Hi all

[JaneCrory]

Hi all,

I'm Sarah Jane, and I'm new on here. Looking forward to chatting to everyone :)
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[cloudy black]

hello Sarah i am new also. hope you are getting on ok. i am still finding my way around. but it has been very helpful already. it has been great to talk about what has been untalkable for the longest time.

[JaneCrory]

Hi cloudy black, nice to meet you. I'm doing okay, hope you are keeping well?

Don't ever be afraid to talk about anything, don't be embarrassed or ashamed x

[cloudy black]

thanks. this forum will help me to talk about things. i do wish that i had had a "normal life" and not a life of drifting aimlessly. there are times when it is so hard just being me my "life" gets to me and i get frustrated that i get like this. there are times when i dont bother to go out for days on end. and yet people think that i am doing ok which is a little bit scary at times its like i see the world through a glass wall. thats when i can confidently say i am FINE
Foxed up
Insecure
Neurotic
Emotional (numb)

[JaneCrory]

There are times I feel fine, but all I can describe it is like a wave just comes over me, like a feeling of dread or fear.....and most of the time I don't even know what it's about. I'm sitting now and I feel okay but this morning in work, I could have burst into tears. Thankfully I managed to get myself together, I'm just recently back to work after 3 months off.

[cloudy black]

yes i know what you mean i experience this its horrible and it is hard to be around people including the family. i do hope you can get back into work ok. its a tough one. have you got a good friend you can spend time with. i have a friend who has been so helpful.

[JaneCrory]

Yes I've been back to work about 3 weeks, and it's been fine so far.

My cousin lives facing me, and we are close. We watch movies every weekend. Today has been a good day, me and my sister went for breakfast and went into the shops. Now I'm chilling in the house, and United have won & are top of the league so I'm happy :)
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[cloudy black]

well it is all sounding positive :cool: keep some quality time chilling time amongst all the busy but in balance! all work makes for a dull life and all play makes for problems!

[JaneCrory]

well it is all sounding positive :cool: keep some quality time chilling time amongst all the busy but in balance! all work makes for a dull life and all play makes for problems!

It didn't last long. Yesterday I came home from work, I was very weepy and felt overwhelmed. I will probably take some time off again. Hate feeling like I'm back to square one.
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[cloudy black]

o dear sorry about this. wish there was something i could say to help...other than i have similar difficulties. this week i have had to curb what i do as i feel i am heading towards brittleness. however i have managed to stay away from the beer!! went to see my counselor and just couldnt focus on the session. just blanking out. feeling sad. and things feeling like a brown photograph. but today i am more upbeat and yet i dont know why?!! but i aint complaining have to take the better stuff when it comes along i guess!

[JaneCrory]

I feel somewhat better today, I went shopping and got some more Christmas stuff in :)
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[cloudy black]

"its beginning to look a lot like chrimbo" yeah i did the chrimbo shopping moment yesterday followed by a full english brekkie oink oink

[louise30]

hi im also knew on here too, im sure we can all be positive together and help one another

[MiST]

greetz!

:D

[Louisa Parsen]

Hello and welcome to the forum!