Aurian
06-17-2016, 08:30 AM
Hi all, I'm new to this site. 37yo female. Single, living alone.
Sorry, this is probably going to be long. I have no-one else to talk to.
I've always been a bit anxious and a 'worst case scenario' person. I've recently suffered some personal loss of two beloved companion animals within a short space of each other and this just shattered me.
I thought I was coping well but in hindsight I was probably just bottling up my profound grief.
A few weeks ago I became ill and suffered some scary symptoms, vertigo, dizziness, hot spells, pressure behind my eyes, tinnitus. I've always been healthy, cant remember the last time I've been to a doctor, so I did not know what was going on.
and wham, my first panic attack. So there I was, alone in my house, convinced I was dying or had some horrible disease and had no idea what do do. I very nearly called an ambulance.
Over the course of the next few weeks I had several more panic attacks, I was constantly fearful at work, struggling to concentrate, and my weird eye pressure/dizziness symptoms persisted.
Eventually I made an appointment with a GP. The minute I walked into her office I just broke down and cried. I was so afraid she would diagnose something awful.
Turns out I had a nasty sinus infection which affected my ears too. Thyroid tested ok.
I told her about my panic attacks, extreme anxiety and resulting depression and she prescribed 10mg of Zytomil and 10mg of Urbanol.
I started slow with 5mg of Zytomil for 6 weeks and 10mg of urbanol twice a day.
After 6 days I upped the Zytomil to the full 10mg and kept taking the urbanol.
It's now 9 days later. 2 days ago I panic attacked at work again and went to go see my GP straight away. I told her the urbanol was not touching my anxiety in the least.
She prescribed 0.5mg of Xanor SR twice daily and only THEN tells me that the Zytomil will initially cause my anxiety to flare up for a couple of weeks.
I feel better and go home with my Xanor, convinced this would help until the SSRI kicks in.
Next morning I wake up in a flat panic. worst I've ever felt. it took me 20 minutes just to get up and go take my Xanor.
It did nothing. absolutely nothing. by now I was hysterical and I felt so helpless and petrified.
Somehow I make it to work, suffer through the day on the verge of tears and stumble home.
Yesterday was a public holiday, I suffered through the debilitating panic for the whole day. the 0.5mg Xanor twice daily had no effect.
This morning I could not get myself out of bed to go to work, I was so panicked. I phone my GP and tell her I'm going out of my mind and she has to give me something else.
She sounded a little annoyed with me and said she told me the SSRIs would make things worse initially and the best she can do is up my Xanor SR dose to 1mg. Told me if that doesnt work she'll have to refer my to a Psychologist.
I don't understand how my panic has become so unbearable within such a short space of time. Could it really be the SSRIs doing this?
I am NOT coping right now and feel utterly desolate and scared out of my mind.
Sorry, this is probably going to be long. I have no-one else to talk to.
I've always been a bit anxious and a 'worst case scenario' person. I've recently suffered some personal loss of two beloved companion animals within a short space of each other and this just shattered me.
I thought I was coping well but in hindsight I was probably just bottling up my profound grief.
A few weeks ago I became ill and suffered some scary symptoms, vertigo, dizziness, hot spells, pressure behind my eyes, tinnitus. I've always been healthy, cant remember the last time I've been to a doctor, so I did not know what was going on.
and wham, my first panic attack. So there I was, alone in my house, convinced I was dying or had some horrible disease and had no idea what do do. I very nearly called an ambulance.
Over the course of the next few weeks I had several more panic attacks, I was constantly fearful at work, struggling to concentrate, and my weird eye pressure/dizziness symptoms persisted.
Eventually I made an appointment with a GP. The minute I walked into her office I just broke down and cried. I was so afraid she would diagnose something awful.
Turns out I had a nasty sinus infection which affected my ears too. Thyroid tested ok.
I told her about my panic attacks, extreme anxiety and resulting depression and she prescribed 10mg of Zytomil and 10mg of Urbanol.
I started slow with 5mg of Zytomil for 6 weeks and 10mg of urbanol twice a day.
After 6 days I upped the Zytomil to the full 10mg and kept taking the urbanol.
It's now 9 days later. 2 days ago I panic attacked at work again and went to go see my GP straight away. I told her the urbanol was not touching my anxiety in the least.
She prescribed 0.5mg of Xanor SR twice daily and only THEN tells me that the Zytomil will initially cause my anxiety to flare up for a couple of weeks.
I feel better and go home with my Xanor, convinced this would help until the SSRI kicks in.
Next morning I wake up in a flat panic. worst I've ever felt. it took me 20 minutes just to get up and go take my Xanor.
It did nothing. absolutely nothing. by now I was hysterical and I felt so helpless and petrified.
Somehow I make it to work, suffer through the day on the verge of tears and stumble home.
Yesterday was a public holiday, I suffered through the debilitating panic for the whole day. the 0.5mg Xanor twice daily had no effect.
This morning I could not get myself out of bed to go to work, I was so panicked. I phone my GP and tell her I'm going out of my mind and she has to give me something else.
She sounded a little annoyed with me and said she told me the SSRIs would make things worse initially and the best she can do is up my Xanor SR dose to 1mg. Told me if that doesnt work she'll have to refer my to a Psychologist.
I don't understand how my panic has become so unbearable within such a short space of time. Could it really be the SSRIs doing this?
I am NOT coping right now and feel utterly desolate and scared out of my mind.