a big topic on healing with the mind ... Anxiety sufferers tend to be super sensitive ... This aspect I mean from indoor plants - to tidy spaces - down to affirmations that include doing - intention and preparation for what comes next without any expectation so that one is still present whilst looking forward to what comes next. Having order in one's space I find very effective in keeping me positively charged to embrace what is ... or is not ... and or what comes next. Checking my tone ... my thoughts and accepting when I #*&% up!!! GetIs better the more mindful I become and it's like exercise ... I have to balance it out for best effect.
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There is more ... but that was fun coming up with all that. It really is a good break down of what I do each day to keep myself clean ... to keep from taking in all the poison that is commonly sold, sort after, imprinted, conditioned and in many cases down right alluring, appealing and tempting. As much as the science that goes into combating such things is as much put into these toxic products to suck us in. Such it the insanity and fallibility of our current way of life. The further down the chain ... the lower on the socio economic scale, the more one finds themselves in the midst of toxicity ... dirty air, filthy water, poisonous foods, pills - constant adversity, stigma and Yadda Yadda ...

ALAS ... It's not all bad - We CAN rise above such imperfection and take back control from the simple act of restricted consuming, walking, moving and the above various concepts of natural hygiene. One does not have to have loads of $$$$$$ to buy all those pills. Even when eating commercial fruits and veggies one can still reap the benefits regardless of pesticides ... that is the power of eating food ground from the soil and sun.

The real cost is EFFORT because of the world we now live in. It's become an art living naturally in an natural world. The thing is - most people out there with loads of money still struggle to live clean and it's good to know that by living on less, consuming less = spending less yet the reward in being able to breath!!!! ... to feel air coming in through both nostrils and fill up your lungs and stretch your ribs beyond a range of movement that far exceeds what most obese people can do when tieing their shoes!!!!!:

You just can't buy that kind of thing. It's what makes me smile regardless of not fitting in to the commonly perceived way of living - the expectations, imprinted obligations and all other forms of BS illusions.

Sorry for the long post. It's just another affirmation and reasoning to my own hard core focus in learning to live the way I do.
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I do have a tendency to go overboard ... but am getting better at finding my way. All of the above has taken me years and I still have years to go. Is all good.

9:15 PM ... time for a quick read, edit then bed .......... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

The following is a little Self Hypnosis Induction I was experimenting with. I think you will remember D? Perhaps a little cheesy ... but such is my effort in learning to train my brain. I imprint what I want to be - is why for me ... my affirmations work. I just need to keep motivated is all. This is just an induction ... a start to the process ... what comes next I usually come up with when I am out moving ... walking ... that kind of thing. I post this more as a record to my efforts rather than a polished piece of work. It's the container of my intent to find peace. It's all in the way we hold out thoughts ... the wish to be free. My running is now a lot less self conscious and I really get high from the sense of freedom that comes when caring less about those things outside of my control.

So it is that I re-post this old recording - just needs a relevant script ... but I already just expressed as much in the above.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xSkeIRkPy94&feature=youtu.be

Adios ... until next post.

[Ponder]

Dahila ... excuse I have not been on facebook much. As you can see from my previous post I am kind of dedicated to detox and purging these last few months. I appreciate you encourging me to come back here. It helps to be in a space I am comfortable (despite previous frustrations yadda yadda)

Just wanting to say I wish I had more time is to convey. At least this way you can see how I am traveling ... I have been struggling with the whole separation at home kind of thing - re separate bedrooms and lack of intimacy. Even just the being near and wanting to be loved. It has been very cold for me and lonely. So it is that I have been purging like so with my body and looking to draw from ... hmmm ... well I have been lacking visits to the trees ... the bush walks I used to do. Anyways ... just saying why I have been so intent with developing a running routine. I have been helping my grandson by giving him new positive experiences like I do for myself. That way I know I am not being selfish and it feels good to be giving back. He gives me what I can not get at home. I'll be playing with him again in the morning.

I go get my sleep ... Hoping you are as well as can be.

Night Night ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

[salvator here]

Thanks so much for your in depth guidance and advice in your last two detailed postings. When I wake up now, its takes a good 15 minutes to get my brain working, but I have read everything more than a few times and found it extremely helpful and might write about most of it in my journal as it will apply to me and not to clog up yours; also I feel at times conflicted and it doesn't always help others and can (and has) triggered conflicted thoughts to others from what I'm told. I don't mean to, but I often project my conflicted ideas/opinions on to others, even when I'm trying to help others here sometimes I accidentally do that unintentionally. I do mean well though.

I just wanted to respond to your 3rd to last posting about water fasting and you asked me if I was on medication. After reading that, for now I'm going to put it on the back burner and try another time since I am on 3 meds. I don't like it but I don't seem to do well without them and my doctor is of the opinion the less meds at the lowest dose is for the best which is the only reason I continue to stay with him. Besides he's been my doc for many years. I don't like being on them because they have toxic side effect.

I take a low dose diuretic to keep down the systolic blood pressure. The particular med depletes potassium so I also need a supplement for that. Also have to take a med for asthma. Without that one, I do get attacks, so I feel this one is needed. Again, toxic side effects that effect the immune system system. Because my cholesterol has been high (despite that fact that I hardly ever eat fried foods) seems to mean that it could be hereditary so I'm on a DREADED statin drug that will rot my liver. Other than some supplements here and there for various reasons, that's about it for meds right now. So maybe water fasting could be dangerous with that combination.

I will watch the pod cast when I have more time as it takes quite some time to load on my slow DSL depending on if others people are also heavenly using it since its shared connection. Might post today about you 2nd to last posting because a lot of what you wrote applies to me and I'll hopefully be able to utilize it now.

Take care and enjoy your day.

[Dahila]

Congrats Salvator ;) that's an achievement. The fasting in my situation must be under care for diabetics. Next week I am going to do my test and see how my way of eating works if it still work. Market was good, I changed packaging for my salves , i have three sizes now and it seems to sell much better. Soaps are making an impression on people ;)

[Ponder]

I hear Ya Salvator. All very good points. Please understand you can say anything you want to in here. Projecting is what we humans do. I like to see other peoples perspectives too. Srry I can't reply in full today ... my actives are catching up on me today :)

Glad things have picked up at the markets once again D. That's great news!

[salvator here]

Thank you so much Dahila and Ponder :)

Hope you both have a great day!

[Ponder]

Morning Guys - Thanks Savlator ... I just crawled out of bed for the second time this morning and still waking up:


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(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LdOt4ieyPhE)

Please excuse the embedding of such a large pic but I needed something inspiring to fill my screen. This pic I prepared earlier. It was taken from my front door. I went to check if it was bin night and was like https://c1.staticflickr.com/3/2649/32998447596_920a1130fa_o.png. I stopped doing whatever it was I was doing grabbed my phone took a few shots and now glad I did!

I'm also using some mild tunes to help me tune into the day. Click on the pic and you'll hear what I'm listening to at the time of this writing. (please excuse those annoying YouTube adds)

I'm even having COFFEE http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/shocked/open-mouth-surprised-smiley-emoticon.png Despite the ringing in my rings, it's working!!! *&^# iT!!! ... I do beleive I will have another one. (I'm an addict when it comes to such things)

Thing is I woke up at 2:30am and could not get back to sleep. I was tired as all &^%# ... I'm sure you know the feeling. Eventually after some more suffering I went back to sleep only to wake back up in a haze of "errrrrrrr I still feel like shit." So it was I dug up that old photo I previously took and started playing some vibes to help me focus. Then I thought *&%$ it ... I'm having coffee.

Now I am good enough to at least go through the motions. Nothing worse for me than not completing my routine on what I must. Where I went wrong the day before was giving in and eating chocolate and likewise things - I started with first overeating. The injury I have sustained I have diagnosed but just feeling down about it's limitations to my routine ... No Matter ... going to Mix things up by hitting the weights until it comes good once again. Then I will be back to running in no time at all.

Just do some cross training to give the ligaments in my foot time to heal ... although I'll still be walking!!!

Anyways ... I'm now good and will keep moving as I must, but first; time for that other cup! http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/drink/coffee-machine-smiley-emoticon.gif (I don't usually drink but when I do it works like a charm!)

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Nailed the Gym workout ... foot is even feeling ten times better. Only thing thing now is; I'm buzzing like a church bell that knows no end! https://c1.staticflickr.com/3/2544/32916164181_9135dc6143_o.gif

I think a well timed run later on may do the trick. No more coffee!!! Drink plenty of water and lots of watery fruits.

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Good to hear! Glad your injury was better and you were able to workout today despite the lack of sleep the previous night. It took more than a few cups of both coffee and tea to get started today as well, even a mountain dew at the store (been years since I drank that nasty stuff - YUK). I was able to walk though, but I was clumsy and ended up a bit sore on the tops of me feet and slight numbness (I have back trouble that causes this at times). Still glad I pushed through it.

What a beautiful picture and that is an amazing sky over there!

Take care.

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Yea - I have to admit after my last post on the thread regarding alcohol and anxiety ... that cheating never helps. I've been paying big time for using likewise stimulants. Fair enough the coffee got me started man, but I have been sleeping like shit that last two nights since I started back on coffee. I don't like preaching like some kind of priest that has vile hatred of all things nice. I LOVE COFFEE! and all that things that are not so good for me. Typically they are things that taste nice and heaps of fun whilst consuming.

When I was younger and seemingly indestructible, I would of course base the benefits of such consumables on pure taste, happiness and fun. This is how I used to reason that things like smoking - of all things - was good because it reduced my stress. So too I find this reasoning (Oh but it helps me sleep, relaxes me, makes me feel good - it's good for my cortisol lvls ... lol Not only have I heard it all before ... I use likewise excuses myself) commonly used regarding alcohol, savories, sugary sweets + likewise destructive beverages and foods. Such fleeting benefits are short lived and extremely outweighed by the wake of suffering that always follows.

SIGH - Is all good though. Once the psychology is understood that goes into making us WANT these things, making us think we NEED these things; that elusive quality called MOTIVATION comes to light and the desire to rid ourselves of self destructive habits becomes strong. At the very least we start to get a grip on just how much we continue to poison and make BS excuses. At least is how I now operate and or what I tell myself. Whatever works right?
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My alternative to less processed natural stimulant Vs Coffee ... is a large knob of cold press Ginger in my freshly pressed veggie juice. The key here is to compare the beneficial chemicals in either source but more so note that one has negative side effects whilst the others has none! Hmmm well not that is quite true. Today's food is not really food. It's full of pesticides, lacks minerals and bla bla bla ... but for the most part I think the lesson is - avoid poisons at all cost. Caffeine is a poison. One can reason with the dosages to make it some kind of staple source in order to justify using it to routinely wake ones self up. BUT - over time it's poisoning the (CNS) central nervous system and falls into that benefits Vs negatives and the negatives just like sugar and alcohol also win out. Again the theory of moderation is null and void once you factor in the long term damage. Convenience and comfort binded with marketing campaigns blind us to the alarming facts.

Fact is ... if you need something to wake one self up, when it is in fact time to get up; then something is wrong! Using stimulants goes against keeping in sync and if one is not in snyc then whatever it is that one is doing - is obviously amiss.

Whatever Dave ... just be sure to keep telling yourself! LOL ... Seriously I still eat the odd piece of shit. The difference with me is that I don't mind calling it what it really is and I also no longer attribute BS excuses as to why I pleasure myself when I do. Everything we do comes at a cost. Arrrrr - the pleasure and pain of life itself. What's a guy or gal to do. Once you pass 30 this day and age, you'll soon discovery this kind of philosophy. Most certainly after 40 and into 50. The latter where I will be two years from now. Truth is we now have teens doping dead because of food.

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I best make this wonder drink to help me kick off at the Gym! Fuck the sleepless nights since starting back up on coffee. I think the fact that the caffeine has hit my CNS so hard is testament to just how clean my body is compared to your average main stream junky that hits up with stims early in the mornings, tops up midday with something starchy and then later winds down with something sweet! Smiles at such a thought because I now that's exactly it!

STRETCH it out Dave ... Stretch it out, drink plenty of water without washing yourself out ... keep on keeping strong with new found motivation.

I just found out some more information ... but first I get my morning session out of the way ... my morning trip to the office and that work out of the way. :)
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Basically I found a little marketing presentation that whilst full of it's own agenda, to have some good insights re various food groups and in tune with a path I know to be true for me. Is on the path of plant based eating ... why grains are no good ... 10% meats (if you must) and all that kind of thing. BUT ... Moreover ... hits hard on the chemical negatives such as Inhibitors/Anti Nutrients, Lectins, Phytic acid, as well as those that drive our energy levle up without the need for any stimulants at all!!!!!!!

BUT - you have to read in between the lines and above all ... try these things out for yourself and make judgments based only when you have a clean system that can tell. I remind myself of this point as it not only motivates me once again ... but give reason to why I must keep all things balanced. You can't make BS excuses knowing one is not FIT to do so ... *&^% UNFIT is the slogan at the gym and I think YEA ... I will incorporate it into the science approach.

Righto ... Stretch ... press ... drink then go enjoy being able to do your thing at the gym. SIGH → @ the gym ... serves its purpose while I have less about 6 months left.

OK ... I am done.

GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Um ... I think the coffee is still talking.

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Having said all of that ... time for a coffee! http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/trollface/crazy-troll-smiley-emoticon.png

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Did I mention I ran 5 miles to cap the day off. Way to go Davy Boy!!! Mind over matter - it's not just about food! https://c1.staticflickr.com/1/746/32936712571_e2d575b545_o.gif

rofl ... I love this new animation that's now in my collection. Always take anothers chastisement and learn to turn into something good. Self knowledge is the only way to avoid the influence of others. How little do they know when they murmur like sheep. Bow your head, open your mouth and take your pill. "We" / "They" shall continue to look outwards, but never within. Together they are strong - but on their own they are weak ... Is exactly the way the pain body wants it. It's how it feeds.

WOW - I like it ... yet I still know deep down, organisms need to be accepted and understood. Just not the way they club together in this decaying society. That image speaks for itself.

I contemplate this further ... after WORLD OF TANKS. http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/war/shooting-tank.gif

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CONGRATULATIONS TO ME - Nailed my gym work out this morning - and then topped it off with another 5 mile run ... allbeit on a treadmill. (I've been mixing things up) I must admit I am pulling all the detox and recovery tricks out of my hat. Not something your going to pick up with a quick read of someone else's Blog. LMAO @ that. (bit of an in-joke re another thread)

In fact ... let's talk about Recovery and actually "Doing The Work" Something from yet another thread. Indeed recovery is way more than reading a blog here and there, positing in a forum and projecting one's thoughts. It's easy to band with others and murmur like sheep. ".... Oh my oh my, why oh why - it's always someone else fault." Far better to focus on what works rather than banter on what does not. Fact is it's far easier to cry about what does not work rather than adopt what does.

Conditioning of the mind start with the self! You can only help yourself by yourself without others holding your hand. People do however like to hold the hands of others because it's better than holding their own - yet in the helping of others there is something to be said for building one's strength.

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GOOD NEWS - Our charity work is starting to pick up. :) My wife and I popped into a caravan park to help an individual who needs assistance getting out of a lease. Another young lady from a domestic violence situation won her defense supported by PEERHAPS (our charity) at a distance court. Previous to that in another court case, one real estate was rejected the right to evict a family over the Christmas Break. :) We now have 3 agencies that refer people in need to our cause. 1 Local and 2 others regional. It's good to see my wife finding purpose once more. Is good for her illness ... Primary Progressive MS.

I'm really happy with how things are working out too. We have built that charity from the ground up and we have done it ourselves. No one controls what we do but ourselves! Peers helping peers. We have found a niche, helping people and getting good results. I will never work in a system for profit - but helping people in need ... we will do that for free.

www.peerhps.org.au (http://www.peerhps.org.au)
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OK ... back to working on me. Takes a victim to know a victim but better yet, takes someone without a crutch to help another get up and walk. Although my wife will often say when it comes to us, we are the unlikeliest of couples. A mentally retarded husband pushing his highly intellectual crippled wife. We inspire each other and have suffered well together these last 26+ years ... although now sleeping in separate beds. Petals falls ... flowers die ... is what it is. It's good though that we have this charity to run with helping others in need. Even the worst of the worst have to have somewhere to live.

That is the extent of how I am helping others. I do more than just read blogs, run around the block and lift weights.

If your have any complaints ... feel free to lodge them at the above website. I'll see what I can do to help. ;)

Adios ... until next post.

PS - what are you doing to help yourself?

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Is pretty much how I have been spending each of my days - minus the injections! lol


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F1gd_9noZMA

Although today I best recover so I can enjoy picking up the pace again. I know the pain body likes to run uphill, but so does peace in order that it may endure the chill. I don't feel so cold when creating my own heat. Just have to make sure I find the off switch every now and then.

On that note ... off for a relaxing early morning walk ... twilight well established so might take my camera for a snap shot on the way back. The sun will be well and truly bright enough by then.

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I found a new spot about seven clicks down the road from my house. Much quieter than the bay. I think I might start taking a few snaps again. Here is a link to my photo gallery on Flikr:
https://www.flickr.com/gp/71988794@N08/58p421

It's pretty much where I host most of my pics that I link to forums like these. I started off with a DSLR and ended up more than a novice. This was that I got bogged down too much with it and have since reverted to just using either a little shoot and go or these days; just my phone.

Here is my pic of the morning:

BEST FRIENDS
https://c1.staticflickr.com/3/2791/32922352772_16b3cc1644_b.jpg (https://c1.staticflickr.com/3/2791/32922352772_4c9c31634f_o.jpg)

I'm liken the idea of using filters - Much easier to view and remember things, places and events that way.


Time to get on with my day - we have the little fella staying over tonight. I will take him to this new spot later in the day and see what he thinks.

All the best finding whatever works for you this day.

Adios ... until next post. ;)

[Dahila]

D. I am here, just have no energy to post, but I am here and reading all of it :)

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Your in luck ... I prepared something this morning that might help. Promise me you will take 3 minutes to sit and watch your screen. Listen to the sound of the waves, the wind and the birds. You might even hear some dogs. If you manage to make it near 3 minutes, I am sure you will feel better for it.

Consider it a challenge and let me know how you went? I know this is the side of me you like the most ... is it not? I almost did a Vlog, but then decided to just make this vid & now glad I did. I'm going to give it another viewing myself. Promise you will watch it to the end. Has helped me each time and yet to get old. Of course not easy for most folk to do this day and age.
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A challenge for anyone - Can you handle 3 minutes of looking at and listening to nature without doing anything else?

How does it feel?


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IUC487MQfE&feature=youtu.be

Dahila ... I hope this helped :)

Best viewed full screen in HD - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IUC487MQfE

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rofl ... I love this new animation that's now in my collection.Oh I didn't catch this one, love the preacher animation. I don't need to see a preacher to know where I'm going...hope its a dry heat :D

Take care and enjoy your day :)

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Maybe we will just end up on one of these seven planets:


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PsPIW9LizDs

@ only 40 light years away and the new James web telescope soon going up ... this should make for an interesting topic in the years ahead. No doubt there will be those that seek to keep us in the dark. On the bright side though, these kind of discoveries are inspiring and make for a good distraction in my book.

Additional information that gives more context from those in the front line of space exploration: NASA -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xCWsmxINxs0

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Righto ... This is were I am doing my Work. I probably work harder than I should but is how I am best operate and more than likely a mechanism to time past; rather than just passing time. My body parts will eventually give in like leaves on an old worn out tree. A tree that's had more than it's fair share of monkeys doing their thing. But for now I do what I can with it while it's still twitching. lol

I had a good days rest for the most part yesterday but still felt a little rigid here and there upon waking this morning. Slept in the wife's bed with the little one in between us last night so I figured that did not help with ironing myself out. See how I go back alone in my own tonight.

Today I go through the motions at the gym. More often than not, my exercise now seems to pick me up as opposed to tired me out. Although like most other posts in this forum it's not as simple as that. LOL again. The best way to simplify what is wrong or right, is to apply said words to self and gauge from that ... otherwise one it just pissing in the wind. I tend to practice what I preach - you can jam all those online findings where the sun don't shine because if your not living those positive results then your just reading fiction.

Hmmmm - will I change my playlist today??? Narrrr still sounds vibrant enough. Letting go of what does not sit seems to be doing well enough atm. Had some yummy dark chocolate before. Figured I would let that out just to let those in here having a hard time with my all natural approach know that I'm not nearly as rigid as I sound. Never works to hold others accountable to every word ... My paint brush don't work like that.

I can feel some passion welling up within and I think I might start to let loose with my brush ... when the time is right. BLA ... not a word that sits with me really RIGHT ... Meh - I'll go with the buzz word Meh for now. Like a donut without a any cares. LOL again. Whatever ...

SO ... will go easy on my legs once more today and see how 10km goes down for breakfast tomorrow. Might aim for 20 laps of the hock oval ... @ 635+meters per lap that's about ... hmmm 12.7km. Yea that sounds like a good plan actually. No hills ... just a steady pace around the hockey oval ... will redirect every 5 laps and go easy on the corners. Here is a pic of the oval: (I like to put things into perspective)

FIRST let's start with comparing it to my 10.6km route: Always good to have a mental comparison in my head whilst I am actually running around the hockey oval. Given this perspective it's still hard to image that 20 laps of the hockey oval exceeds the 10.6km route:

https://c1.staticflickr.com/1/711/32942155732_b2f9b78a94_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/SbZadh)2 (https://flic.kr/p/SbZadh) by David Kynaston (https://www.flickr.com/photos/71988794@N08/), on Flickr


Here's an overhead of the actual hockey grounds:
https://c1.staticflickr.com/1/575/32942154732_6b054ae46f_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/SbZ9V3)3 (https://flic.kr/p/SbZ9V3) by David Kynaston (https://www.flickr.com/photos/71988794@N08/), on Flickr

&:

https://c1.staticflickr.com/1/710/32716082510_baa88a88e9_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/RR1tw7)1 (https://flic.kr/p/RR1tw7) by David Kynaston (https://www.flickr.com/photos/71988794@N08/), on Flickr

Note* Nice long sprinting runs on that hockey oval compared to a standard 400 meter track or an average sized footy field.

YEA! That puts things into perspective pretty good for me. Nice flat gound on grass that offers a break from the pavement and so on. Here is a better look at the hills I tackle on that 10.6km route:
https://c1.staticflickr.com/1/583/32131757950_a905c0749f_n.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/QXnEbJ)10-6 km route Hervey Bay (https://flic.kr/p/QXnEbJ) by David Kynaston (https://www.flickr.com/photos/71988794@N08/), on Flickr

OK enough affirming for tomorrows 20 laps. Mini Goal is actually to run 20kms but we deal with that later!

For now ... I take these tunes playing in my head to the Gym and go through the motions of upper body strength. I can enjoy lunch when I get back ... whatever they may be. lol I don't mind slipping a bit when I work so hard ... but today is not so much work because I am pleased I have paved the way for tomorrow as yesterday I did for today. The myth comes once I log out of here.

Adios ... until next post. ; )

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Probably old news for a lot of you guys ... but I thought the following was an awesome watch:


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9pkvyIjlX9E

Come to think of it, I often feel like a passenger as presented in that above movie. Is good that despite the fear of a lost life, they ended up making the most of it.

Off for a quiet afternoon walk.

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LIVE STREAM OF EARTH FROM SPACE - Something my daughter sent me this morning. Not sure how long it will be up. Currently 118 people from about however many billion now watching. : ) Be one of the lucky few and get your buzz while you still can. : )


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ddFvjfvPnqk&feature=youtu.be

Nice music as well.

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OK - while I have the earth slowly spinning up on the screen and have nice music playing; I figured I would do a little ramble before embarking on the hockey oval. This is just going to be a ramble. To be honest I kind of feel a bit lost above the earth myself right now.

Had another dream:
I'll try to keep the descriptive dialogue to a minimum and keep this story short. :)

I'm in this huge building that towers above many others. I'm cleaning the rooms with my wife. My not long dead father was also in the dream. He was yelling and screaming about something or other. From the very little I knew of him, this was not out of character so I just accepted it as is. My focus was more on the earth quack that came out of nowhere.

I'd say suddenly however given my confusion as I be when I typically awake in my dreams ... to find myself in a lucid state; I was more amused at what was then taking place. It was like slow motion as the building started to come apart. I was sifting through my emotions as to why my obscure father was present and also to what the connection I was having with my wife as we were all seemingly falling to our deaths.

Beneath the rubble I exited from a small dark crack that not even a mouse could squeezed out of. I looked around desperately for my wife. I could not find her. I started to float high above the pile on the ground. Any time I start to float in a dream I know I am having a dream. I enjoy it when I am having these kind of dreams because now I can control myself a lot better than I used to. I welcome them no matter how weird or scary they seem.

Anyways - true to from at first I go through the usual flight or fight emotion as I begin to float. I called out my wife's name as if to somehow will her presence on the ground. I gain control and hover at a height where I was able to see my wife appear beneath me on the ground. She seemed worried that I was floating as I was but I reassured it that this was normal for me. LOL

With her outstretched hand I descend and the only building now in a pile was the one we were in. My father no longer in the dream or a point on which I focus. From here it's more about the connection between my wife and I:

How is it that others can still see me, but not my wife? ... Something about a test I asked my wife to do and a passer by ... my wife was holding a flower but when the petal was picked my wife disappeared and I was then all alone in a world I did not want to be. The passer by was talking to me but I was looking skyward wishing my wife could instead fly with me.
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The next pieces of the dream are more sketchy but I go for my run now as doing so always helps to bring the images back. My memory is not so good these days, but when it comes to dreams I usually remember more than what I do in my waking state. Running and walking in the zone also helps me sift through images of other places I have been ... I assume in my sleep.

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I think the above is enough to know. I avoid reading too much into the elements such a "flying" "earthquakes" being "naked"and so on. That can be like reading the horoscope where one can read anything into anyone's day. That is not to say that vulnerability, uncertainty and a host of other emotional conflicts are not going on. I'm just not so easily influenced with texts book scenarios or base my dreams on mystical encyclopedias of the cosmos and that type of thing. Not sure that makes sense ... I do however enjoy lucid dreaming and also open to other concepts such as Astro Traveling /OBE. However the latter is something I am even more skeptical about when it comes to reading the host of claims on the internet. I've not really opened myself up too much to outer body experiences just yet. I have had some weird ass oppressive sleep paralysis like events based on demonic elements ... but that's another story that I have only touched in in previous posts.

I do find it interesting that I am having such lucid dreams whilst pushing my body to it's limits. Of course my activity routine may not be much to someone else but for someone of my age and physiology it's been pretty full on of late. Speaking of which ... here is what Week 5 end up looking like:

WEEK 5
https://c1.staticflickr.com/1/579/32740632200_98aa81da6b_o.jpg

I ended up going an old two day split body building routine from Arny's encyclopedia. I seem to get more out of his than I do an astrology one. lol. I seemed to of overcome the strained quadricep and painful tendons on top of my foot. Although I could feel the Achilles tendon on my left foot starting to speak up with this mornings new record of 15 laps around the hockey oval. I knew I wanted to do weight today so gave the 20 laps the flick. ... I'll do that soon enough.

ANYWAYS ... why the fuck am I pushing myself so hard at my age? I don't really want to come across as one of the cross fit types. They are too uptight for what I am aiming for. Too aggressive with all the hype and bla bla bla. I guess it's a form of punishment or a good way to self sabotage for those of us claiming to be living clean. I don't doubt that at all. I am aware of it is all. I am bored ... I know that much. If I could interact and take instructions (in other words work) I would be doing something to keep myself fit no doubt. ALAS - I won't (*note the choice in that) mix in a society that interacts as it does. It's kind of a double edged sword for me ... One that I am too fucked up to comprehend, process among all that fitting in and hierarchical BS people going on in and out of the work place and as a result of being an underappreciated miss fit ... I've chosen to pretty much reject all forms of main stream living. The world for people like me is extremely toxic which is why I talk about the world the way I do. Fact is ... the world is TOXIC full stop regardless of just my view.

You see ... this is why this place ... this forum is the perfect place to talk about the toxicity of this society. People like me who genuinely suffer anxiety, depression and social phobia (or whatever mental instability /label you wish to pick) ... we be the Byproducts of this system so many brainwashed pious little fuckers wish to preserve. That one goes out to my little green friend I just made the other day. Bit like a teacher with a ruler stuck up its ass that one. "Oh don't be so childish" "My oh My"

Excuse me while I pass wind. Sigh oh Sigh ...

POINT being ... at this point and time with some serious issues going on at home (which makes the online banter more amusing than anything else) is why I have been pushing so hard. Perhaps tomorrow with this new grammar course I'll be starting ... I might have some worthwhile distraction. See what happens I guess.

Hmmmm ... winding down now.

I think with so much going on ... is time to just bunker down in here. Seems to be more people coming into this place to make a quid at any rate.

Sorry you are not doing so well DAHILA! ... I've kind of been faking things a bit myself but hey, whatever works ... right? Remember why I came back? ... just kidding. I know you have enough of your own shit. In your own time.

As for others ... if you don't like what I write; then fuck off!!! Use the ignore feature. You preach your BS and I will write mine. I'm not here to sell anything and if you think I'm exposing something that conflicts with your own fairy tail then that's fucking AWESOME!!! Wake The Fuck Up because the only one's that are dreaming, are those who subscribe to 9 to 5, designer labels, flags, ladders, and shiny trinkets.

I wonder if I can again ... escape tonight!!!!!!!!!!!
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Nice ... that felt pretty good. Perhaps I am ready to open myself up to some OBE. Not sure I have a dark enough room and I'm yet to do some more purging I thinks.
Last thing I need after making a weightless transition into fuck knows where is for some weird ass entity to suddenly pop out as a result of unresolved issues - BOO! http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/shit/disgusting-diarrhea-smiley-emoticon.gif Another reason not to read too much into the stories. I'm doing what I can to unlearn all those as well before delving too deep into uncharted territory. The whole demonic possession episodes resultant from ingrain Pentecostal exposure was bad enough. Sigh ... Yea yea ... sure thing ... "just another episode of schizophrenia" - Says those who subscribe to the house and white picket fence and undoubtedly take their prescriptions. edit - OR is that the "WHITE HOUSE" & picket fence? Flag wavers & patriots ... Sigh. murmur murmur ... Is no wonder these types see challenging musing as deafening sermons. AKA Preaching. I shall pray for them ... meh & pfft.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Night Night. http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/sleep/sleep.gif
"........................................ .......It's OK peeps, he's just having one of his eps again........... Shhhhhhhhhhhhh"

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A new week a new beginning. What's been said and done is nothing more than stellar gas that's now gone. (although I just edited the last part for good measure : ) This week will see no activity guide other than my diary entries. The focus is no longer “ Here I Come,” but rather; “ Here I be.”

I really got to get those damn dished done. They've been sitting there for days on end. I logged into the edx dashboard and my English Grammar and Style course does not start till 10 AEST. Approximately in another 3 hours.

I've actually got a lot chores to get done. Would be good to keep the place clean this week. Nothing much else to write about now. I best get to making space for my head with the cleaning of the place and them maybe I'll pick a topic to begin the process of polishing my writing and doing my course.

I was recently told that this forum is not the place to discuss the issues of a sick society, not to discuss natural methods Vs chemical, and so on. - So it is that I will experiment with the following topic:

Anxiety - The byproduct of Consumerism. ... and here we all are. http://anxietyforum.net/forum/forum.php

Righto ... go do your dishes, clean the place up ... do your walk and then you'll be set to start your course:

Adios ... until next post.

[Dahila]

I am reading it :)) yeah everyone can fuck off if they do not like it, This is the only thread I read. Market was kind of good, next Saturday is a show close to the house but I was never there before. It is causing a lot of stress, I do not know what is going on with me but I have this overwhelming sadness, it seems like I am kind of depressed, eh that's the reason I keep quiet :)
I will ok though. My rotating joint is killing me , it gives me difficulties to type and a lot of different things. I will recover hopefully ;)

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:) - So good to hear from you again Dahila. Yea ... ruts and cycles to the other side of content D. imo ... Is impossible to always reaming in Peace. We do what we can to pick each other up. I do my best to pick the energy back up in my posts. I just had a moment or two myself is all. Do what you can to rest your mind D.

I just wore myself out a little with touching base in another thread. Now is time for me to go to gym ... I have Men's Group today and want to get the exercise in first ... I talk more about that when I get back and somewhat fresh.

BUT Dahila ... - Your rotator joint? ... By this do you mean your shoulder? :( I know what that can be like. How is it today????

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Things have not changed in the gym D. I just finished my gym session after dismounting a weight off a barbell and slamming it into the ground. I wanted to ensure the fuckwit that rudely interrupted me and his flippant girlfriend, of the type of reaction that they may receive when retrieving weights off a squat rack whilst it's in use. I'd only just worked my way into a good routine with others who were taking the time and making the space to respect each other, that was until this young couple walked in and started doing "their" thing. I can't underestimate the quotation marks in that. Sadly this kind of obnoxious behavior is quite systemic these days.

Anyways ... is a good reminder to pick my times when thinking of going to the gym. SUCKS big time actually. I have a good routine going now. I wanted to polish it a little more before implementing back at home with my other tools. Fuck it ... not worth going back for a whiles. I made a good show of slamming the weight into the ground. I don't need that kind of disrespect and I feel no obligation to go back and prove a point. Is just too toxic for me at this stage. I know enough of the route I was taking and for sure can emulate it here at home. Yep yep ... decision made! :)
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Righto ... time to try this men's group out once more. Was invited by a friend I previously made there. See what happens. Just needed to get that shit of my chest before embarking on the next challenge of the day.

I'm feeling better now ... I hope this finds you feeling also a little better.

I check FB now and see if your on. ;)

[Dahila]

the shoulder hurt like hell for the last 8 weeks only my salves give me temporary relieve, I think it is not going to pass.....................well maybe that's aging.......

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OK D - Maybe this will help. Remember we once discussed Foam Rollers/Therapy Rollers on FB? Something like this ... https://c1.staticflickr.com/3/2860/32316732724_ce5c74bd00_o.png

If you have one ... you got to try this Myofascial Release exercise. I surfer a lot of issues with my shoulder (rotor cuff) and got to say I was impressed after giving the following tutorial a good try. You got to listen carefully and copy the movements as best you can.

Instead of using my more rigid and bumpy roller I used a softer foam roller with good results ... https://c2.staticflickr.com/4/3769/33005573202_6b67f0959d_o.png

Here is the video I followed:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6lwVrPdm_I0

I'm not saying it's going to fix your issue but I can tell you as someone who suffers often with shoulder issues that this exercise gives me instant relief! I can lift heavier and go longer without pain every time I use this method to correct imbalances, strengthen supporting muscles, iron out residual build up, warm up for activity and or just promote good recovery after excessive use of my worn out shoulder.

I should do this more often. Truth be told, since I started doing this exercise my should feels like it's recovered. :) If ever or when my shoulder now plagues me; you can be sure this is the therapy I will resort to for both pain management and recovery. It can hurt a little, but if you progress slowly its a healing kind of pain that leave you feeling better than when you first started. I ended up beig able to roll all the way down my lat and back up to my bicep. The trick is to roll slightly as you go along with your palm facing up and to progress slowly as you go along. Warm up before you start ... get your circulation moving ... a few very mild stretches and also give it a few goes before making any kind of decisions whether this is the right path or not.

At any rate I found this to be very helpful for me. Those rollers can be had for around $10 - $15 Australian Dollars from your local K-Mart/Wall Mart or whatever you call it over there.

Here's hoping you already have some kind of roller laying about the house. :)

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Imagine if we had nothing to worry about or no one to "fix". God forbid.
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Unfortunately things that don't require money and the fussing of others are not typically encouraged ...
You don't need all that shit ... just go for a walk. There are plenty of others that will panic for in your stead. :)

A photo I took whilst once out on a walk.

https://c1.staticflickr.com/1/262/19760317691_aa6d603432_o.png

Edit ... Self Moderated for a softer touch - http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/fighting/bash-head.gif... hehe Seriously ... is a good way to be. ; )

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I'm kind of just procrastinating now. This MOOC Massive Open Online Courses - is a little hard for me to navigate through and understand what it is that I have to do. BUT - I will stick it out. For now though ... I make another relaxing post in this here space before going out for a run.

About my Session @ Mens Group. (A mental health recovery based group therapy approach yadda yadda)

I know your not feeling that great so I wrote this for you Dahila
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So it is was that I took up my mates invitation to attending group one more time. We both left for similar reasons. It had been some time since our last visit. We consoled ourselves by figuring what's the worst that could happen? At least we would have something to bitch about if we did not like our next sitting. I ended up rather engaged defending the rights of Bisexuals and Lesbians to a rather insecure homosexual who also had a hard time with straight people who experimented being gay. Don't get me wrong ... I love everyone. I just don't think it's right to respond to stigma by doing the same.

So once the room all but cleared and there were only us few left. (sadly a lot of homophobics still around) Well actually after I managed to pursued my friend to come back, low and behold - when the next guy takes his turn to chat ... out comes → "I love religion!" I just looked at my mate and gave him a well meaning smile whilst fighting the laughter welling within. True to form this was my Que to tell everyone how I thought that I was GOD! (my own creator) You had to be there to see this unfold. My mate just threw his hand up like "why the fuck not!" Anyways this other guy goes on about loving rigid rules and having a path to follow; which resonated well with me. By the time he made his point on absolute guidance ... I simply responded "You'd do well in prison. I know I did." After he chocked ... he laughed out loud. :) His delivery was more from an intellectual position. I just continued telling everyone how great if felt to be God and that they should seriously give it a try. At least for a day or two.

So after group there be my mate and me ... walking up the pier and drinking coffee. Not often I drink coffee ... I was having a great day! Alas the sun seemed to agree with me. It was shining bright. Although a little on the hot side the wind came to the party to cool things off. It also help to drown out my mate's insensate yelling; "God damn *&^%ing Gay Convention and Religious Pricks."

As for me? I'm looking forward to next week. Thankfully I convinced my mate to come with.
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The Pier: (on a cooler day)
https://c1.staticflickr.com/9/8603/29000729463_ebf885900f_h.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/LbGjuX)4500Xclose in and angled @ 150mm Zoom (https://flic.kr/p/LbGjuX) by David Kynaston (https://www.flickr.com/photos/71988794@N08/), on Flickr

[Dahila]

:D......................................

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Glad you liked it D :)

Just cutting and pasting this post I made because I like this train of though. I am teaching myself to preach in a new way. hahahahaharrrrr (I'm doing the work) Still working on it!

Just thinking of delving more into this ... but in a place I can lose myself in it. People caught up in the machine that thrive on it, do not like it when you expose it. Nonetheless is no reason not to tell it. :) Addicts we all be!!! Depersonalizing it from societal terms to that all elusive "pain body" ... Oh NO ... don't speak in riddles ... pffft we deal with this in a language that can not be misunderstood soon enough. This is the whole reason I am doing this writing course.
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Form a thread on "Doing The Work"

I find accepting anxiety as an inherent part of the human condition allows me to suffer less, than when viewing it as the primary source to one's mental condition. This mindset alone takes work given how one is conditioned - to reject all forms of pain in favor of endless comfort. The influence of which I write is far different to that of natures programming that help's us avoid pain so that we may live and thrive.

Our economic culture uses fear itself in order to promote suffering so that we may adopt unnecessary methods and controls. What's any of that got to do with "doing the work"? In the spirit of "It's not that simple," I'm simply exposing the complexity of how many of us are influenced into doing more work than we really ought - or should. Moreover the key being in recognizing how we are are taught to fear fear itself. In fact I would go as far to say that my own predispositions spawn from a complex past of child abuse and varioius other negative environmental factors is less detrimental when compared to the mechanism that drives our current ideals, philosophies and ways of thinking.

So it is through this realization that I am better prepared to accept "anxiety" with a lot less fear which gives me more energy to do the work (regardless of which method) that actually works. At any rate ... it would appear to me that one's approach is more crucial to success than the testimonials of successful methods.
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I'm off for a walk with one of the guys from group.

Here's to a good day for all! :)

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ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzzzzz Whatever. D - I will see if I can find any info on any Near Earth Asteroids (http://neo.jpl.nasa.gov/neo/). Perhaps we can look forward to such an event. :)

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What's on the menu for today Davy Boy? --- Morning Run, Trailer Load of Rubbish for family, Weights, Writing Course, Play with Grandson, Eat & Drink well!

Yea ... that's enough.

Ponders the recent comment a certain person made about having one's own thread to show off. I know it was a momentary lapse on their part ... but I reject it completely. It's really as simple as that. I don't give two fucks about what others think of me. Perhaps not that simple as those closest to me can effect me like that, but not fuckers on here who could care less. I'm not here to save others and carry on like some pretentious point scoring dogooder building up fuck knows what for his or her next life. Big cheesy smile at the thought of instigating toxic posts that lead to lynching. Just say what's really on your mind the next time you've got bees in your bonnet.
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So why the fuck do I require space where I write like so? Good Q! (perhaps try asking like that ... although they were just making a negative point) Because it helps me to structure my day despite previous claims of no format being required.

NOW - takes a nice deep breath - on with my day.

~ enjoy.

edit - Obviously I care what others think and it shows ... is as it is ... I was pricked and I responded as above. No need to delete - let's just be honest as "mindfully as we can" Hence my edit. - My bad.

Seriously ... Live & let live ... Peace Out.

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https://youtu.be/iQGik5O_u-4
Adios.