A Little Insight for Constant Anxiety

[Kixxi]

After some self-reflection today, I discovered a truth about anxiety. Many of you know that I've been in treatment for about two months and have been struggling lately. This morning, I woke up with terrible anxiety without knowing the reason why. Then it dawned on me, what have I been doing for the past two months and what haven't I been doing for the past two months?

When I was facing my agoraphobia and panic over the past two months, I've been so busy with facing the fear. But what did I forget? I forgot the RELAX! Consciously taking some time for myself and relaxing, no matter how much resistance the body provides was something I forgot to do completely. By facing your fear everyday, your body gets so wired and nervous, simply because you make it so. So I can choose relaxation as well.

While I still face my fears on a daily basis, I'm trying to relax consciously as well. Your body needs a rest to, so it is not all about facing fear all the time. If you are undergoing treatment and experience an increase in anxiety and depression, do not be afraid to take some time to yourself and relax as well. I felt horrible this morning, but now I feel considerably better. In terms of my predecessors: "This to Shall Pass".

[cloudy black]

ah yes relaxing. something i am so rubbish at. i so need to get back into the boat regarding relaxation. so much crap is happening around me at the mo so ....you sound like you have made a shift and that is excellent.

[Kixxi]

ah yes relaxing. something i am so rubbish at. i so need to get back into the boat regarding relaxation. so much crap is happening around me at the mo so ....you sound like you have made a shift and that is excellent.

Slowly but surely. Everyone has really bad days and really good days. It's easier to accept it than to fight it. But honestly, relaxation is so very important, even if you are facing your fears at the moment. After a while your body is so wired everything will give you a fearful or depressed feeling. Also, when there is a lot happening around you, it's even more important to do it. Just so you can get a little bit of relief from the feelings you have. Even if it is only for five to ten minutes.

Also, someone just told me something that got me really upset, then I decided to just let it go and let them believe what they want to believe. The statement was: "are you getting panic attacks to get attention". OMG lol, I felt so much rage inside. But in the end, is it really worth it? Meh, live and let live...

Btw still love your signature Cloudy :D Makes me smile every time I read it lol

[cloudy black]

yes mentally and physically.. i just cant get off that magic round about. maybe.. once i can start up walking again and keep up with treatment to help my feet i might just be able to drain away the excessive nervous energy through walking, need to walk at least 3 miles to 6 miles is the max which is kinda what i was doing before but never really realised it. ah yes the signature its my philosophical slant on the state of things...!

[av1988]

yes mentally and physically.. i just cant get off that magic round about. maybe.. once i can start up walking again and keep up with treatment to help my feet i might just be able to drain away the excessive nervous energy through walking, need to walk at least 3 miles to 6 miles is the max which is kinda what i was doing before but never really realised it. ah yes the signature its my philosophical slant on the state of things...!

Anxiety is a biological problem too

[Kixxi]

Anxiety is a biological problem too

I have to agree, but we need to cope with it somehow. When you stop being afraid of the symptoms, this is where the solution will be found. Unfortunately, I still feel scared of some symptoms, but it will come with time I think.

[av1988]

I have to agree, but we need to cope with it somehow. When you stop being afraid of the symptoms, this is where the solution will be found. Unfortunately, I still feel scared of some symptoms, but it will come with time I think.

Right I agree. Although one should still correct their serotonin levels through meds.

[Boo Bass]

Right I agree. Although one should still correct their serotonin levels through meds.

Hi Kixxi

I agree with your sentiments. I spend all day in jail trying to relax but it's hard, the anxiety never goes away. Do you have any specific ways for doing so? Getting motivated to do something is the hardest part

[Kixxi]

Hi Kixxi

I agree with your sentiments. I spend all day in jail trying to relax but it's hard, the anxiety never goes away. Do you have any specific ways for doing so? Getting motivated to do something is the hardest part

The only thing that really works for me is to remind myself it is just a feeling and accepting that the feelings and thoughts are there. It also helps to check my breathing once in a while, since I tend to hold my breath as I get nervous, which can bring about some of the symptoms.

[cloudy black]

Right I agree. Although one should still correct their serotonin levels through meds.

yes i agree and i am just in the process of requesting that my doc will look at my plan that i am implementing in a bid to get the serotonin levels corrected through vitamin D3 etc see the excellent post by Damavandi for more details. i feel it is time that i make a more concerted effort in regards to helping me improve/recover dare i say it! over many years i have taken different meds all to not much good.. and what little good to be gleaned is offset by side effects. it got that i used to wait until i had 4 to 5 side effects and then i would go back to the doc and the doc would write another prescription out and i am tired of this its just tweaking at the edges and not addressing the issue!

[Kixxi]

yes i agree and i am just in the process of requesting that my doc will look at my plan that i am implementing in a bid to get the serotonin levels corrected through vitamin D3 etc see the excellent post by Damavandi for more details. i feel it is time that i make a more concerted effort in regards to helping me improve/recover dare i say it! over many years i have taken different meds all to not much good.. and what little good to be gleaned is offset by side effects. it got that i used to wait until i had 4 to 5 side effects and then i would go back to the doc and the doc would write another prescription out and i am tired of this its just tweaking at the edges and not addressing the issue!

Unfortunately with medication, it only suppresses your symptoms. Don't get me wrong though, I've been on medication for many years and it takes the edge of when I need it most. I've dragged myself out of the anxiety hole I was in over the past weeks and slowly starting to get better again. The only thing that made me turn around was realising that what I was feeling is normal for someone with anxiety. I didn't try to fight it, I just let it hit me. I still go out daily on my walks and try to go a little further every day. If I do get anxious, I try not to run or increase my walking speed. I allow time to pass and then feel this huge relief afterwards. It is quite powerful, but practice is so important. I'm afraid mine will take a few years, but if I can do more things in the end it will be so worth it.