pinkpears333
08-26-2008, 12:12 AM
A couple weeks ago, I've written about these horrible headaches that I've gotten since June. Over time the headaches have gotten worse and more painful, they still happen daily. I'm not sure if it is just stress related but I can't help but think these must be signs of an aneurysm or even a brain tumor. This summer, I've been under a lot of stress. For the first half of summer, I worked seven days a week. In addition, my mother is very ill and my parents are experiencing the effects of the dwindling economy which may cause them to lose their home.
Also, I spent most of my summer looking for a new apartment near campus, it took up a lot of my time, and it was a very lengthy process. With that being said, I found a new apartment with new roommates. However, things had seemed to get worse. The day before we were supposed to sign the lease, my best friend, who was also one of my roommates, backed out the very last minute. She refused to pay the security deposit and her aunt, who was our cosigner, refused to sign the lease. This caused a lot of stress for my roommates and I since we had relied on her to pull through because each of us had already fulfilled our responsibilities for the apartment. Personally it was even more upsetting for me since she is my best friend. Luckily, we were able to find a new roommate and cosigner but I have never really gotten the chance to relax since we were always faced with the possibility of losing the apartment which meant that I wouldn't have a place to live in during the school year.
In the midst of all this apartment drama, my boyfriend of four years broke up with me that same week. It is a lot to handle since I have so many memories with him and life just doesn't seem the same. If anything, it seems scarier and sad since I don't have him by side to support during these tough times.
I feel like too much is going on at once and it never seems to stop. If it is this, then it's something else. I feel like everything is falling apart and I push myself so hard everyday but sometimes I wonder if I'll feel like this forever. Because of this, my anxiety has kicked in a lot especially the headaches which concern me the most. I'm told it's just stress but what if it's something else since the pain is getting worse. Whenever I get these headaches (I'm actually experiencing one now). I think "It must be an anuerysm. I'm going to die." I had to reschedule my appointment with a nuerologist but I can't see him until September 15. What if something bad happens by then? I feel like all this stress is too much, I feel like it's killing every part of me. I'm sorry it's a long post but a lot is going on right, it's too much.
Also, I spent most of my summer looking for a new apartment near campus, it took up a lot of my time, and it was a very lengthy process. With that being said, I found a new apartment with new roommates. However, things had seemed to get worse. The day before we were supposed to sign the lease, my best friend, who was also one of my roommates, backed out the very last minute. She refused to pay the security deposit and her aunt, who was our cosigner, refused to sign the lease. This caused a lot of stress for my roommates and I since we had relied on her to pull through because each of us had already fulfilled our responsibilities for the apartment. Personally it was even more upsetting for me since she is my best friend. Luckily, we were able to find a new roommate and cosigner but I have never really gotten the chance to relax since we were always faced with the possibility of losing the apartment which meant that I wouldn't have a place to live in during the school year.
In the midst of all this apartment drama, my boyfriend of four years broke up with me that same week. It is a lot to handle since I have so many memories with him and life just doesn't seem the same. If anything, it seems scarier and sad since I don't have him by side to support during these tough times.
I feel like too much is going on at once and it never seems to stop. If it is this, then it's something else. I feel like everything is falling apart and I push myself so hard everyday but sometimes I wonder if I'll feel like this forever. Because of this, my anxiety has kicked in a lot especially the headaches which concern me the most. I'm told it's just stress but what if it's something else since the pain is getting worse. Whenever I get these headaches (I'm actually experiencing one now). I think "It must be an anuerysm. I'm going to die." I had to reschedule my appointment with a nuerologist but I can't see him until September 15. What if something bad happens by then? I feel like all this stress is too much, I feel like it's killing every part of me. I'm sorry it's a long post but a lot is going on right, it's too much.