roseDevries
04-27-2016, 09:14 PM
Hello everyone.
I've read a bit around here and I'm honestly not sure if this will help at all but I'm at a point where I'll try just about anything as long as it's different.
I've read a lot about different therapies including CBT, self-care, coping skills, and discomfort tolerance, but all of these systems only help me when there's something I can do to fix the problem.
That's taken me a long way; I survived my suicide attempt at 18 and now I'm 21 and far more satisfied with my life than I was for years back then.
But recently my sister's mental condition has gotten worse.
I started raising her when I was 15 because my parents aren't fit to, and in a misguided attempt to protect her from bad things, I didn't expose her to them at all and gave her almost no capacity to deal with difficult situations on her own.
Now she's threatening to kill herself every few weeks and looking into inpatient programs that I'm not sure we can afford and I'm moving to a neighboring state in a week (instead of living a few blocks away from her like I am now) and I'm so worried about when I'll get the world-ending phone call that I can barely breathe.
I need to pack and finish work projects and cook and clean but I can't seem to do anything of this with this massively painful compress on my chest all the time. I am doing all I can to help her but it's suffocating me all the same.
Any advice at all would be appreciated.
Thanks for listening.
Rose.
I've read a bit around here and I'm honestly not sure if this will help at all but I'm at a point where I'll try just about anything as long as it's different.
I've read a lot about different therapies including CBT, self-care, coping skills, and discomfort tolerance, but all of these systems only help me when there's something I can do to fix the problem.
That's taken me a long way; I survived my suicide attempt at 18 and now I'm 21 and far more satisfied with my life than I was for years back then.
But recently my sister's mental condition has gotten worse.
I started raising her when I was 15 because my parents aren't fit to, and in a misguided attempt to protect her from bad things, I didn't expose her to them at all and gave her almost no capacity to deal with difficult situations on her own.
Now she's threatening to kill herself every few weeks and looking into inpatient programs that I'm not sure we can afford and I'm moving to a neighboring state in a week (instead of living a few blocks away from her like I am now) and I'm so worried about when I'll get the world-ending phone call that I can barely breathe.
I need to pack and finish work projects and cook and clean but I can't seem to do anything of this with this massively painful compress on my chest all the time. I am doing all I can to help her but it's suffocating me all the same.
Any advice at all would be appreciated.
Thanks for listening.
Rose.