Just there

[UnicornDaisy]

Hello,

I was told joining a forum and trying to relate to others will help a lot, so I'm hoping to find comfort and assurance that I'm not alone :)

I don't know if I'm getting better or worse. My anxiety has increased 10 fold since I had a baby (3 years ago)
I know I'm a bit of a hypochondriac , obsessing over every little feeling that goes through my body.

Lately I've been overfilled with fear about life...why am I here, what is this all? Why can't I remember where I was before? Did I have a family? Why can't I remember them if I did? I love my child so much I can't bare the thought of not remembering him if after this life was another. I don't know what scares me more...life or death. These thoughts consume me at night and at work. I am meeting with a therapist for the first time ever this week in hopes to obtain some tools for conquering this. I'm tired of being scared all day. I don't expect anyone to relate with this specific fear and depression but I am hoping someone can understand.

Other times I feel like I am not real, I feel like I am "just there" very sad and lonely place to be in.

[MainerMikeBrown]

UD, I'm glad you're meeting with a therapist for the first time. I hope it works out. But you don't have to stick with the first therapist you come by. If you don't feel that this counselor is the right fit for you, I'd encourage you to go with a new therapist and see how that works out.