tiredoffeelinganxious
02-07-2017, 03:40 PM
Hi all,
I'm new to this forum but NOT to anxiety and depression. I've suffered with it on and off for years. The past month or so its been really bad, maybe the worst it's ever been. Just a quick history: I have GAD, with maybe a little OCD (more obsessive thoughts). Lately my biggest fear is that I'm going to go crazy, either hurting someone else or myself. I'm afraid I'm going to have to be institutionalized, or have my kids taken from me because I can't take care of them. Most people who know me would NEVER think I am an anxious person. I'm very social, happy, etc. But lately I'm really struggling on the inside. I just feel like everyone is so normal and I'm not. I have taken 20 mg of lexapro for a long time, my general dr added wellbutrin which made me a million times more anxious so I stopped, now I'm on 30 mg of lexapro, eventually 40 mg, of lexapro after I saw a psychiatrist. I'm doing CBT and its helping a little bit. I guess I"m just wondering if anyone else feels like they're going to go crazy and do something nuts? I don't think I ever would, but then my anxiety creeps in like, what if?....I never really had these thoughts until a month or so ago, other than the random crazy thought. But now they are bothering me almost constantly. Also, I have these weird feelings sometimes like I can't believe I'm a person and I exist? How nuts is that? Not like depersonalization, at least I don't think so?
Has anyone with anxiety ever gone off the deep end and hurt themselves or someone else? I'm so worried about this.
Thanks everyone!
I'm new to this forum but NOT to anxiety and depression. I've suffered with it on and off for years. The past month or so its been really bad, maybe the worst it's ever been. Just a quick history: I have GAD, with maybe a little OCD (more obsessive thoughts). Lately my biggest fear is that I'm going to go crazy, either hurting someone else or myself. I'm afraid I'm going to have to be institutionalized, or have my kids taken from me because I can't take care of them. Most people who know me would NEVER think I am an anxious person. I'm very social, happy, etc. But lately I'm really struggling on the inside. I just feel like everyone is so normal and I'm not. I have taken 20 mg of lexapro for a long time, my general dr added wellbutrin which made me a million times more anxious so I stopped, now I'm on 30 mg of lexapro, eventually 40 mg, of lexapro after I saw a psychiatrist. I'm doing CBT and its helping a little bit. I guess I"m just wondering if anyone else feels like they're going to go crazy and do something nuts? I don't think I ever would, but then my anxiety creeps in like, what if?....I never really had these thoughts until a month or so ago, other than the random crazy thought. But now they are bothering me almost constantly. Also, I have these weird feelings sometimes like I can't believe I'm a person and I exist? How nuts is that? Not like depersonalization, at least I don't think so?
Has anyone with anxiety ever gone off the deep end and hurt themselves or someone else? I'm so worried about this.
Thanks everyone!