Polarlight
07-20-2015, 12:11 PM
Look, I have OCD.
Have been wondering, have you ever feel like the obsessions feel different from before.
Let's say, haven't been in obsessions for some time, and then when it occur again, the feeling is different.
It feels much more real and I feel that I kinda agreeing it to happen.
I try to believe it was OCD and avoid doing compulsion, or proscrastinate to do it but it feels like actually I just fed up and I'm actually agree for my obsession to occur, but I really don't want it to happen.
So I make myself busy by listening to music or watching tv or exercising.
I think the triggers keep coming even I actually avoid the cause of the triggers.
Is this part of treatment or what?
Or it shows that actually this is not OCD?
Or actually I would never be cured?
I don't think ERP is working for me, I feel worser then before.
I don't even know what my compulsions anymore.
The trigger keep coming in everything I do. No matter if I'm watching tv, listening to music, reading newspaper, chatting to friend, there must be any words that are related to harm. I mean, it almost not like coincidences. How can it be coincidences if it keep coming in whatever i do?
Have been wondering, have you ever feel like the obsessions feel different from before.
Let's say, haven't been in obsessions for some time, and then when it occur again, the feeling is different.
It feels much more real and I feel that I kinda agreeing it to happen.
I try to believe it was OCD and avoid doing compulsion, or proscrastinate to do it but it feels like actually I just fed up and I'm actually agree for my obsession to occur, but I really don't want it to happen.
So I make myself busy by listening to music or watching tv or exercising.
I think the triggers keep coming even I actually avoid the cause of the triggers.
Is this part of treatment or what?
Or it shows that actually this is not OCD?
Or actually I would never be cured?
I don't think ERP is working for me, I feel worser then before.
I don't even know what my compulsions anymore.
The trigger keep coming in everything I do. No matter if I'm watching tv, listening to music, reading newspaper, chatting to friend, there must be any words that are related to harm. I mean, it almost not like coincidences. How can it be coincidences if it keep coming in whatever i do?