I Think I Disassociate When Very Socially Nervous

[1Bluerose68]

I have a problem of emotionally "Checking out" of a situation which i am not feeling comfortable in by Deep Spacing 9. I disassociate and then it may be hours before my plane will land again. I feel very lonely in that i can't relate when i check out and otherwise never put myself in social position requiring me to be "All 100% Present." It's becoming more and more of a pattern in my anxiety coping mechanisms and like a bad run in a nylon I can't get rid of it either. I hope i never find myself going for a "Long walk on a short dock." I may just keep on walking as my disassociation puts me into " The Zone" when under emotional duress, stress, or coping w/ anything I cant deal w/ cognitively otherwise???

[Ponder]

One will always have issues whilst seeking to fit into someone else's zone. I embrace my space and all within, before allowing myself to be distracted by another's standard that is not conducive to my own. (Have no expectation of fitting In and give up the notion of having to meet a certain need) Society uses the term dissociation as a negative spin. The Fact is Many of us deemed sufferers thrive when coming to understand how well off we are → when disconnected from such false belief.

The trouble is ... this "over cliched" imperfect world in which we live, indoctrinates this need that we must fit in. Dissociation is the first step to healing ... The clinical types would have you stuck in false belief, therefore instead name such a term as the bases for modern day diagnosing, when really, you should be encouraged to delve deeper into why you feel threatened and choose to leave.

The world needs more people to explore in a dissociated mode. More people are sick of the same old BS - it's happening like wild fire these days (great for short term profits and control) ... but no one wants to make the effort that's required to dig deep. Instead it's more about distraction, redirection, providing comfort then labeling and of course ... the pills.

Dissociation in a sick world is the first step to healing. You need to take the next ones on your own, and once you understand ... then maybe you will find others whom appreciate you for whatever space your in. (Better yet! You'll come to appreciate it on your own - WOW - now that's freedom!!! Discovering you need no one nor anything.) You wont mind disconnecting more often, as you will find living with yourself more preferable than the limiting and disabling deception that's constantly sold.

Of course - you might choose to see unicorns and fairies and a bright and colorful world.

Good luck in the deep. ;)

[cloudy black]

hello Ponder. yes all my life i have tried to fit into the status quo and failed miserably and now i just cant be bothered with the crap out there and i feel i need to quarantine myself from the system so that i can function, that is what i realise that i am doing having read your post. although i cant get off the being really busy bit as a managing tool for anxiety. and any way at least the unicorns and fairies are real unlike the "real world" just joking...:laugh:

[Ponder]

LOL - If making them real helps someone get through living on this rock under the system humans have created for themselves, then I say - "whatever works." :)

It's a complex world and those who can not keep up are quickly labeled and prescribed this or that. Such a system now well entrenched we do it to ourselves. Perhaps TIME OUT is a more apt analogy as opposed to being branded "Antisocial." The former offers a more practical solution, whilst the later on feeds the system.

I'm up for discussion, but in great need to summon up my own fairies and unicorns as I battle the rift in Diablo 3.

Thanks for the hello.

Always good to hear from like minds. :)

[cloudy black]

i was labelled a failure but Moses was a basket case and looked what happened to him! i am so programmed by society's properganda that even when i type this i have to say that the evidence does point to failure. i have been described as a free spirit before now.. i have always felt a misfit in this world and tried so many different new age things that in the end i had to let them all go because so much dark crap was happening and i figured i have traveled as far as i can on the new age road . . . i was trying to fill a bottomless pit and what with a bereavement and a few promptings i changed my tac. . .

[Ponder]

Yea. I think I know what you mean. Same old song done over and over attracting those yet to learn and turning off those who already know. I do my best to observe as an individual and write my own path without invested belief which is often dictated by my own and or someone else's self interest. My best is not always good enough given the extent of societies conditioning.

However my inherent perception holds my course true, when steering to keep clear of brainwashed sheep.

Being anti Social is the first step to gaining order in our lives. It the disconnection from current conditioning. Only when enough people free themselves from the cancer of our current controlling systems, can anarchy bring about liberating peace. People have it so backwards that they think its all about resisting, when to do so actually plays into keeping authoritative systems. Take the word disorder out of the meaning anarchy, and instead make it No Order ... and then people can start to become self empowered once more and find meaning for themselves. No more being sheep ... lead along on a piece of string.

People with money, power and things, Love to lead others about like so. That conditioning has it so that people think they are all in control. Too many people addicted to their state of being.

I smile to think how self empowering it really is to be under no control other than respecting our most basic needs. To me that is the ultimate freedom. Unplugging from all the garbage we are constantly sold is much harder than the act of living without wanting a thing. I find the trick is to always learn from the previous paths walked ... no matter how much shit one had to endure. People are filling up on all kinds of new age (re - written concepts) as the world is shrinking and running out of paths. I still look out for a few different takes, but again ... have ultimately come to learn, It's more about what we make for ourselves.

I don't know ... I do know, I will feel better if I clean up the kitchen. :)

Take Care ... please continue as you will.

No pressure.

[cloudy black]

yes my best is not good enough. i have been anti social but it has been a way of life for me. i need to keep my life simple so that i can function.

[Ponder]

Well said. I needed to hear that. TY.