ovenbakedbread
09-01-2015, 10:06 AM
Hi,
I am an eighteen year old college freshman. Female, if that matters. Anyway, I moved into my dorm four days ago and WHAT THE HELL? It feels like I have no control over my freaking life. I've always suffered from anxiety so I knew this would take some getting used to, but it honestly feels like I never will. People seem to like me, but not enough to actually invite me to do things with them. But my roommate on the other hand seems to have to problem with this. I'm also worried about classes, which start tomorrow. I'm only taking three this semester so I don't overwhelm myself -.- I already have a paper due next week for one of the classes and they haven't even started yet! I'm afraid to leave my dorm room because I don't want to have to be seen by people even though I know I look fine. Just the thought of SPEAKING is tolling. I just want to cry to be honest, but my roommate would probably think I have serious issues.
I already f-ed up a few times school-wise. Like today I forgot to go to a meeting with my advisor so I'm going in later today. I have to walk across campus alone and the thought makes me so anxious. I also have to go to the library to get my computer hooked up to the printer. I know these things probably seem like nothing, but they are freaking me the hell out. The fact that I'm freaked out makes me even more freaked out because if I can't do those things, how on earth am I going to get through this semester, let alone the next WEEK? I just want to crawl under my bed and not speak to anybody. And what makes things worse is that everybody thinks I'm overreacting. I know I am, haha. But it's not really something I can control. I don't know what to do...Advice?
I am an eighteen year old college freshman. Female, if that matters. Anyway, I moved into my dorm four days ago and WHAT THE HELL? It feels like I have no control over my freaking life. I've always suffered from anxiety so I knew this would take some getting used to, but it honestly feels like I never will. People seem to like me, but not enough to actually invite me to do things with them. But my roommate on the other hand seems to have to problem with this. I'm also worried about classes, which start tomorrow. I'm only taking three this semester so I don't overwhelm myself -.- I already have a paper due next week for one of the classes and they haven't even started yet! I'm afraid to leave my dorm room because I don't want to have to be seen by people even though I know I look fine. Just the thought of SPEAKING is tolling. I just want to cry to be honest, but my roommate would probably think I have serious issues.
I already f-ed up a few times school-wise. Like today I forgot to go to a meeting with my advisor so I'm going in later today. I have to walk across campus alone and the thought makes me so anxious. I also have to go to the library to get my computer hooked up to the printer. I know these things probably seem like nothing, but they are freaking me the hell out. The fact that I'm freaked out makes me even more freaked out because if I can't do those things, how on earth am I going to get through this semester, let alone the next WEEK? I just want to crawl under my bed and not speak to anybody. And what makes things worse is that everybody thinks I'm overreacting. I know I am, haha. But it's not really something I can control. I don't know what to do...Advice?