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Blackwoodforest
05-07-2016, 02:48 AM
I'm a 22 year old female from Aistralia. I was diagnosed with anxiety yesterday.

I went to the doctor because I've been having some scary physical symptoms: tingling legs, random itchiness, a feeling of not being able to breathe despite my oxygen intake being at 99% with clear lungs. Headaches, lethargy, you name it, I've had it. The only thing my doctor could find wrong with me was a facing heart. Textbook anxiety.

To be honest, I wasn't that surprised. I've suffered with anxiety and subsequent depressed type moods for a long time. I learnt to control the feelings so well though that they seemed to have started manifesting physically. I agreed with the doctor that I probably have anxiety. She asked me if anything in particular is worrying me, but to be honest, it's just life in general. I feel like modern life is so incredibly unhealthy for the human spirit. My desk job and commute kills me. I didn't really go into with my doctor because I felt a bit overwhelmed. I think she understood, because she sent me for some blood tests just in case I have a deficiency or something, but said while I'm waiting for results, I should think about whether id like to treat my anxiety.

Well the decision is a big fat yes! I'm so tired of feeling anxious. Looking at me, you'd have no idea that I'm an anxious wreck. But I'm tired of using alcohol/coffee/whatever else as a self-medication so I can function at social gatherings. I have no interest in anything anymore, I feel like I've lost control and last year, I even developed the beginnings of what I would call disordered eating. I am looking for a new job right now and it's so difficult and soul-destroying. I feel if I can tackle my anxiety, this process might be easier. I'm going to back and discuss some options.

Yesterday, I was feeling really positive that I've finally acknowledged my problem. But then today, I was at my parents' house and I told my mum the deal. She immediately freaked out and just yelled at me saying DO NOT TAKE ANTIDEPRESSANTS THEYLL TURN YOU WEIRD. I think if she knew how weird I feel inside, she wouldn't say such things. It really hurt me but I don't really have any friends to talk to about this. So I'm reaching out here for support, tips and info. I hope to have a good chat with some of you. :)

TreeStar
05-07-2016, 07:48 AM
Oh, sweetheart. I have been there with my mother. It took her a long time to understand what I was going through the first time I was dealing with anxiety (I was your age), this time around I'm a fair bit older (as is she) and she sort of gets it now.

It seems like it's taken you yourself a while to acknowledge your condition, so don't be surprised if it takes her some time too.

I have been lucky as I have had my dad to help me, he suffers with anxiety too, so he understands it. Hopefully you will find some support here too.

Blackwoodforest
05-08-2016, 05:55 PM
Hi TreeStar, thanks for that. Both my parents are very old school, 'stiff upper lip' types, so I bet they will take a lot of time. I hope to find more support and understanding here too though. Sometimes it's easier to talk to strangers than people that you know.