samuel123
05-04-2016, 10:27 PM
Hello Everyone,
My name is sam. I had my first panic attack on 25th November 2015. I can not forget that day. I did not know what was happening to me... Sudden heart race.. tunnel vision... choking sensation. Then I started getting panic attacks quiet frequently. I was scared to leave my house..even to take shower. I lost my sleep, appetite and interest in everything. I did not know what was happening. I have done skydiving ,scuba diving , travelled countries alone. And now I was scared to even leave my room. All I wanted to do was to google my symptoms and look for answers. This continued for a month. Then I decided to visit my parents. Visiting my parents did help me, don't know how. My sleep cycle improved, from 3 hours to 6 -7 hours. Choking sensation was gone. Very few panic attacks.
After staying at my parents for a month, I had to resume to my old life. I thought everything was going well. I started exercising, I was no more afraid of showers, leaving house.. I was becoming normal and then...Something hit me again... Around Mid Feb 2016, I was in the kitchen and suddenly, out of nowhere I got tunnel vision. It was nothing like panic attack. It was different. I felt like I am in dream, I looked at my hand... my surrounding. I felt disconnected. I could recognize everything.. but still everything felt different. Felt like I am super high. I though its due to blood sugar or something. But No, The feeling continued . I felt like I was losing my mind .. going crazy. I googled my symptoms, those were more or less similar to Depersonalization/Derealization.I couldn't take it anymore.. So I decided to consult psychiatrist . After consultation , he diagnosed me with Anxiety Disorder, and put on medication. Medication made me numb, difficulty in orgasm, constant head pressure. Still I continued taking medication for months. It did'nt help me, so I stopped.
Its been 5 + months now,I haven't recovered yet completely. I question my existence, go deep into thoughts of space and universe. Vivid dreaming. Constant head pressure.Feel panicky, (Haven't had full blown panic attack sine 3 month though). Toughest part for me is to deal with feeling of depersonalization/derealization state. Its scary. When I look into the mirror, I feel different. I feel like I am disconnected with everything. When I look at other people and their NORMAL life, I feel like s**t.
I AM LOSING HOPE DAY BY DAY. I FEEL LIKE I AM WEAK AND STUCK,
What should I do ? will i ever be normal again.. any success stories are welcome. Please help me.
Sorry for long story.
My name is sam. I had my first panic attack on 25th November 2015. I can not forget that day. I did not know what was happening to me... Sudden heart race.. tunnel vision... choking sensation. Then I started getting panic attacks quiet frequently. I was scared to leave my house..even to take shower. I lost my sleep, appetite and interest in everything. I did not know what was happening. I have done skydiving ,scuba diving , travelled countries alone. And now I was scared to even leave my room. All I wanted to do was to google my symptoms and look for answers. This continued for a month. Then I decided to visit my parents. Visiting my parents did help me, don't know how. My sleep cycle improved, from 3 hours to 6 -7 hours. Choking sensation was gone. Very few panic attacks.
After staying at my parents for a month, I had to resume to my old life. I thought everything was going well. I started exercising, I was no more afraid of showers, leaving house.. I was becoming normal and then...Something hit me again... Around Mid Feb 2016, I was in the kitchen and suddenly, out of nowhere I got tunnel vision. It was nothing like panic attack. It was different. I felt like I am in dream, I looked at my hand... my surrounding. I felt disconnected. I could recognize everything.. but still everything felt different. Felt like I am super high. I though its due to blood sugar or something. But No, The feeling continued . I felt like I was losing my mind .. going crazy. I googled my symptoms, those were more or less similar to Depersonalization/Derealization.I couldn't take it anymore.. So I decided to consult psychiatrist . After consultation , he diagnosed me with Anxiety Disorder, and put on medication. Medication made me numb, difficulty in orgasm, constant head pressure. Still I continued taking medication for months. It did'nt help me, so I stopped.
Its been 5 + months now,I haven't recovered yet completely. I question my existence, go deep into thoughts of space and universe. Vivid dreaming. Constant head pressure.Feel panicky, (Haven't had full blown panic attack sine 3 month though). Toughest part for me is to deal with feeling of depersonalization/derealization state. Its scary. When I look into the mirror, I feel different. I feel like I am disconnected with everything. When I look at other people and their NORMAL life, I feel like s**t.
I AM LOSING HOPE DAY BY DAY. I FEEL LIKE I AM WEAK AND STUCK,
What should I do ? will i ever be normal again.. any success stories are welcome. Please help me.
Sorry for long story.