I am afraid to leave my room

[miss_mac666]

I have had anxiety for the past 16 years or so. I have bipolar disorder, anxiety, depression, emetophobia, agoraphobia. recently was hospitalized and I am so far beyond lost it is unreal. I just need someone to talk to that is not my roommate.

[contikitiki]

Hi mac.
I am new to this forum, have a difficult time in anxiety and panic disorder, as well as taper off problem for my medication.

[jessjess]

Hi Mac! I was an extreme agoraphobe a few years back. It sucks! But you will overcome it one day I have no doubt. Since I overcame my agoraphobia, I've been overseas twice and am now planning a third trip, finished two more degrees, taught high school kids, and became a supervisor of a child care facility. I'm currently finishing off my last degree and volunteering. I was SO out of it for such a long time, no way did it ever occur to me that I could do the things I'm doing now. I've still got a lot to go, but I'm out of the house and enjoying the outside world. You will too, trust me! You just need to take that first step out the front door and when the nasty voice comes that tells you you can't do it, just acknowledge that it's there and tell yourself that it's just another story your mind is telling you.

[salvator here]

How are you doing these days, miss_mac666 - contikitiki - and - jess jess???

I sure hope you are all doing better than I'm doing. Lately, I can feel myself slipping further and further into this scary and desolate place within my own mind. I don't like this feeling, but I loathe to start the never ending drug madness again. I've been off the meds for a few months, and while I don't feel all that good or stable, I (at least) feel somewhat aware of my surroundings now. I think I also need someone to talk to besides myself. I don't even feel like going back to therapy to be honest. All it did was lighten my wallet. I can feel myself replaying this same sequence of thoughts that are telling me that its me against the world (game), and other people and situations are purposely set in motion against me; and this only lead me into destruction one before. These are the same exact signs I was experiencing several years ago (I remember and know them well). Sometimes I just want to scream for help at the top of my lungs, but honestly, part of me is thinking I can beat them at their own game. I sense trouble ahead for me I hate to admit.

So my only coping mechanism has been to stay in my room as well, and I've only come out in short spurts to eat, then back to hiding away again. No good!

[Anne1221]

salvator here, I hope you will do what I did recently. Even though I did not want to take the medication, I just knew I had to, so I did it. Yes, I may not like the side effects, but it's helping me to push out and have more of a life than I had before. I think you have to weigh the pros and cons.

[salvator here]

salvator here, I hope you will do what I did recently. Even though I did not want to take the medication, I just knew I had to, so I did it. Yes, I may not like the side effects, but it's helping me to push out and have more of a life than I had before. I think you have to weigh the pros and cons.Thanks Anne, I appreciate your reply. Right now, there isn't much expected of me, so I can sleep when I want to and that always helps. But of course, I will eventually have to get back on track again and will have to keep a schedule. I've done surprisingly well of everything and I did give my body the break it needed. So overall it was a good thing. For some of us it seems meds are a necessity. I'm alright except for I've been disassociating a lot more lately, and while I could live with this affliction, I sometimes go to scary places in my own mind. ''

Again, thanks so much, and I do hope the above posters are doing alright!