Good afternoon.

[Elaine Boo Winterbourne]

After many many years of battling depression, many years of taking medication for it. I December after having a cancer scare my GP prescibed me medication for anxiety, I just agreed and took the medication. I am sure am not alone in the next event. I thought anxiety was......I'm not like that. I don't have a problem with my nerves.....do I ?. After a further round of hospitals I felt that I was slipping again, my GP upped my medication. Then weirdly this morning I had a light bulb moment, I was scrolling around the news and found another link about anxiety. When I had finished I was in shock, I was upset and disappointed in myself. I suddenly realised what I am trying to fight against, my safe zones are real, my sudden tiredness is real, my bodies reaction is real. Not sure where I'm going to go from here but I almost feel exhausted by the fact that I have battled against alcohol, friends,family with no understanding of why.
just glad I'm not alone now.....

[Im-Suffering]

.... Then weirdly this morning I had a light bulb moment.




Yes my dear, epiphany after epiphany as you move forward, ever forward. But be kind, and patient with yourself, as you would a loved one you are helping. Set your expectation and desire to enlighten and have more of these moments, and you will.

Oh yes, and you are never alone, once you finally reach out, you see? Its up to you.

Listen and learn, recapitulate and reflect on the 'light bulb moments' to understand more about you and 'why' you feel as you do. Not so much the physical but the mental, emotional reasons behind them.

A tiny bit of courage, (to turn and face, instead of run and hide), you see? Opens an expanse of knowledge and personal healing previously unavailable in a fearful mindset.

Nature responds to courage, even the most minuscule.