anxix
03-23-2016, 05:25 PM
Hi all
A year or so ago I had a massive anxiety attack during a fight with my partner. During this I was begging my partner to help me because I couldn't breathe, and I wanted to badly hurt myself. Long story short, he refused and went to sleep. Since then I've had huge abandonment issues and I've detached myself from him because I don't want to appear weak again. He's been getting upset that I don't want to talk to him about anything, so I've promised to open up again.
Today, not even two days after this conversation, I told him I was worried about finances. I kept asking questions and was getting into a spiral, and was asking for him to help me through it, but again he just left the conversation and the same thing happened all over again. I don't know how to explain how this feels, like my foundation is being ripped from underneath me I guess, and I panic more and more and more until I do something stupid to make it stop
I need help on how to deal with the symptoms myself instead of needing to talk through it. Talking through it really helps but I don't have that support there
A year or so ago I had a massive anxiety attack during a fight with my partner. During this I was begging my partner to help me because I couldn't breathe, and I wanted to badly hurt myself. Long story short, he refused and went to sleep. Since then I've had huge abandonment issues and I've detached myself from him because I don't want to appear weak again. He's been getting upset that I don't want to talk to him about anything, so I've promised to open up again.
Today, not even two days after this conversation, I told him I was worried about finances. I kept asking questions and was getting into a spiral, and was asking for him to help me through it, but again he just left the conversation and the same thing happened all over again. I don't know how to explain how this feels, like my foundation is being ripped from underneath me I guess, and I panic more and more and more until I do something stupid to make it stop
I need help on how to deal with the symptoms myself instead of needing to talk through it. Talking through it really helps but I don't have that support there