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09-26-2015, 08:18 AM
Hi, so I'm new.
I've been diagnosed with depression and am on 30 mg Celexa and it seems to be working fairly well except sometimes I get in these states where I just start going crazy.
Something will trigger me and then distorted negative thoughts will start running through my mind and I will almost completely believe them and get this panicked feeling. Then I'll start screaming and not be able to stop moving- my limbs will start flailing and I'll keep trying to hit myself in the head.
Last time (yesterday) I thought that I had to die. I don't actually want to die but I don't know how to deal with it once I get into this state. It will go on for a couple days. I won't be constantly panicking, but I'll be extremely depressed, and I'll know that the littlest thing could set me off so that I start panicking again.
I do have some control but the thing is that during those couple days I lose my head and completely believe that it's always like this and I'll never get out of it. I have Syroquel for when this happens and most of the time once I take it I'll fall asleep and wake up okay.
What is this? Any advice for dealing with it?
I've been diagnosed with depression and am on 30 mg Celexa and it seems to be working fairly well except sometimes I get in these states where I just start going crazy.
Something will trigger me and then distorted negative thoughts will start running through my mind and I will almost completely believe them and get this panicked feeling. Then I'll start screaming and not be able to stop moving- my limbs will start flailing and I'll keep trying to hit myself in the head.
Last time (yesterday) I thought that I had to die. I don't actually want to die but I don't know how to deal with it once I get into this state. It will go on for a couple days. I won't be constantly panicking, but I'll be extremely depressed, and I'll know that the littlest thing could set me off so that I start panicking again.
I do have some control but the thing is that during those couple days I lose my head and completely believe that it's always like this and I'll never get out of it. I have Syroquel for when this happens and most of the time once I take it I'll fall asleep and wake up okay.
What is this? Any advice for dealing with it?