xxfairybluxx
10-14-2008, 08:05 AM
Hi all. Sorry about my recent bombardment of posts but talking on here always makes me feel a little better.
I've been suffering from anxiety for at least 2 years. I've not been to a psychologist and don't want to go to one, i'm trying to sort my problems out on my own. The thing is, when I start feeling anxious I can't think of anything else and feel terrible. But when im not thinking about it, I feel ok.
It began when I started thinking about stuff id done in the past and thinking how abnormal and weird some of it was (even though I was only a kid and kids do weird things sometimes). It built up into thinking I wasn't normal and must have had something wrong with me.
Then I started feeling anxious about my boyfriend and whether I loved him. I constantly questioned how I felt and whether I meant it. We were great together and had loads of fun but my anxiety was always at the back of my mind. This all came together to form a constant worry of not feeling how I should be feeling and not being normal. Trying to rationalise it only made it worse. I kept jumping to conclusions and feeling sure that I had worked out why I felt anxious about the relationship but the next day i'd feel totally different.
Well, now i've broken up with him. It came as a total shock to him and everyone else but I felt like I was leading him on if I wasn't in love with him. I've had lots of advice from people and the general consensus is that if I was in love i'd know. I just can't help feeling that this whole thing has been caused by my anxiety and over analysing everything. There was nothing wrong with our relationship and he was absolutely lovely but I just couldn't stand the anxiety and constant doubt anymore. I guess time will tell if i've done the right thing or not.
:(
I've been suffering from anxiety for at least 2 years. I've not been to a psychologist and don't want to go to one, i'm trying to sort my problems out on my own. The thing is, when I start feeling anxious I can't think of anything else and feel terrible. But when im not thinking about it, I feel ok.
It began when I started thinking about stuff id done in the past and thinking how abnormal and weird some of it was (even though I was only a kid and kids do weird things sometimes). It built up into thinking I wasn't normal and must have had something wrong with me.
Then I started feeling anxious about my boyfriend and whether I loved him. I constantly questioned how I felt and whether I meant it. We were great together and had loads of fun but my anxiety was always at the back of my mind. This all came together to form a constant worry of not feeling how I should be feeling and not being normal. Trying to rationalise it only made it worse. I kept jumping to conclusions and feeling sure that I had worked out why I felt anxious about the relationship but the next day i'd feel totally different.
Well, now i've broken up with him. It came as a total shock to him and everyone else but I felt like I was leading him on if I wasn't in love with him. I've had lots of advice from people and the general consensus is that if I was in love i'd know. I just can't help feeling that this whole thing has been caused by my anxiety and over analysing everything. There was nothing wrong with our relationship and he was absolutely lovely but I just couldn't stand the anxiety and constant doubt anymore. I guess time will tell if i've done the right thing or not.
:(