Trying new things

[TrebleDash]

I usually just lurk on the web, without actually ever posting or seeking other people out. It's not working out very well. Like most things in my life, there's a good chance that I'll only be here for a few times before retreating back into my hole of obscurity. But, I'll try to have high hopes that maybe this time will be different from the last.
I read a lot of things where people have families, and plenty of friends and such, and I can't relate to any of them. Granted I have a few acquaintances, but not many. All of my relationships always fail, and I don't think I've been to the doctor in about 21 years for anything, so i also have no idea what's wrong with me. I lack motivation to do most things, and even my old hobbies are boring to me now. I can never hold down a job for very long (except the Army, but I managed to get out of most things that were too taxing, and I couldn't really quit if I wanted to). I lost my parents when I was 17 (I just turned 30) and I feel like nothing has changed. My aspirations fizzled into nothing, and now I just sit around hoping that something will change. I don't want to sit around unemployed and just watch TV all day.
I don't know if this is really the place for this, but for once I wanted to express myself in some way, and who knows, maybe this time I'll actually find a way to help myself.

[Kuma]

Hello. You served in the army, so in my mind you accomplished something of significance. But beyond that, you need to figure out whether you are satisfied with the status quo or not. If you are, then great. If not, you are going to have to put some effort in - to create change. It can certainly be done -- and people here can help with ideas and support. But the motivation has to come from within yourself. Sitting around and moping won't change anything. So are you ready to create some change?