two1two
07-01-2016, 01:09 PM
Hey Guys,
At work but took some time to read some topics and it is great to know there is a place to talk.
I am not sure this is the right place to post but I am frustrated so I thought it would be OK. So, I will give my story with a nice summed up version because I can drag.
When I was around my early 20's, with my wife, we got into a bad car accident. We were young then, she got hurt, I got banged up but we moved on. It was a hard time for me. It was a hard time for her. I wasn't depressed at the time just dark. I felt life at the point was a void for me. Life went on.
About two years down the road, I started driving again - got a new car to get around but I felt faded. At night I would go out and see my g/f at the time, but night felt as I was detached or my eyes were taking me into a different place.
Keep going.
I started working a year later, working very long hours. I was up early and doing long bids until 10pm daily. We were working on a new project and it was key my job to get done. I was probably overdoing it, but still. I finished a late night I remember sometime in Feb.. and I had an appointment at 6pm, then I had a break, so I decided to grab dinner, very high in salt, and come back to handle my 9pm. I handled my 9pm, and I was off to go visit my g/f at the time before I headed home. I got there in about 15 mins, spent a little time and I remember some medical show was on the TV. I started feeling off. I went to the bathroom was like almost throwing up.. so I asked for an advil. I calmed down a bit but said let me head home. I got to my car and started driving to the highway which is about 5 mins from my g/fs house at the time. A block before I start feeling, wow. I am having trouble breathing let me pull over. I was shocked, scared, and it was pitch black out. I pulled over and got out, I was so out of body I was walking I felt but it felt not normal. I quickly called my g/f to pick me up and she bought me back to her parents place. I get there I called my parents to get me. I didn't feel safe to drive. Fast forward 30 mins, I get picked up and I'm driving with my mom. She is taking the longest way home. We get half way home and my heads knows the locations and landmarks around. The hospital is near, so I told her I wanted to go there. She dropped me there and I was checked out around 3am. I was low on potassium and dehydrated. I just remember them pumping me with IV, it felt so cold in my blood.
That was the first scare, I only had one other major time that I went to the hospital and everything was fine again.
After all that I started seeing a doctor. I got prescribed Klonopin as needed. I didn't use it everyday, only as needed. I feel safe with it around. I was always nervous after all that, but I tried daily to break the mold and push myself since I didn't want to resort to using meds everyday. My wife pushed me too and helped and always was understanding before we got married and all that jazz.
Now I've been married for almost 2 years.. Life is good. I work in a stressful job but I enjoy it.
The thing that is holding me back that I can't seem to get nailed down is this constant dull ache. I get worried, I go to the doctor, some days I just say let me deal with it, but it just becoming annoying. I can't remember ever having this growing up. I went to my usual doctor, everything comes back clean. I've done so many EKG's, Blood work, echo's, haulers, stress test, etc. I've even of last week switched to a different doctor to make sure, did an EKG... was fine. I complained so he told me to take 81mg of low dose bayer daily.
I will admit I am over weight, 29 years of age, and have to start putting in time to start working out and eating right. I constantly when have a dull ache stretch my chest and rotate my arms and I feel/hear all types of cracking. Also maybe a little relief from that for a second. I feel like sometimes I can locate the ache, not really pain but just annoyance of the dull ache always there.
I just wish I can go back to normal. I have a child now too, which she is amazing, but I want to make sure I am healthy as can be for her since with this dull ache I think different.
This is my story. Sorry to bore you, just wish I can go back to normal or adjust somehow to find the answer.
-As of now I take Klonopin as needed.
-I take low dosage of bayer daily (81 mg) feel as it does nothing much tho.
-No working out yet
-Not really eating well
Sometimes feel the most anxiety when I am hungry or when I eat and am SO full. I even had the doctor prescribe for reflux... but I felt even worst taking those. So I stopped two days in.
Thanks for your help!
At work but took some time to read some topics and it is great to know there is a place to talk.
I am not sure this is the right place to post but I am frustrated so I thought it would be OK. So, I will give my story with a nice summed up version because I can drag.
When I was around my early 20's, with my wife, we got into a bad car accident. We were young then, she got hurt, I got banged up but we moved on. It was a hard time for me. It was a hard time for her. I wasn't depressed at the time just dark. I felt life at the point was a void for me. Life went on.
About two years down the road, I started driving again - got a new car to get around but I felt faded. At night I would go out and see my g/f at the time, but night felt as I was detached or my eyes were taking me into a different place.
Keep going.
I started working a year later, working very long hours. I was up early and doing long bids until 10pm daily. We were working on a new project and it was key my job to get done. I was probably overdoing it, but still. I finished a late night I remember sometime in Feb.. and I had an appointment at 6pm, then I had a break, so I decided to grab dinner, very high in salt, and come back to handle my 9pm. I handled my 9pm, and I was off to go visit my g/f at the time before I headed home. I got there in about 15 mins, spent a little time and I remember some medical show was on the TV. I started feeling off. I went to the bathroom was like almost throwing up.. so I asked for an advil. I calmed down a bit but said let me head home. I got to my car and started driving to the highway which is about 5 mins from my g/fs house at the time. A block before I start feeling, wow. I am having trouble breathing let me pull over. I was shocked, scared, and it was pitch black out. I pulled over and got out, I was so out of body I was walking I felt but it felt not normal. I quickly called my g/f to pick me up and she bought me back to her parents place. I get there I called my parents to get me. I didn't feel safe to drive. Fast forward 30 mins, I get picked up and I'm driving with my mom. She is taking the longest way home. We get half way home and my heads knows the locations and landmarks around. The hospital is near, so I told her I wanted to go there. She dropped me there and I was checked out around 3am. I was low on potassium and dehydrated. I just remember them pumping me with IV, it felt so cold in my blood.
That was the first scare, I only had one other major time that I went to the hospital and everything was fine again.
After all that I started seeing a doctor. I got prescribed Klonopin as needed. I didn't use it everyday, only as needed. I feel safe with it around. I was always nervous after all that, but I tried daily to break the mold and push myself since I didn't want to resort to using meds everyday. My wife pushed me too and helped and always was understanding before we got married and all that jazz.
Now I've been married for almost 2 years.. Life is good. I work in a stressful job but I enjoy it.
The thing that is holding me back that I can't seem to get nailed down is this constant dull ache. I get worried, I go to the doctor, some days I just say let me deal with it, but it just becoming annoying. I can't remember ever having this growing up. I went to my usual doctor, everything comes back clean. I've done so many EKG's, Blood work, echo's, haulers, stress test, etc. I've even of last week switched to a different doctor to make sure, did an EKG... was fine. I complained so he told me to take 81mg of low dose bayer daily.
I will admit I am over weight, 29 years of age, and have to start putting in time to start working out and eating right. I constantly when have a dull ache stretch my chest and rotate my arms and I feel/hear all types of cracking. Also maybe a little relief from that for a second. I feel like sometimes I can locate the ache, not really pain but just annoyance of the dull ache always there.
I just wish I can go back to normal. I have a child now too, which she is amazing, but I want to make sure I am healthy as can be for her since with this dull ache I think different.
This is my story. Sorry to bore you, just wish I can go back to normal or adjust somehow to find the answer.
-As of now I take Klonopin as needed.
-I take low dosage of bayer daily (81 mg) feel as it does nothing much tho.
-No working out yet
-Not really eating well
Sometimes feel the most anxiety when I am hungry or when I eat and am SO full. I even had the doctor prescribe for reflux... but I felt even worst taking those. So I stopped two days in.
Thanks for your help!