new to this and desperate for some help support.

[lalabutterfly]

Hi there, I've been a high anxiety panic attack prone person my entire life. only recently tried therapists, meds and dbt group therapy. i have had two in patients stays in the past which helped but i was using alcohol to cope and when fell off the sobriety got into a lot of legal trouble. the legal stuff is going ok, but i found myself the past few days the most alone, desperate, scared i have ever been. i have three beautiful kids i need to be normal mom for. i hate feeling like i will never be normal again. i've stopped eating sleeping and the meds don't help. my therapst is very anti meds and thinks i need to use coping skills. those skills only work until i pass the border for me going into 'danger zone' . i miss my old self. i've lost a ton of weight and fear i'll end up in the ER or worse. the worst attacks started three nights ago. I told my spouse but he can only do so much. I need to force myself to eat or i'll get down to 100 lbs and be very sick. Why I can't get back to feeling 'normal' or through this rough patch is starting to slowly drive me out of my mind. thanks for reading.....
lala

[cloudy black]

hello lalabutterfly and welcome to the forum. for your kids sake you need to keep with the meds and counseling if that's on offer. there are people on the forum who have talked about meds. i would encourage you to visit there and read some of the posts.

when you are going through it like you are it is extremely important that you get into a stable daily life style and taking responsibility for your own mental health is the first step. and yes if you have coping strategies that is good but if you need to take meds then take them.

[Anne1221]

I can only speak for myself, but I have found antidepressants to be very helpful in keeping my anxiety under control. I would see another therapist because clearly you're struggling badly now. Without medication,I certainly wouldn't be typing on this forum helping others! I'd be a nervous wreck and barely functioning.

[lalabutterfly]

hello lalabutterfly and welcome to the forum. for your kids sake you need to keep with the meds and counseling if that's on offer. there are people on the forum who have talked about meds. i would encourage you to visit there and read some of the posts.

when you are going through it like you are it is extremely important that you get into a stable daily life style and taking responsibility for your own mental health is the first step. and yes if you have coping strategies that is good but if you need to take meds then take them.

Thank you all for your replies. I'm currently on Zoloft 100 mg and gabapentim 300
I was given klonopin to take as needed but my therapist hates this idea
I saw him yesterday I was a complete wreck he had to know
I'm taking the klono today and keeping busy with kids
But still feel so badly like I'm in Another body and possessed
Want to sleep and never wake up til I'm normal again

[lalabutterfly]

Antidepressant helps?

[cloudy black]

yes in as much as you don't get so bad that you don't get hospitalised i guess. i have sailed very close to cracking up and that takes a long time to come back from. you certainly dont want to get any worse than you are right now.

[Anne1221]

Yes, antidepressants (such as Zoloft) help for both anxiety and depression. The Klonopin will help for anxiety. You need to eat more to keep up your strength for your children. Try some sort of drink like Ensure that has vitamins and minerals in it. Or drink healthy shakes to keep up your stamina.

[lalabutterfly]

Yes, antidepressants (such as Zoloft) help for both anxiety and depression. The Klonopin will help for anxiety. You need to eat more to keep up your strength for your children. Try some sort of drink like Ensure that has vitamins and minerals in it. Or drink healthy shakes to keep up your stamina.

Thanks! So both the Zoloft and klono pin can help? I have a real issue with wanting to eat
I've never my whole life had an eating disorder I have a robust appetite but with the past years stress with the marriage and kids and anxiety it's like I cd not eat a tiny morsel. And many times I'd vomit if i did
I have ensure will try that :////