Just Got a Job Where I am Required to Socialize w/ Fast Food Customers a LOT?

[1Bluerose68]

I feel a bit Overwhelmed, and self defeated before i even begin my new Fast Food p/t 2nd income job, because i don't earn enough as a sub during my primary income day job. I really resent this pressure and feel as though a part of me has Lost Face before i even begin this new eve weekend fast food joint job. Im ordering Invisible Glasses and Im Going to Slowly Disappear. perhaps ironically I shall starve myself to death serving fast Food Customers and then fall into a peaceful rest and never awaken from my starvation coma. The End..............................................G od I wish they would just pay subs a little more per day. W-H-Y me GOD?????????

[Ponder]

Perhaps a lesson in reducing intake and being thankful for what you have?

[1Bluerose68]

My water heather just went out before New Years and colst 1200 clam shells to replace, the garage door before that and during December was again almost 300 to repair. Its NOT about having more money to purchase more food. I am living on my own for 1st time in an old house inherited and its very expensive to keep up with on a sub teachers budget. I only brought in approximately $1400 this month. Thank goodness i split all expenses w/ older bro. However he is a wealthy land owner orf 3 other estates and is working as a FT employee and wel,l paid too. I am just struggling to get by monthly. I feel VERY anxious over this financial budget and unexpected bills and no handman around when things go bump in the night or boom like the water heater did the other day???I worry so much I just took some extra valium just to get to sleep as its now 1AM and am still up on the net.....