Dr Feelgood
05-18-2016, 02:11 PM
It's hard to live with something that won't come out and fight me hand to hand, if I look in the mirror it looks back at me yet it remains hidden inside causing so much pain and distress .
I look out through my eyes yet the true me is locked away a prisoner in my own body and mind ,it reaches out and hurts my loved ones ,the pain it causes me is reflected in their faces my pain is their pain .and with this the guilt I feel is almost as painful as the depression itself .
Of course they love and support me but feeling of burdening them is overwhelming ,everything I have good in life is kept away from me I know what I have but this silent sentinel inside will not let me reach out and touch it .
If man could harness the power of depression he would hold in his hand the most powerful weapon on earth .
Such a destructive force , if I must suffer this pain forever and I am 57 now then so be it but you know ,no matter how hard it is I will survive ,I will cry and sometimes I may wish to die , but I will never give in , I have to much love around me and my wife has my soul to keep so this devil cannot reach it .
Never give in even when you are blinded by the darkness there will be little glimpses of light here and there .
I'm in that dark cold place now but I will prevail one one day I'm sure ,if I laugh only once more in this life I will have won . To my Wife and girls I love you so much .your loving dad xxxxxxxxxxx
I look out through my eyes yet the true me is locked away a prisoner in my own body and mind ,it reaches out and hurts my loved ones ,the pain it causes me is reflected in their faces my pain is their pain .and with this the guilt I feel is almost as painful as the depression itself .
Of course they love and support me but feeling of burdening them is overwhelming ,everything I have good in life is kept away from me I know what I have but this silent sentinel inside will not let me reach out and touch it .
If man could harness the power of depression he would hold in his hand the most powerful weapon on earth .
Such a destructive force , if I must suffer this pain forever and I am 57 now then so be it but you know ,no matter how hard it is I will survive ,I will cry and sometimes I may wish to die , but I will never give in , I have to much love around me and my wife has my soul to keep so this devil cannot reach it .
Never give in even when you are blinded by the darkness there will be little glimpses of light here and there .
I'm in that dark cold place now but I will prevail one one day I'm sure ,if I laugh only once more in this life I will have won . To my Wife and girls I love you so much .your loving dad xxxxxxxxxxx