Sam K
01-23-2016, 04:42 AM
Any mental/physical whatever disorder sucks, wither you try to look at it positively as a strength (which it very well can be at some points) it still freaking sucks.
This summer I went on this super awesome trip to Florida with my girlfriend at the time and parents. As awesome as it should be, thankfully I came down with the WORST anxiety I have ever experienced, ever. It was hell, it went on contionusly for the whole week and the 5 weeks after that. I suffered from the anxiety its self but I also got a considerable amount of depression because of the anxiety and my girlfriend had to see me like that and that was the first time she really saw me have anxiety. It built up so much that I was looking for a way out of all of it and suicide looked like a good way out. I never ever ever intended on doing it nor did i try to think of ways on how I would, but it was a eye opener to myself on how severe all this stuff was. I told my girlfriend and she broke down in tears and I spent the next hour on the beach convincing her that I would never dream of doing it. I also told my parents but I was able to reassure them much quicker it was just an eye opener to them too.
Moral of the story is, people are affected by a suicide no matter the attachment/relationship to the person. no matter what your going through if you end it you will be putting similar ish problems onto more people. I have had 7 friends and family members take their lives in the past year. It was a really bad year to say the least. I saw it effect me, and others around me and really made my stance on suicide clear to myself. Suicide should not be looked at as a viable option, it will effect someone, and it is so very unfair to put that burden or guilt onto a person. I don't hate people that do it and call them cowards because they were obviously hurting, but I am by far dissapointed in the fact that they did it and put me or someone else through immense pain. With that said, if you ever are contemplating suicide, ask yourself if you really think that you should put friends, family members, or the cashier at your local grocery store that is always nice to you through that loss of someone that they once new that may have not known you were troubled and ends up feeling guilty for your death. Then once you realize its a terrible idea, you should tell someone, anyone, that it was on your mind and then talk to them about your situation. Talking about whatever you are going through can make the world of difference, trust me on that one.
This summer I went on this super awesome trip to Florida with my girlfriend at the time and parents. As awesome as it should be, thankfully I came down with the WORST anxiety I have ever experienced, ever. It was hell, it went on contionusly for the whole week and the 5 weeks after that. I suffered from the anxiety its self but I also got a considerable amount of depression because of the anxiety and my girlfriend had to see me like that and that was the first time she really saw me have anxiety. It built up so much that I was looking for a way out of all of it and suicide looked like a good way out. I never ever ever intended on doing it nor did i try to think of ways on how I would, but it was a eye opener to myself on how severe all this stuff was. I told my girlfriend and she broke down in tears and I spent the next hour on the beach convincing her that I would never dream of doing it. I also told my parents but I was able to reassure them much quicker it was just an eye opener to them too.
Moral of the story is, people are affected by a suicide no matter the attachment/relationship to the person. no matter what your going through if you end it you will be putting similar ish problems onto more people. I have had 7 friends and family members take their lives in the past year. It was a really bad year to say the least. I saw it effect me, and others around me and really made my stance on suicide clear to myself. Suicide should not be looked at as a viable option, it will effect someone, and it is so very unfair to put that burden or guilt onto a person. I don't hate people that do it and call them cowards because they were obviously hurting, but I am by far dissapointed in the fact that they did it and put me or someone else through immense pain. With that said, if you ever are contemplating suicide, ask yourself if you really think that you should put friends, family members, or the cashier at your local grocery store that is always nice to you through that loss of someone that they once new that may have not known you were troubled and ends up feeling guilty for your death. Then once you realize its a terrible idea, you should tell someone, anyone, that it was on your mind and then talk to them about your situation. Talking about whatever you are going through can make the world of difference, trust me on that one.