Yorin
07-15-2016, 04:00 PM
Please help me. My parents secluded me from the world when I was a kid. I have no childhood friends, and I was weird. As a kid, I stole a lot. In 3rd grade, I hanged out with boys ( I am a girl) and we annoyed the girls in break time.A girl told me she was with us, and I followed her during break. Apparently she lied. I was called a traitor by the boys. I cried. I loathe girls ever since. I was all alone, trying to make friends but I always ended up fighting them. I just started reading books from the library in grade 4, so I don't appear lonely. I was always afraid of people's thoughts on me. Got my first friend midway in grade 5, always had fights, tried to open up to new people, always fought... Until I gave up. Now, going to be an 11th grader, I just draw or read during break time.
I can't deal with people. I don't want them to look down at me. I don't want anyone to ignore me. I don't greet visitors in my family's home. I raren't leave my home. I hate it when my parents force me tho. MY body involuntarily shake when I am in a social event. My voice would sound funny.
I always had the urge to kill, to harm others. I love serial killers. I can't kill tho. Its strongly forbidden in my religion. I just have this pleasure when I think about the different ways to torture someone to death.
I hate it when someone tries to control me.
I hate how my parents hurt me everyday but I forgive and forget the next day.
I want to hold a grudge.
I always put on a facade to deal with everyone.
People betray.
Friends are nonexistent.
Parents are just there.
I wonder sometimes if I am sane.
So I just pretend.
To be a happy person.
To be optimistic.
I changed my personalities alot.
I know that I am bipolar.
I just want to know, who am I exactly?
Please... help me.
I can't deal with people. I don't want them to look down at me. I don't want anyone to ignore me. I don't greet visitors in my family's home. I raren't leave my home. I hate it when my parents force me tho. MY body involuntarily shake when I am in a social event. My voice would sound funny.
I always had the urge to kill, to harm others. I love serial killers. I can't kill tho. Its strongly forbidden in my religion. I just have this pleasure when I think about the different ways to torture someone to death.
I hate it when someone tries to control me.
I hate how my parents hurt me everyday but I forgive and forget the next day.
I want to hold a grudge.
I always put on a facade to deal with everyone.
People betray.
Friends are nonexistent.
Parents are just there.
I wonder sometimes if I am sane.
So I just pretend.
To be a happy person.
To be optimistic.
I changed my personalities alot.
I know that I am bipolar.
I just want to know, who am I exactly?
Please... help me.