nathandrake45
12-29-2016, 04:05 AM
Hi, i posted over in the introduction before and thought i would post about my anxiety here.
I think my anxiety started back in 2011 when i was 16, it was not as bad as it was back then as it is now, i first got anxiety after having confused thoughts about my sexuality thinking i was gay but ended up all going away after a few months knowing i was really straight. I think my anxiety went away after that and came back after i graduated from high school in 2013. I started getting insomnia after i graduated and that made me get anxiety that i couldn't sleep. Then my anxiety got worse as worse things happened to me like how i found out a friend i had in high school was a good friend of mine, started saying all these nasty things behind my back, how loneliness is killing me as i see a lot of guys my age having a girlfriend (girls have never really been into me), how my on and off insomnia was getting worse as i had a lot of sleepless nights, how something also happened between me and a good friend of mine, how my mother is always at me about everything, how hot and humid it is where i live and a couple of other things made it all worse. I have been on a few medications but i just feel they haven't made much difference.
I have had a lot of times where my anxiety has felt horrible, especially at night like where my heart is racing and i feel very uncomfortable in bed. Nothing really seems to calm it down, nothing at all. I don't get it a lot now, but when i would have it, it was really horrible.
A lot of the time, my heart is beating fast, i have had two hospital visits over it where my heart was like 110-120bpm and i got tests done and doctors came back and said it was fine. The medication i would take wouldn't slow my heart down. I don't often feel as if it's beating out of my chest but i can feel it beat faster than it normally would.
I sometimes seem to rush things too even if it's like playing a video game or watching a movie and i enjoy doing those things, there's some i'll rush but there's some i won't. I also sometimes walk fast to where i want to go. I try not to rush in my job though.
I've been needing to go back to the doctor but what else can i try for my anxiety? Relaxation music just doesn't really suit me, hypnosis didn't work, breathing or just relaxation exercises don't do much.
I think my anxiety started back in 2011 when i was 16, it was not as bad as it was back then as it is now, i first got anxiety after having confused thoughts about my sexuality thinking i was gay but ended up all going away after a few months knowing i was really straight. I think my anxiety went away after that and came back after i graduated from high school in 2013. I started getting insomnia after i graduated and that made me get anxiety that i couldn't sleep. Then my anxiety got worse as worse things happened to me like how i found out a friend i had in high school was a good friend of mine, started saying all these nasty things behind my back, how loneliness is killing me as i see a lot of guys my age having a girlfriend (girls have never really been into me), how my on and off insomnia was getting worse as i had a lot of sleepless nights, how something also happened between me and a good friend of mine, how my mother is always at me about everything, how hot and humid it is where i live and a couple of other things made it all worse. I have been on a few medications but i just feel they haven't made much difference.
I have had a lot of times where my anxiety has felt horrible, especially at night like where my heart is racing and i feel very uncomfortable in bed. Nothing really seems to calm it down, nothing at all. I don't get it a lot now, but when i would have it, it was really horrible.
A lot of the time, my heart is beating fast, i have had two hospital visits over it where my heart was like 110-120bpm and i got tests done and doctors came back and said it was fine. The medication i would take wouldn't slow my heart down. I don't often feel as if it's beating out of my chest but i can feel it beat faster than it normally would.
I sometimes seem to rush things too even if it's like playing a video game or watching a movie and i enjoy doing those things, there's some i'll rush but there's some i won't. I also sometimes walk fast to where i want to go. I try not to rush in my job though.
I've been needing to go back to the doctor but what else can i try for my anxiety? Relaxation music just doesn't really suit me, hypnosis didn't work, breathing or just relaxation exercises don't do much.