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01-09-2016, 03:49 PM
I was diagnosed with bi-polarII 4 years ago. for those of you that dont know what type that is, it involves SEVERE depression. I have been through hell for 4 years and have FINALLY come out of the hell hole and am only here on this forum now to help others :)...ive had depression, anxiety, suicidal, crazy thoughts, what if thoughts, you name it, ive probably had it....message me if you want any tips or help <3
My story began with me in a car with some friends and it was as if a switch went off in my brain. Some people go into it and i guess others it happens really quickly. As time went on I could tell i was becoming very socially awkward. This was SOOOO strange to me because im a likable person. Not to brag or put labels on anything but in elementary, middle, and a little in highschool, I was very popular. Even when I switched schools 4x. I was always pretty likable, then all of a sudden i become awkward to talk to? Doesn't make sense. Later the depression hit me like a ton of bricks. im sure all of you know what im talking about and probably dont need to explain much. I went to the doctor and he diagnosed me as bi-polarII...I was very turned off from this because there is no way i am bi-polar. I know who i am and i dont have mood swings. He told me it happens at early adult hood. This scared me because i started to believe it a little more. So as 3 years in life went by with barley making it, I FINALLY started to accept the fact that im different and think a different way then most. I even started to believe that im a little crazy! and its funny because are we all a little crazy "normal" and "not normal". Dont we all have some type of head screws loose? Once I began to accept these crazy "abnormal" thoughts the doctors have been trying to get rid of, i was free :)
My story began with me in a car with some friends and it was as if a switch went off in my brain. Some people go into it and i guess others it happens really quickly. As time went on I could tell i was becoming very socially awkward. This was SOOOO strange to me because im a likable person. Not to brag or put labels on anything but in elementary, middle, and a little in highschool, I was very popular. Even when I switched schools 4x. I was always pretty likable, then all of a sudden i become awkward to talk to? Doesn't make sense. Later the depression hit me like a ton of bricks. im sure all of you know what im talking about and probably dont need to explain much. I went to the doctor and he diagnosed me as bi-polarII...I was very turned off from this because there is no way i am bi-polar. I know who i am and i dont have mood swings. He told me it happens at early adult hood. This scared me because i started to believe it a little more. So as 3 years in life went by with barley making it, I FINALLY started to accept the fact that im different and think a different way then most. I even started to believe that im a little crazy! and its funny because are we all a little crazy "normal" and "not normal". Dont we all have some type of head screws loose? Once I began to accept these crazy "abnormal" thoughts the doctors have been trying to get rid of, i was free :)