rhiannon87
03-08-2016, 10:47 AM
My weight over the past 6 months has shot up 15 pounds, primarily in my stomach and I have had awful stomach issues (IBS symptoms, cramps on my right side that I have convinced myself is liver failure), etc.
My anxiety brain tells me I have some underlying medical condition, even though my doctor thinks the anxiety medication will help my stomach problems. My rational and educated brain tells me I KNOW cortisol levels increase with anxiety which can cause weight gain and belly fat. It can also cause IBS type symptoms. But I can't shake the nagging thought I have something wrong inside and that I will need surgery or have some life altering illness. I am consumed and obsessed with it.
Then the frustration sinks in. Am I feeling this pain in my stomach because I am obsessing on it so much? Is it even real? It hurts worse after I drink, and then I am positive its my liver or gallbladder going out. I have been good about not googling though so that's a plus.
I was prescribed Buspar again which I start today and have a follow up appointment in 4 weeks. I am going to try to keep working out, meditating, let the meds do their thing, and hopefully the stomach issues will resolve on their own.
About 3 years ago when my anxiety was at an all time high like it is now, I had all the blood work, scans, etc. you can think of and everything was normal. I am relatively young (28). I am trying to tell myself that the odds of having something life threatening are slim, but my OCD is consuming my life. I had a bad breakup and for the past two years didn't take the best care of myself. I partied and drank a lot and ate terribly, which is why I believe I have done irreparable damage to my body internally. I am a full time student and work full time so my stress is monumental. On top of that, I recently discovered I am being stalked by an ex boyfriend who has a violent criminal past.
I just needed to get this out and vent and maybe relate to someone.
My anxiety brain tells me I have some underlying medical condition, even though my doctor thinks the anxiety medication will help my stomach problems. My rational and educated brain tells me I KNOW cortisol levels increase with anxiety which can cause weight gain and belly fat. It can also cause IBS type symptoms. But I can't shake the nagging thought I have something wrong inside and that I will need surgery or have some life altering illness. I am consumed and obsessed with it.
Then the frustration sinks in. Am I feeling this pain in my stomach because I am obsessing on it so much? Is it even real? It hurts worse after I drink, and then I am positive its my liver or gallbladder going out. I have been good about not googling though so that's a plus.
I was prescribed Buspar again which I start today and have a follow up appointment in 4 weeks. I am going to try to keep working out, meditating, let the meds do their thing, and hopefully the stomach issues will resolve on their own.
About 3 years ago when my anxiety was at an all time high like it is now, I had all the blood work, scans, etc. you can think of and everything was normal. I am relatively young (28). I am trying to tell myself that the odds of having something life threatening are slim, but my OCD is consuming my life. I had a bad breakup and for the past two years didn't take the best care of myself. I partied and drank a lot and ate terribly, which is why I believe I have done irreparable damage to my body internally. I am a full time student and work full time so my stress is monumental. On top of that, I recently discovered I am being stalked by an ex boyfriend who has a violent criminal past.
I just needed to get this out and vent and maybe relate to someone.