Teafrenzy
10-15-2016, 10:12 PM
Hello my name is Teafrenzy a.k..a Adam. 43 yr old Male. My nickname is chosen by my supplement of choice. I am going through at least 6 cups of Camomille tea per day. Plus a nightime "sleep well" team-tea with Camomille and some other stuff. No Meds yet.
The thing is for almost 15 years I worked at one of the most stressful jobs imaginable. A bank - investment kind of job. I was even manager for 3 years and one of duties was to deal with escalations (fancy term for "I want to speak to a supervisor!!). But no problems. I used to be the guy who had all the answers. All the people looked up to for support.
Last year I got terminated from my job. It was an extremely stressful time. They called me into a small room and grilled me about my performance. It's a long story, but to make a long story short, I did nothing that any sane person would think was a fireable offense. They gave me a severance package and kissed me goodbye.
I used the money and free time to travel to Europe. I met a lot of friends in Toronto from overseas. So I took it as an opportunity, I stayed in Europe for 3 months.
I was experiencing anxiety when traveling of course. There's the time zone change which really messes up your body.
I also had a horrible incident where I woke up and noticed someone standing on my windowsil, trying to break in. I think this lead to PTSD.
But no Panic symptoms until I got back to Toronto.
The first week back, I was fine. No symptoms. But the following week, i was extremely lightheaded and tired all the time. I actually didn't feel stressed out about it. I have Crohn's disese and among the implications are occassional periods of anemia due to pooping blood. I always took B12 supllements and within a few days I felt normal. I tought this was the problem. But it wasn't. I saw my GP, he ran tests. No problems. I saw my eye doctor and my Gastro. No problems. I went to the emergency room for tests. No problems. I went back to my GP and he told me it was "Anxiety"
ANXIETY!!?? you got to be kidding me. I am 43 year old Man. I have been through the most stressful job imaginable. How could this all be in my head?? The Doctor reassured me it was only anxiety. My symptoms now included lightheadedness, tingling, an achy shaky knee, tightness (feeling of strangulation), irritability, brain fog, chills and maybe a few others.
I thought I contracted SOMETHING. I thought it was Lyme disease. But I did notice some odd things. Like how my symptoms always got worse at night, especially the period between dusk and night. How I couldn't sleep. How I woke up anxious all the time. The anxiety excuse made more sense. I started making changes to my lifestyle and the symptoms got a little better. No caffeine, Alcohol, sweets. Only drink water and lots of Tea. I exercise twice a day. I still eat junk food. I find I need it for psychological comfort.
Therefore, I conclude that I probably have Panic Disorders, GAD, PTSD and Phobias. I also have some signs of OCD. Like I obsess about checking the backseat of my car for crooks who may be sitting behind me. I look back there every time I come to a stop light.
I feel terrible, depressed, sad, scared, lonely. I'm not married. I still haven't found a new job. Now I stress about my ability to turn my life around and become "normal".
The thing is for almost 15 years I worked at one of the most stressful jobs imaginable. A bank - investment kind of job. I was even manager for 3 years and one of duties was to deal with escalations (fancy term for "I want to speak to a supervisor!!). But no problems. I used to be the guy who had all the answers. All the people looked up to for support.
Last year I got terminated from my job. It was an extremely stressful time. They called me into a small room and grilled me about my performance. It's a long story, but to make a long story short, I did nothing that any sane person would think was a fireable offense. They gave me a severance package and kissed me goodbye.
I used the money and free time to travel to Europe. I met a lot of friends in Toronto from overseas. So I took it as an opportunity, I stayed in Europe for 3 months.
I was experiencing anxiety when traveling of course. There's the time zone change which really messes up your body.
I also had a horrible incident where I woke up and noticed someone standing on my windowsil, trying to break in. I think this lead to PTSD.
But no Panic symptoms until I got back to Toronto.
The first week back, I was fine. No symptoms. But the following week, i was extremely lightheaded and tired all the time. I actually didn't feel stressed out about it. I have Crohn's disese and among the implications are occassional periods of anemia due to pooping blood. I always took B12 supllements and within a few days I felt normal. I tought this was the problem. But it wasn't. I saw my GP, he ran tests. No problems. I saw my eye doctor and my Gastro. No problems. I went to the emergency room for tests. No problems. I went back to my GP and he told me it was "Anxiety"
ANXIETY!!?? you got to be kidding me. I am 43 year old Man. I have been through the most stressful job imaginable. How could this all be in my head?? The Doctor reassured me it was only anxiety. My symptoms now included lightheadedness, tingling, an achy shaky knee, tightness (feeling of strangulation), irritability, brain fog, chills and maybe a few others.
I thought I contracted SOMETHING. I thought it was Lyme disease. But I did notice some odd things. Like how my symptoms always got worse at night, especially the period between dusk and night. How I couldn't sleep. How I woke up anxious all the time. The anxiety excuse made more sense. I started making changes to my lifestyle and the symptoms got a little better. No caffeine, Alcohol, sweets. Only drink water and lots of Tea. I exercise twice a day. I still eat junk food. I find I need it for psychological comfort.
Therefore, I conclude that I probably have Panic Disorders, GAD, PTSD and Phobias. I also have some signs of OCD. Like I obsess about checking the backseat of my car for crooks who may be sitting behind me. I look back there every time I come to a stop light.
I feel terrible, depressed, sad, scared, lonely. I'm not married. I still haven't found a new job. Now I stress about my ability to turn my life around and become "normal".