Renge
09-08-2015, 10:08 AM
Hi all,
I haven't posted for a little while or been about, things have been quite busy (the right amount to keep me distracted without being too stressful, yay)
I thought I'd come and post because I don't want to be a person who just comes and dumps their c**p when things are bad. Last week (and so far the start of this week) have been rally great. My anxiety has been low (or at least manageable) and things with my boyfriend have been very calm (I posted earlier about my deranged relationship behaviours.)
I'm not going to lie, there is a voice at the back of my head that keeps telling me something is about to go wrong and if it does I'm scared it will be really hard to deal with because I've felt so good lately, it'll be a massive crash to come back down again. I know from next week there's going to be a change to my boyfriend's schedule and it's going to get harder for us to make time for each other, which has me quite nervous, but at least I know it's coming.
I suppose all I wanted to say really is that things have been pretty good and even though it feels like a ticking time bomb I'm grateful for it because it really has been a long time since I felt like this, so it's good to remember that I have been happy before and will be again. I just wanted to share that.
I hope that people are well.
I haven't posted for a little while or been about, things have been quite busy (the right amount to keep me distracted without being too stressful, yay)
I thought I'd come and post because I don't want to be a person who just comes and dumps their c**p when things are bad. Last week (and so far the start of this week) have been rally great. My anxiety has been low (or at least manageable) and things with my boyfriend have been very calm (I posted earlier about my deranged relationship behaviours.)
I'm not going to lie, there is a voice at the back of my head that keeps telling me something is about to go wrong and if it does I'm scared it will be really hard to deal with because I've felt so good lately, it'll be a massive crash to come back down again. I know from next week there's going to be a change to my boyfriend's schedule and it's going to get harder for us to make time for each other, which has me quite nervous, but at least I know it's coming.
I suppose all I wanted to say really is that things have been pretty good and even though it feels like a ticking time bomb I'm grateful for it because it really has been a long time since I felt like this, so it's good to remember that I have been happy before and will be again. I just wanted to share that.
I hope that people are well.