Luke_summers
02-17-2016, 09:33 AM
Hi everyone
I'm 22 now and my anxiety is worse than ever before and has been for the last 3 years.
But that's not say I've not had some good times in the last 3 years I've had some great times,
And met some amazing people. But due to my anxiety I've not managed to build or maintain relationships with any of them which always results in me going back to square one, which in this case is my bedroom my base basically the center of my whole existence my safe place but even there I don't feel "safe" unless the lights and telly are off and I'm under the duvet with my phone on flight mode (so not to recive calls). Which even writing it to me sounds pathetically ridiculous. To be honest I'm not really to sure as to why Im even writing this, the only conclusion I can come up with is as a release. It seems like I can spend hours even days planning on telling people how I feel and that I'm depressed/anxious yet as soon as I come into contact with people I instantly pretend to be happy and sarcastic as a cover up which leads me to think maybe it's more than depression or anxiety??
:Luke summers.
I'm 22 now and my anxiety is worse than ever before and has been for the last 3 years.
But that's not say I've not had some good times in the last 3 years I've had some great times,
And met some amazing people. But due to my anxiety I've not managed to build or maintain relationships with any of them which always results in me going back to square one, which in this case is my bedroom my base basically the center of my whole existence my safe place but even there I don't feel "safe" unless the lights and telly are off and I'm under the duvet with my phone on flight mode (so not to recive calls). Which even writing it to me sounds pathetically ridiculous. To be honest I'm not really to sure as to why Im even writing this, the only conclusion I can come up with is as a release. It seems like I can spend hours even days planning on telling people how I feel and that I'm depressed/anxious yet as soon as I come into contact with people I instantly pretend to be happy and sarcastic as a cover up which leads me to think maybe it's more than depression or anxiety??
:Luke summers.