justanewbie
10-10-2008, 03:56 AM
Hello all!
I'm Rebecca and I'm 19.
So, I think I have been like this for my whole life. It has just been "me". It's totally who I am. But just a few days ago, I started to think "maybe this isn't normal?"
So I was going to the doctor already for a vaccination, so I thought I'd mention some of my symptoms. Then he was like "ok, I'll get you a referral to a psychologist" and as he was doing that, I sort of just kept talking and he started to see more and more how severe it is.
Apparently it's pretty severe trait anxiety, whatever that means.
I live away from home while I'm at uni, but the year is over in another 5 weeks and then I'm back home and I'll be going to a psychologist in the holidays to try to see what's going on, i guess.
I'm sort of trying to build a bit of a list of what's going on with me before I go to the psychologist so that I am prepared and have things to say. I don't even know what to expect when I go.
i feel anxious 24/7 basically, i cant drive, i cant be a passenger even (well, i have to sometimes of course, but i absolutely hate it), im still scared of the dark, i get super paranoid over tiny things that dont matter. i'm scared to cook meat. i'm scared of crowds, i hate to go out with friends. i can't call places to book appointments, i can't be served in a store - i hate to ask where something is, i can't go up to the receptionist at the doctors, i cant sit in the doctors without my heart racing, my hands sweating... just because it's not something i do in my daily life. i'm scared of reflective surfaces. i am super scared about certain things such as global warming, the economy, society issues. even though i know i can't do anything, i just stress and stress and stress about it. i'm just frantic.
that's not a full list, but i'm just sort of trying to form one. also, the thing is, i am SUPER aware of how ridiculous it all is, which frustrates me even more, and makes everything even worse. while i am freaking out, i'm just like "stop! this is so stupid!!" to myself. i am lucky to have no depression though. i do have issues with frustration and anger, though, and i think it is linked to my anxiety maybe.
anyway, this has been me blabbering so much, basically just for myself i guess haha. thanks for reading if you made it this far!!
I'm Rebecca and I'm 19.
So, I think I have been like this for my whole life. It has just been "me". It's totally who I am. But just a few days ago, I started to think "maybe this isn't normal?"
So I was going to the doctor already for a vaccination, so I thought I'd mention some of my symptoms. Then he was like "ok, I'll get you a referral to a psychologist" and as he was doing that, I sort of just kept talking and he started to see more and more how severe it is.
Apparently it's pretty severe trait anxiety, whatever that means.
I live away from home while I'm at uni, but the year is over in another 5 weeks and then I'm back home and I'll be going to a psychologist in the holidays to try to see what's going on, i guess.
I'm sort of trying to build a bit of a list of what's going on with me before I go to the psychologist so that I am prepared and have things to say. I don't even know what to expect when I go.
i feel anxious 24/7 basically, i cant drive, i cant be a passenger even (well, i have to sometimes of course, but i absolutely hate it), im still scared of the dark, i get super paranoid over tiny things that dont matter. i'm scared to cook meat. i'm scared of crowds, i hate to go out with friends. i can't call places to book appointments, i can't be served in a store - i hate to ask where something is, i can't go up to the receptionist at the doctors, i cant sit in the doctors without my heart racing, my hands sweating... just because it's not something i do in my daily life. i'm scared of reflective surfaces. i am super scared about certain things such as global warming, the economy, society issues. even though i know i can't do anything, i just stress and stress and stress about it. i'm just frantic.
that's not a full list, but i'm just sort of trying to form one. also, the thing is, i am SUPER aware of how ridiculous it all is, which frustrates me even more, and makes everything even worse. while i am freaking out, i'm just like "stop! this is so stupid!!" to myself. i am lucky to have no depression though. i do have issues with frustration and anger, though, and i think it is linked to my anxiety maybe.
anyway, this has been me blabbering so much, basically just for myself i guess haha. thanks for reading if you made it this far!!