Fenderbass2322
05-20-2016, 10:00 PM
Hi everyone. I was so certain I would have conquered this by now, but I have not. Let me give you a short rundown of my story.
3 months ago, I was working from home. I had a ton to do this day, and had quite a bit of caffeine. I had a migraine as well, so I took some excedrin. The bottle said take 1, but I took 2. I decided to take a shower and let the hot water run over my neck. I started feeling weird, so I shut the shower off. As I was stepping out, I felt like I was going to pass out. This normal day took a turn really quickly. I think what really happened, was my bp dropped from the heat and I nearly passed out, but I induced panic from nearly passing out. I was confused why this was happening to me. I eat healthy, and I'm very fit. 25 years old and taking great care of myself.
I went to a 24 hour clinic in a panicked state. They took me back quickly and took my BP. It was very high. 180/110. This was my first attack, so I thought I was dying. The nurses looked at me in shock, which only made things worse. What really made it worse was the doctor. She couldn't tell me anything and just said I needed to go to the hospital because I could be dying. Great advice doc, I'm panicking more now.
I get to the ER, and things slowed down. I felt safer. They did blood work and an EKG on me. BP went back down towards normal levels fairly quickly. I was in and out within 2 hours.
Things seemed ok after this, but I was a little paranoid over my BP. I kept checking it a lot, but I told myself that this was only hurting me so I stopped. I went to go see a GP, and he thought it was just anxiety as well and wasn't worried. My bp was higher in the office again, but I wasn't in a full panic so it was 150/90. Still high, but I knew what was happening this time. He tried to give me an SNRI, but I refused.
I went to see a cardiologist not long after. The nurse took my bp and again, 150/90. I was shaking when I went in from fear, but again, not as high as it has been because I knew what was happening to me. After talking with the doctor for maybe 3-5 minutes, he took my bp and it was 120/80. I felt so relieved. A reputable cardiologist told me everything was fine. I should be good right? Nope.
The happiness after that visit last for about 2 weeks. I suddenly became obsessed over my bp again. I started seeing a psychologist who has told me I have panic disorder as well as possible PTSD from my doctors experience. Apparently 1 in 5 patients that go in for possible heart related issues will develop PTSD, and I feel like I'm there. I have nightmares and wake up screaming multiple times a week. This happened before all of this, but not as frequently. The psychologist is helping, but not as much as I had hoped.
My biggest worry now is that my diastolic BP is too high. Of course it will be higher when I'm under extreme stress because I'm very tense. I check it every morning and the first is usually higher than I'd like, but the second and on are always 115-120 over 75-80. Ideal right?
My biggest worry now is when I'm not checking it away from home. I've checked it after working out before and it can be 150/95-100 which is what makes me nervous. I know the systolic increases, but my diastolic is increasing too much. Even right now, I felt uneasy and checked it and it went up to 140/100. Within 5 minutes, I relaxed and it was back to 130/80 area. I don't know what to do and I keep telling myself it's just anxiety, but I can't convince myself. Help.
3 months ago, I was working from home. I had a ton to do this day, and had quite a bit of caffeine. I had a migraine as well, so I took some excedrin. The bottle said take 1, but I took 2. I decided to take a shower and let the hot water run over my neck. I started feeling weird, so I shut the shower off. As I was stepping out, I felt like I was going to pass out. This normal day took a turn really quickly. I think what really happened, was my bp dropped from the heat and I nearly passed out, but I induced panic from nearly passing out. I was confused why this was happening to me. I eat healthy, and I'm very fit. 25 years old and taking great care of myself.
I went to a 24 hour clinic in a panicked state. They took me back quickly and took my BP. It was very high. 180/110. This was my first attack, so I thought I was dying. The nurses looked at me in shock, which only made things worse. What really made it worse was the doctor. She couldn't tell me anything and just said I needed to go to the hospital because I could be dying. Great advice doc, I'm panicking more now.
I get to the ER, and things slowed down. I felt safer. They did blood work and an EKG on me. BP went back down towards normal levels fairly quickly. I was in and out within 2 hours.
Things seemed ok after this, but I was a little paranoid over my BP. I kept checking it a lot, but I told myself that this was only hurting me so I stopped. I went to go see a GP, and he thought it was just anxiety as well and wasn't worried. My bp was higher in the office again, but I wasn't in a full panic so it was 150/90. Still high, but I knew what was happening this time. He tried to give me an SNRI, but I refused.
I went to see a cardiologist not long after. The nurse took my bp and again, 150/90. I was shaking when I went in from fear, but again, not as high as it has been because I knew what was happening to me. After talking with the doctor for maybe 3-5 minutes, he took my bp and it was 120/80. I felt so relieved. A reputable cardiologist told me everything was fine. I should be good right? Nope.
The happiness after that visit last for about 2 weeks. I suddenly became obsessed over my bp again. I started seeing a psychologist who has told me I have panic disorder as well as possible PTSD from my doctors experience. Apparently 1 in 5 patients that go in for possible heart related issues will develop PTSD, and I feel like I'm there. I have nightmares and wake up screaming multiple times a week. This happened before all of this, but not as frequently. The psychologist is helping, but not as much as I had hoped.
My biggest worry now is that my diastolic BP is too high. Of course it will be higher when I'm under extreme stress because I'm very tense. I check it every morning and the first is usually higher than I'd like, but the second and on are always 115-120 over 75-80. Ideal right?
My biggest worry now is when I'm not checking it away from home. I've checked it after working out before and it can be 150/95-100 which is what makes me nervous. I know the systolic increases, but my diastolic is increasing too much. Even right now, I felt uneasy and checked it and it went up to 140/100. Within 5 minutes, I relaxed and it was back to 130/80 area. I don't know what to do and I keep telling myself it's just anxiety, but I can't convince myself. Help.