Hello

[Beth-28]

Hi My name is Beth and I have recently began to think I could be suffering from anxiety, I have struggled with a lot of different things throughout my life, all starting from when I was badly bullied both physically and mentally in Comprehensive school. I have been aware of these struggles for a long time but have never spoke about them or ever but a name to it.
I am hoping to meet some people who may understand what I'm going through and have any advice, as I don't feel I have anybody here at home.

Thank you
Beth-28

[cloudy black]

hello Beth-28 sorry to hear that you were bullied. i mostly managed to not get bullied because i was and still are adept at being invisible. plus i had good training from my brothers who would constantly tease me. i refused to show any emotion so they picked on my younger brother instead. is this a male thing i wounder? do boys have a natural ability to be relentlessly cruel? however when i was in my last year at school this boy decided to try and humiliate me right in a English lesson and i thumped him in the face and the teacher said well done and sent the boy to the head master! :) he never bothered me again!

[Beth-28]

Unfortunately back then I was not very confident at all and did not have it in me to retaliate and hit them back. It was mainly one girl who picked on me and she was from a very hard background- she was ruthless, pulled chunks of my hair out and pushed e down stairs.
Although those bad things happened to me I don't get hung up on them to much, I left school a while ago now and completely separated myself from it when I left, however I do believe a lot of my issues relate back to it. The main thing is the crying- I get very frustrated as its my way of dealing with it, however not professional at all, people ted to think I am young a naive because of it, which I don't think I am, I just cant help but cry :( x

[cloudy black]

no i have never been confident but he was a prat and it was i it was totally spontaneous! i was as timid as a mouse but even a mouse it seems has limits! gosh that sounds nasty what that girl did to you. emotions are a healthy fact of life. i suppressed mine so much that when i got scaled by hot fat at work i never felt it and even noticed it and it took my mother to notice which was a miracle in it self ...that the scald had gone sceptic. i was so out of touch with my emotions its a wonder i didnt go onto a more serious mental health problem.