extdewme
02-13-2017, 05:26 PM
Hi,
I here to just get some feedback i suppose. Ive been dealing with anxiety for 4 years now, atleast what i think it is now, im too stubborn to admit it or go to a doctor.... this is hard to put into words even on a keyboard... well i guess its gotten worse and thats why im here. Ive been having what i think are panic attacks every other day now, let me go further into that. Yesterday i had one when I was walking up my sidewalk to the front door, just the feeling of my heart going through the roof, adrenaline shooting to my fingertips, and a complete attention to my surroundings. My hands are shaking, sounds and lights become sensitive to my ears and eyes. I dont know if I feel fear but I feel that Im ready if something was to occur that strikes fear. But i also feel fatigued. I almost feel that im not there in my body, this usually sets later in the 'attack'. I dont know if this is anxiety, but everything that ive read leads to this, I dont want to believe it, I was raised tough minded, hell i joined the Marine Corps right outta highschool with my twin brother. Being in this state of mind is not my nature and excepting that is really difficult for me. What i think really provoked the panic attacks more often is, I was just diagnosed with Meniere's Disease, lost hearing in my left ear and got shit storm of symptoms. Doctor said anxiety is common in most patients. I want to go to a my GP but i cant bring myself to do it, i cant even bring myself to do a lot of tasks. Being social, sending emails, driving, going places or events, small talk, saying hello to a passerbyer, making eye contact, talking about feelings, even writing this im not even sure if can press the damn post button. Theres a mound of things, i could go on forever. I just need to know if im feeling what other people that suffer from this are feeling and how you talked to a proffessional, without shit hitting the fan.
I here to just get some feedback i suppose. Ive been dealing with anxiety for 4 years now, atleast what i think it is now, im too stubborn to admit it or go to a doctor.... this is hard to put into words even on a keyboard... well i guess its gotten worse and thats why im here. Ive been having what i think are panic attacks every other day now, let me go further into that. Yesterday i had one when I was walking up my sidewalk to the front door, just the feeling of my heart going through the roof, adrenaline shooting to my fingertips, and a complete attention to my surroundings. My hands are shaking, sounds and lights become sensitive to my ears and eyes. I dont know if I feel fear but I feel that Im ready if something was to occur that strikes fear. But i also feel fatigued. I almost feel that im not there in my body, this usually sets later in the 'attack'. I dont know if this is anxiety, but everything that ive read leads to this, I dont want to believe it, I was raised tough minded, hell i joined the Marine Corps right outta highschool with my twin brother. Being in this state of mind is not my nature and excepting that is really difficult for me. What i think really provoked the panic attacks more often is, I was just diagnosed with Meniere's Disease, lost hearing in my left ear and got shit storm of symptoms. Doctor said anxiety is common in most patients. I want to go to a my GP but i cant bring myself to do it, i cant even bring myself to do a lot of tasks. Being social, sending emails, driving, going places or events, small talk, saying hello to a passerbyer, making eye contact, talking about feelings, even writing this im not even sure if can press the damn post button. Theres a mound of things, i could go on forever. I just need to know if im feeling what other people that suffer from this are feeling and how you talked to a proffessional, without shit hitting the fan.