Blackwoodforest
05-08-2016, 06:19 PM
My anxiety is worse than ever, and it's affecting my ability to work.
Last year I finished university. Overall, I didn't enjoy the university experience due to a minor social phobia. I mostly practiced avoidance unless I absolutely had to go to uni. I didn't make any friends while there. However, my anxiety was no way near the way it is now. These days, I have almost constant physical manifestations of it, which never used to be the case.
The only thing I can think of that's making me anxious is my desk job, the same job I had at uni, but now I work four days a week. For some reason, I think it's making me more anxious than it used to.
The commute makes me furious. My new (patronising!) manager and the awful open plan office filled with really loud extroverts constantly talking on the phone is making me miserable. The lack of opportunity to get more responsibility or learn anything new has really been getting to me.
So, as a person in charge of my own life, I've been looking for new jobs... but I'm having no luck landing interviews. So basically, I'm 100% stuck working here until someone gives me a chance at another job.
I'm really starting to struggle and become resentful and it's starting to show through. Obviously, I want a good reference, so I need to keep good relationships with my coworkers.
How can I cope in the meantime?
Last year I finished university. Overall, I didn't enjoy the university experience due to a minor social phobia. I mostly practiced avoidance unless I absolutely had to go to uni. I didn't make any friends while there. However, my anxiety was no way near the way it is now. These days, I have almost constant physical manifestations of it, which never used to be the case.
The only thing I can think of that's making me anxious is my desk job, the same job I had at uni, but now I work four days a week. For some reason, I think it's making me more anxious than it used to.
The commute makes me furious. My new (patronising!) manager and the awful open plan office filled with really loud extroverts constantly talking on the phone is making me miserable. The lack of opportunity to get more responsibility or learn anything new has really been getting to me.
So, as a person in charge of my own life, I've been looking for new jobs... but I'm having no luck landing interviews. So basically, I'm 100% stuck working here until someone gives me a chance at another job.
I'm really starting to struggle and become resentful and it's starting to show through. Obviously, I want a good reference, so I need to keep good relationships with my coworkers.
How can I cope in the meantime?