Personality changed drastically

[dotcom02]

I've been up in down with my depression for the last few years. After this last time, which was the worse of them all, I have found myself in a complete change of personality. I find myself enjoying time by myself. Yet, I've lost trust in the people around me only giving them a short rope when I have to. I think this is the result of people letting me down so many times. I have higher interest in the beauty of nature and historical scenes. I'm constantly searching for wisdom and knowledge. I have much higher respect for music. I'm finding all the little things in life and respecting them more. I think being so close to ending it made me respect the world more. Maybe its my mind making me see what I have. I get that funny feeling inside when I see someone do a good dead or help someone else. I don't know why I changed but I really like what I've turned into. Anyone else notice this?

[salvator here]

My basic personality will change depending on how severe the depression and mood swings are for me. I think its coping mechanism to enjoy time by yourself during these times; give you times get centered again with self.

You don't have to give people complete trust, I think its best to give people a small part of the overall picture (especially in general social settings), should protect oneself from giving too much of yourself when not sure of peoples true intentions. People can only let you down as far as you've allowed them to build you up. One should try to stand tall on their own without relying on others for self esteem.

That's cool though that you are enjoying music and nature etc: I really like everything you wrote here, and you've really gained amazing prospective from what you've gone through. I think we often realize when at our darkest points in life, that we want to live, and life is so worth it.

Your posting helped me!

[Breez]

I've been up in down with my depression for the last few years. After this last time, which was the worse of them all, I have found myself in a complete change of personality. I find myself enjoying time by myself. Yet, I've lost trust in the people around me only giving them a short rope when I have to. I think this is the result of people letting me down so many times. I have higher interest in the beauty of nature and historical scenes. I'm constantly searching for wisdom and knowledge. I have much higher respect for music. I'm finding all the little things in life and respecting them more. I think being so close to ending it made me respect the world more. Maybe its my mind making me see what I have. I get that funny feeling inside when I see someone do a good dead or help someone else. I don't know why I changed but I really like what I've turned into. Anyone else notice this?

I know anybody with depression experiences swing periods. I can relate. I was like that before but it's been much better. I've had my fair share of feeling let down and losing my trust in people. I learned that trust is something earned not given (the same for respect). By the law of supply and demand, something readily available is something less valuable. If you give 100% trust and respect too easily, the other person will not give as much back since they didn't have to work for it. I'd say, give a little and see how things turn out. That way, you make the other party work for it and if you lose the little bit you gave out, it wouldn't hurt as much.

Good luck!

[RoderickLariviere]

This sounds like mood swing, many people experience it. Its all your beliefs, if you see everything in a positive way you will feel happy and things get better. This change is good, just be confident and enjoy life.

[MP270996]

I have a similar belief that depression can change your personality. I became aggitated, hate everything, listen to different music, have different interests(obsessive things that I am doing), like a different kind of people than normal (but the problem is that I am depressed for most of my life so I dont know anymore whats real me). It is like Im not myself anymore.

[MP270996]

Surely after your depression you will see things differently :) Even though sometimes it looks like there wont be any happiness in life anymore(when you are depressed)