Julia1
09-07-2015, 06:31 PM
Hi I'm Julia. Nice to read some posts from you all and have been breathing a sigh of relief that I'm not alone I all this!
I have suffered with panic attacks for a long time, I only recently discovered that's what they are. I remember getting stressed and upset as a child if there was something going on at school that I didn't like, at the time nobody clicked what was happening and it's only as an adult that it's come to light that they're panic attacks. Anyway, they're mostly under control. I have been on medication previously and have managed to work out how to deal with those ( I think).
The problem I have now, that I can't seem to shake is a strange food related anxiety. It's really difficulty to explain but here goes... When I go out somewhere, like out for a meal, or out with my husband, anything which might involve food, I have a kind of panic attack. It doesn't matter how hungry I am, how long it's been since I last ate etc I immediately lose my appetite and can't eat anything, then if I try to force myself (say I'm with a group of friends and don't want to look odd) I end up wanting to throw up, a single mouthful might make me retch at the table and I then have to either leave or sit there with a full plate of food, while everyone else tucks in. It's becoming a huge problem, particularly for my husband as he loves to eat out and I'm becoming a hindrance. He's always been very tolerant of it but I think he's starting to suffer and that's not fair! And we all know with anxiety that if you're afraid of something happening, it probably will! It's what nightmares are made of!!
Does anyone know what this might be and how to limit it? I'm really frightened that I'm going to lose my husband because of this bizarre behaviour. I'm starting to hate myself for it!
Please help
Julia
I have suffered with panic attacks for a long time, I only recently discovered that's what they are. I remember getting stressed and upset as a child if there was something going on at school that I didn't like, at the time nobody clicked what was happening and it's only as an adult that it's come to light that they're panic attacks. Anyway, they're mostly under control. I have been on medication previously and have managed to work out how to deal with those ( I think).
The problem I have now, that I can't seem to shake is a strange food related anxiety. It's really difficulty to explain but here goes... When I go out somewhere, like out for a meal, or out with my husband, anything which might involve food, I have a kind of panic attack. It doesn't matter how hungry I am, how long it's been since I last ate etc I immediately lose my appetite and can't eat anything, then if I try to force myself (say I'm with a group of friends and don't want to look odd) I end up wanting to throw up, a single mouthful might make me retch at the table and I then have to either leave or sit there with a full plate of food, while everyone else tucks in. It's becoming a huge problem, particularly for my husband as he loves to eat out and I'm becoming a hindrance. He's always been very tolerant of it but I think he's starting to suffer and that's not fair! And we all know with anxiety that if you're afraid of something happening, it probably will! It's what nightmares are made of!!
Does anyone know what this might be and how to limit it? I'm really frightened that I'm going to lose my husband because of this bizarre behaviour. I'm starting to hate myself for it!
Please help
Julia