CaptainOfIndustry
10-18-2015, 04:04 AM
Hi all, i don't know where to start.. i've had anxiety since i was a little kid i guess(23 years old now) and my first panic attack occured in 2009 i think. and i really started to feel anxiety about 2 years ago++. then i had a period of some crazy panic attacks and extreme health anxiety, but i got trough with it, and i went panic free til about the summer in 2014. then hell broke loose, and since then i've had severe anxiety that's just kept getting worse and worse and it still is.
I have all anxiety disorders you can imagine, all of em. i can't even be around people anymore, i have friends and family that wanna meet me and socialize. but i can't! so i sit home alone in my apartment all day, every day. i can't even go to stores anymore and shop groceries, someone else has to do it. i'm crippled with anxiety everyday and paranoia, i can't do nothing, i just lay at my coach everyday and play games and watch tv series, that's been my life since last summer, specially in the year of 2015. im about to go f**** crazy soon. i must have incurable anxiety, like last christmas i sat alone at my apartment, i couldnt join my family, and on new years eve i sat alone too, first time doing that it was horrible. and i'm about to give it all up, no one got so bad anxiety as i got(hope so) thats why im writing here to see if there are someone who can relate to such a extreme anxiety or some tips for me, been to a psychologist for years, only reason i still have a psychologist is to not being in total isolation. and i wanna talk to people who can relate, because honestly someone who hasnt had anxiety doesnt know shit about it. so please i hope i get some answers here, im about to find my 9mm and end it all soon.. im desperate. And im so sorry for my bad english and writing,hope you understand what im writing, and if this post is too extreme just delete it. Peace
I have all anxiety disorders you can imagine, all of em. i can't even be around people anymore, i have friends and family that wanna meet me and socialize. but i can't! so i sit home alone in my apartment all day, every day. i can't even go to stores anymore and shop groceries, someone else has to do it. i'm crippled with anxiety everyday and paranoia, i can't do nothing, i just lay at my coach everyday and play games and watch tv series, that's been my life since last summer, specially in the year of 2015. im about to go f**** crazy soon. i must have incurable anxiety, like last christmas i sat alone at my apartment, i couldnt join my family, and on new years eve i sat alone too, first time doing that it was horrible. and i'm about to give it all up, no one got so bad anxiety as i got(hope so) thats why im writing here to see if there are someone who can relate to such a extreme anxiety or some tips for me, been to a psychologist for years, only reason i still have a psychologist is to not being in total isolation. and i wanna talk to people who can relate, because honestly someone who hasnt had anxiety doesnt know shit about it. so please i hope i get some answers here, im about to find my 9mm and end it all soon.. im desperate. And im so sorry for my bad english and writing,hope you understand what im writing, and if this post is too extreme just delete it. Peace