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[Labella7117]

Hi my names is angelica I'm 25 years old and brand new to the forum. I am desperately looking for answers and I thought it would be great to have ppl who share a similar experience to talk to. I have been suffering horrible anxiety/panic attacks for months now to the point where I can't work. Starting in January I got really sick to the point where I couldn't see, I couldn't breath I couldn't even stand up my boyfriend rushed me to the hospital. They told me it was anxiety which I refused to believe because it was so intense I was pretty sure I was going to die and that there had to be something wrong with me. Two days later I went back to the hospital got released again with anxiety. I got sick again and went back to the hospital and the third time they found I had svt a heart problem that was making my resting heart rate go to 205. A couple of days later I had surgery to fix the problem so I figured my heart problem explained everything.

Now it's been 4 months since my surgery and I'm sicker than I have ever been and I thought it was the medication they had me on for my heart. I have been to every doctor I had a MRI of my brain my heart blood work vertigo testing went to a ear nose and throat doctor had allergy tests everything imaginable and I'm in perfect health. I have to talk myself through every minute of everyday and throughout the day I'm always convinced at some point I'm going to pass out or something awful is going to happen to me. I had a panic attack the other day I couldn't stand up I was dizzy, couldn't breath, shaking very badly, sweating, disoriented, my chest was tight and then it passed. I hate being home alone every time my boyfriend leaves the house I'm a nervous wreck until he comes back. Every morning I wake up in a panic as soon as I get up my heart is pounding our of my chest I'm weak I'm dizzy. I have also somehow convinced myself I can't go more than 3 hours without eating or I get sick. It got to the point where I thought I was hypoglycemic I've had glucose tests I have a monitor at home that I check myself with and my blood sugar is fine according to every doctor I go to.

I'm always dizzy weak sometimes I feel like I'm going to fall over or pass out I'm scared to leave the house or be home alone. This has been terrible I cry everyday because I don't know what to do anymore I haven't been working it's affecting my relationships and every aspect of my life it's torture some days I don't want to get out of bed because I know it's going to be hard to get through the day. It even got to a point that my boyfriend would go to work and I would pack my car and go sit in the parking lot of the emergency room of the hospital that was the only place I felt I would be ok if something happened I would already be where I could get help and to me that's not way to live my life.The worst part of it all is I don't know what's causing it I don't have any kind of horrible thoughts about anything when It happens sometimes nothing even seems to be bothering me at all. I feel like I'm trapped and nothing is ever going to change and it scares me to think of the rest of my life going on like this. I've gone to psychiatrists who have not helped and wrote me a bunch of prescriptions for narcotics. I feel trapped and I try very hard to act like nothing is wrong when I went to the psychiatrist she told me I was the most well put together person with anxiety she had ever met and a lot of ppl think that but inside I'm a mess and I'm breaking down everyday from this and I'm exhausted from fighting all the horrible sensations I get throughout that day and trying to stay calm. I look at my life and it's great I have a great family and ppl that love me a roof over my head and a great boyfriend that's always trying to help. If anyone has advice or just wants to talk it would be greatly appreciated.

[NixonRulz]

Hi my names is angelica I'm 25 years old and brand new to the forum. I am desperately looking for answers and I thought it would be great to have ppl who share a similar experience to talk to. I have been suffering horrible anxiety/panic attacks for months now to the point where I can't work. Starting in January I got really sick to the point where I couldn't stand up I couldn't see, I couldn't breath I couldn't even stand up my boyfriend rushed me to the hospital. They told me it was anxiety which I refused to believe because it was so intense I was pretty sure I was going to die and that there had to be something wrong with me. Two days later I went back to the hospital got released again with anxiety. I got sick again and went back to the hospital and the third time they found I had svt a heart problem that was making my resting heart rate go to 205. A couple of days later I had surgery to fix the problem so I figured my heart problem explained everything.

Now it's been 4 months since my surgery and I'm sicker than I have ever been and I thought it was the medication they had me on for my heart. I have been to every doctor I had a MRI of my brain my heart blood work vertigo testing went to a ear nose and throat doctor had allergy tests everything imaginable and I'm in perfect health. I have to talk myself through every minute of everyday and throughout the day I'm always convinced at some point I'm going to pass out or something awful is going to happen to me. I had a panic attack the other day I couldn't stand up I was dizzy, couldn't breath, shaking very badly, sweating, disoriented, my chest was tight and then it passed. I hate being home alone every time my boyfriend leaves the house I'm a nervous wreck until he comes back. Every morning I wake up in a panic as soon as I get up my heart is pounding our of my chest I'm weak I'm dizzy. I have also somehow convinced myself I can't go more than 3 hours without eating or I get sick. It got to the point where I thought I was hypoglycemic I've had glucose tests I have a monitor at home that I check myself with and my blood sugar is fine according to every doctor I go to.

I'm always dizzy weak sometimes I feel like I'm going to fall over or pass out I'm scared to leave the house or be home alone. This has been terrible I cry everyday because I don't know what to do anymore I haven't been working it's affecting my relationships and every aspect of my life it's torture some days I don't want to get out of bed because I know it's going to be hard to get through the day. The worst part of it all is I don't know what's causing it I don't have any kind of horrible thoughts about anything when It happens sometimes nothing even seems to be bothering me at all. I feel like I'm trapped and nothing is ever going to change and it scares me to think of the rest of my life going on like this. I've gone to psychiatrists who have not helped and wrote me a bunch of prescriptions for narcotics. I feel trapped and I try very hard to act like nothing is wrong when I went to the psychiatrist she told me I was the most well put together person with anxiety she had ever met and a lot of ppl think that but inside I'm a mess and I'm breaking down everyday from this and I'm exhausted from fighting all the horrible sensations I get throughout that day and trying to stay calm. I look at my life and it's great I have a great family and ppl that love me a roof over my head and a great boyfriend that's always trying to help. If anyone has advice or just wants to talk it would be greatly appreciated.

Hi, Angelica

Welcome here. Your story is all too familiar to me and most others here. We are all similarly screwed up!

I can't tell you how many people I have seen here that have come in saying how they were frightened that this is how the rest of their life was going to be.

Most of them are here no more since they are doing great and do not need to be here anymore. So don't believe by any means that you have a condition that is only unique to you. I've lived it. So have many others

In fact, a lot of the things you wrote I could have wrote many years ago.

You don't belive you know why you feel the way you do and what caused you to be carrying anxiety with you like the "normal people" don't

What's funny about you saying that is that it was just recently that I finally uncovered what was actually causing my anxiety for 20+ years

Oh, I got crazy good at being happy and I was easily able to dismiss any anxiety symptom as Amys anxiety and didn't pay attention to it. That allowed me to function normally and anxiety didn't have much of an affect

But it was cool to finally see the reason. It really wiped anxiety co plate ly out of my life

I guess what I am trying to say is that regardless of how you feel at this moment, this is only a moment and you will be rid of your anxiety

It just takes some time to change your beliefs and thoughts

It's so possible and I actually believe it's impossible not to overcome

I have never seen anyone here getting worse. Everyone moves in the tight direction

As you will. It's just a moment

[Jules1979]

I know what your going through and you are not alone in this!!!! I too when I first started having anxiety would go to the er with them telling me it's just anxiety and would send me home! Finally someone caught on an ekg that I had a serious irregular heart beat and I too had surgery( an ablation). Unfortunately that didn't cure my irregular heart beat or my anxiety but I started to learn to live with it. I'm curious what medicine you take for your heart. I was put on atenolol. All the symptoms you talk of I experience through out my day ( last 3 months). It's hell but I'm here if you need to vent!

[Labella7117]

Hi thank you for the responses I am hoping that by talking to other ppl who have similar experiences it will help me get better and see that it's not just me. I had a cardiac ablation myself in February. I Am also taking atenolol and I feel like I've been having complications with it but I'm trying To stop blaming it on everything and face that it's anxiety I've had countless doctors tell me it's anxiety. I take 25mg of atenolol twice a day and about a week ago my doctor told me to cut back to one a day and my anxiety got ten times worse I had a panic attack in the car and was begging my boyfriend to take me to the hospital I thought i was going to die and my heart rate started going up to 130 so I decided to start taking it twice a day again

[Jules1979]

Hi thank you for the responses I am hoping that by talking to other ppl who have similar experiences it will help me get better and see that it's not just me. I had a cardiac ablation myself in February. I Am also taking atenolol and I feel like I've been having complications with it but I'm trying To stop blaming it on everything and face that it's anxiety I've had countless doctors tell me it's anxiety. I take 25mg of atenolol twice a day and about a week ago my doctor told me to cut back to one a day and my anxiety got ten times worse I had a panic attack in the car and was begging my boyfriend to take me to the hospital I thought i was going to die and my heart rate started going up to 130 so I decided to start taking it twice a day again

It's crazy how similar our stories are! I take 25 mill in the morning and then by like 5 pm I can feel my heart rate getting higher so I take another 25 in the evening! It is very hard to not have any anxiety when your heart rate is 130! That is completely understandable! The atenolol helped a little with the flight or fight response( that surging feeling you get when the anxiety first hits) but over all even with my heart rate lowered I still suffer from anxiety off and on all day every day for the last three months ..I just started on Prozac to see if
That helps( right now it's hell with all the side effects)

[Labella7117]

It is crazy we have the same exact problem I take the atenolol at 11 every morning and at 11 at night and later in the day I feel my heart speeding up and every morning when I wake up my heart is pounding and it makes me so nervous especially since having the surgery I don't know if the pills are making me sick or what's going on and now I feel like I'm never going to get off these pills. The same thing my heart rate is definitely kept lower with the pills but I still have a lot of anxiety and getting sick throughout the day I'm very nervous all the time because I always feel like there is something going on with my health

[Jules1979]

It is crazy we have the same exact problem I take the atenolol at 11 every morning and at 11 at night and later in the day I feel my heart speeding up and every morning when I wake up my heart is pounding and it makes me so nervous especially since having the surgery I don't know if the pills are making me sick or what's going on and now I feel like I'm never going to get off these pills. The same thing my heart rate is definitely kept lower with the pills but I still have a lot of anxiety and getting sick throughout the day I'm very nervous all the time because I always feel like there is something going on with my health
I know, that's the anxiety talking.Starting in my early 20s I was convinced something was wrong.. As I got older I'm getting a little better at know what it really is ( anxiety) but regardless it's hard as hell to deal with, you feel nuts!!!! It gives you so many weird symptoms and its irritating dealing with a pounding heart all day long! How's your blood pressure? Mines still a little high even with the atenolol I think because of my anxiety.

[Labella7117]

It's so hard I feel like ppl look at me and think there is something mentally wrong with me. My blood pressure is still a little high even with the atenolol from my anxiety before all this happened to me my blood pressure was always perfect. I see you live in California I was born there another thing we have in common lol

[Jules1979]

It's so hard I feel like ppl look at me and think there is something mentally wrong with me. My blood pressure is still a little high even with the atenolol from my anxiety before all this happened to me my blood pressure was always perfect. I see you live in California I was born there another thing we have in common lol

Lol unfortunately I live in the armpit of California ( Modesto). What part did you live in? And where did you move to? I don't know how old you are but I promise you this ... It does get easier! I've had an irregular fast heart rate for 16 years and anxiety for even longer. Surprisingly it got more bearable.. I think after so many years I almost got used to it ..up until a few months ago I never had experienced anxiety without a reason( usually it was because of my heart). Sadly anxiety is hereditary in my family and now I just have it regardless what my hearts doing:( that's why I just started the Prozac

[Labella7117]

I'm 25. I know where that is I was born and raised in camarillo I live in Florida now and I'm in the process of moving out of Florida next month. That's my problem with my anxiety now I have no reason behind it that's what makes it hard and the biggest problem I've been having the past couple of months is I can't go more than 3 hours without eating that's what's driving me crazy I get dizzy weak sweat my heart pounds everything if I go more than 3 hours without eating it makes me sick I'm gaining weight I've had tests done and my blood sugar is fine I'm not hypoglycemic or diabetic the doctor said. I can't seem to get to the bottom of it and my boyfriend thinks it's anxiety and I'm causing that to happen because I put that in my head

[Jules1979]

I'm 25. I know where that is I was born and raised in camarillo I live in Florida now and I'm in the process of moving out of Florida next month. That's my problem with my anxiety now I have no reason behind it that's what makes it hard and the biggest problem I've been having the past couple of months is I can't go more than 3 hours without eating that's what's driving me crazy I get dizzy weak sweat my heart pounds everything if I go more than 3 hours without eating it makes me sick I'm gaining weight I've had tests done and my blood sugar is fine I'm not hypoglycemic or diabetic the doctor said. I can't seem to get to the bottom of it and my boyfriend thinks it's anxiety and I'm causing that to happen because I put that in my head

How are you feeling today? Any better?

[Labella7117]

No unfortunately now I'm kind of freaked out because of things I read online about the beta blocker I'm on I was reading a article online that said beta blockers kill 800,000 ppl in 5 years and all kinds of crazy stuff and I'm on beta blockers and I've been getting really sick so now I'm freaking out about thag

[Jules1979]

No unfortunately now I'm kind of freaked out because of things I read online about the beta blocker I'm on I was reading a article online that said beta blockers kill 800,000 ppl in 5 years and all kinds of crazy stuff and I'm on beta blockers and I've been getting really sick so now I'm freaking out about thag

I had to stop googling everything because it caused my anxiety to be so much worse!!!!! If atenolol is making you have bad side effects maybe you should talk to your dr about trying something diff to lower your heart rate.Has your dr ever suggested a anti depressant?

[Labella7117]

No he hasn't I'm actually looking for a new doctor I call all the time to talk to him and he doesn't want to be bothered he always has his nurse talk to me and last time I called I told her all my symptoms and she called back and told the doctor most of my symptoms aren't from the beta blockers and that I need to go to a primary doctor for further help I did that and my primary doctor ran blood tests and all kinds of stuff on me and everything came back perfect. I also have had a thyroid problem for 6 years now and I went and had that checked because I thought maybe it's off and that's making me sick and my doctor said my levels are the best they have been in years and she wouldn't change anything. So either my anxiety is getting the best of me or it's my pills. I'm trying to go see a new cardiologist tomorrow to find out about it

[Jules1979]

No he hasn't I'm actually looking for a new doctor I call all the time to talk to him and he doesn't want to be bothered he always has his nurse talk to me and last time I called I told her all my symptoms and she called back and told the doctor most of my symptoms aren't from the beta blockers and that I need to go to a primary doctor for further help I did that and my primary doctor ran blood tests and all kinds of stuff on me and everything came back perfect. I also have had a thyroid problem for 6 years now and I went and had that checked because I thought maybe it's off and that's making me sick and my doctor said my levels are the best they have been in years and she wouldn't change anything. So either my anxiety is getting the best of me or it's my pills. I'm trying to go see a new cardiologist tomorrow to find out about it

I totally can relate about feeling like a bother to your dr, I'm constantly emailing mine and I can tell I annoy him. I really think that everything that your dealing with is anxiety.. Sounds all too familiar. I hope your cardio can give you some reassurance Tom so maybe that will bring you some peace. Let me know how everything turns out:)