Susan Williamson
11-03-2015, 12:02 PM
I was so happy to find this website! Let me give you a brief history....my mom has anxiety and it was always something I didn't understand, and I always said I WILL NEVER GROW UP TO BE LIKE YOU~~~well guess what? I am 47 and about 3 weeks ago out of the blue, I became extremely anxious for no apparent reason. It seemed to be worse at night. I would wake up feeling like adrenaline was rushing thru my body....shoulders tight and shaking inside. I was not nervous, consciously, of anything at all! Of course I started "googling" and convinced myself that I surely have Hyperthyroidism or a heart condition. I went to the doctor and he prescribed Ambien. I was already on Buspar for what I liked to call my "irritability issue", have been on Buspar for about 8 years. Anyhow...I took the Ambien a couple nights and woke around 4 am feeling the same way. I called the doctor and he ordered the Thyroid blood work and prescribed Clonazepam but told me this would only be short term. The first day I took the Clonazepam...I felt more normal than I have in YEARS. I had a bit of social anxiety prior, but I attributed that to the fact that I work at home and am always alone. After taking the Clonazepam, I actually enjoyed being around people again......SO HERE's the problem....Because he only gave me 30 and told me to take it twice a day....I was afraid of becoming addicted and he wont prescribe me anymore. So yesterday I didn't take it at all.....as the day progressed I felt the feelings creep back up on me....I started getting heart palpitations, shaky inside, tight shoulders, nervous feeling. I just don't know what to do! In my mind I am convinced it is not anxiety and that I probably have some horrible disease...and that is what makes the anxiety worse.....I feel like I am literally going crazy and my husband isn't too sympathetic as he does not understand anxiety and mental illness.....HELP!