brittypixi
10-06-2008, 11:59 PM
i know i post alot, but i have really been feeling down lately, and when people reply to my messages it really helps. :/
so ive been having these doubts about my boyfriend for almost three weeks now, its really eating me up. ive been thinking what if i never loved him and im just obsessed? or comfortable? but then, that doesnt really make sense i dont think.. i cant really imagine my life without him, it just feels so right to be with him. we have fun together and before this month i never ever had doubts about him and i loved him so so much, but once this thought crossed my mind it started eating me up. my parents and friends and counselor tell me that its apparent that i love him. and i just, i dont want to be without him, he makes me happy and he takes care of me, and i really honestly feel like i love him but these stupid doubts are eating me up, they are seriously making me miserable! once something crosses my mind i seriously obsess about it and i cant stop and i feel like because ive obsessed about this so long that i cant make it go away. but honestly all i want is for the doubts to go away, me to be with him in love, get married, have kids, everything i wanted before these doubts started and now im so confused and lost and just want to feel like i did before all this. i dont want to lose him.. i really dont.
so ive been having these doubts about my boyfriend for almost three weeks now, its really eating me up. ive been thinking what if i never loved him and im just obsessed? or comfortable? but then, that doesnt really make sense i dont think.. i cant really imagine my life without him, it just feels so right to be with him. we have fun together and before this month i never ever had doubts about him and i loved him so so much, but once this thought crossed my mind it started eating me up. my parents and friends and counselor tell me that its apparent that i love him. and i just, i dont want to be without him, he makes me happy and he takes care of me, and i really honestly feel like i love him but these stupid doubts are eating me up, they are seriously making me miserable! once something crosses my mind i seriously obsess about it and i cant stop and i feel like because ive obsessed about this so long that i cant make it go away. but honestly all i want is for the doubts to go away, me to be with him in love, get married, have kids, everything i wanted before these doubts started and now im so confused and lost and just want to feel like i did before all this. i dont want to lose him.. i really dont.