hi

[lee85]

I'm Lee, coming up for 30 and looking to make sense of the things happening to me. I've never been a fan of these sites because tbh I feel it to be out of my comfort zone. I'm a confident dude and most would describe me as very confident, a joker and maybe a little out there if that makes sense. I just love makin people laugh if I'm honest. I'm not a serious guy. Anyway, the reason im here is to ask for help. I've never been this sort of person and this is very hard to write and tbh I'm makin sure I don't do it wrong and sound like a melodramitic dimwit.
A few years ago I suffered a serious bout of anxiety which left me house bound for year. At that time as a powerlifter and sports student it crippled me. being the person I was a not able to face society as a man destroyed everything my image would suggest. So after much time I bit the bullet an got some help...I suffer from anxiety. In my logic it's all in the head, so Im cured if I know that and slowly I started making my life accessable again. I am now a chef, I love my job, I love cooking and work ina restaurant very close to me. a 5 min walk but I still have to get a taxi there, however I can walk it home. weird and expensive as I feel a tip is thw right thing to do.
recently whatever is happening is getting out of control a little. To not sound like a fucking idiot, I feel like I'm completely losing it. episodes where I feel the situation I'm in isn't even real, voices feel weird like distant in a dream,I look at my own hands to feel reality and they don't even feel like mine, my surrounds become something that I can describe as an echo and I try my hardest to hold onto whatever is left of me. I can't explain this to anyone else without sounding stupid, so strangers who don't know me is better. It's horrible and today was too intense it has shook me to a point I had to join this site and ask for help. sorry for the long intro. there is more to it than this but that's all I can write just now as this is causing me some issues. just some advice would be sound thanks

lee

[lee85]

I'm sorry, I wish I could come on this site and help people like a do normally, but this is fairly new to me and outwith any of my knowledge. Depression, weight training, diet, drug addiction or anything about physical health and partial mental health I can help with or share experience on but this is something I need advice on. It's weird to have the shoe on the other foot. Anxiety in my honest opinion is crippling and I don't know how to deal with it, soI apologise if I come off a little desperate at first and maybe ignorant but in those moments I feel alone and in coming here I wanted to feel less like that

[newleaf86]

I'm Lee, coming up for 30 and looking to make sense of the things happening to me. I've never been a fan of these sites because tbh I feel it to be out of my comfort zone. I'm a confident dude and most would describe me as very confident, a joker and maybe a little out there if that makes sense. I just love makin people laugh if I'm honest. I'm not a serious guy. Anyway, the reason im here is to ask for help. I've never been this sort of person and this is very hard to write and tbh I'm makin sure I don't do it wrong and sound like a melodramitic dimwit.
A few years ago I suffered a serious bout of anxiety which left me house bound for year. At that time as a powerlifter and sports student it crippled me. being the person I was a not able to face society as a man destroyed everything my image would suggest. So after much time I bit the bullet an got some help...I suffer from anxiety. In my logic it's all in the head, so Im cured if I know that and slowly I started making my life accessable again. I am now a chef, I love my job, I love cooking and work ina restaurant very close to me. a 5 min walk but I still have to get a taxi there, however I can walk it home. weird and expensive as I feel a tip is thw right thing to do.
recently whatever is happening is getting out of control a little. To not sound like a fucking idiot, I feel like I'm completely losing it. episodes where I feel the situation I'm in isn't even real, voices feel weird like distant in a dream,I look at my own hands to feel reality and they don't even feel like mine, my surrounds become something that I can describe as an echo and I try my hardest to hold onto whatever is left of me. I can't explain this to anyone else without sounding stupid, so strangers who don't know me is better. It's horrible and today was too intense it has shook me to a point I had to join this site and ask for help. sorry for the long intro. there is more to it than this but that's all I can write just now as this is causing me some issues. just some advice would be sound thanks

lee

Hi Lee! Thanks for sharing this...believe me I know how you feel about posting on these sites. I too have never thought of myself as "one of these people" and now here I am posting on this site just like you! It still weirds me out but posting about your issues and hearing feedback/advice from people who know exactly what you're going through and getting the reassurance that you WILL get better...it just takes time and patience and in many cases a complete lifestyle change. Many times this can be the most helpful therapy! I recently went through my first ever anxiety issues a few weeks back and am still recovering as we speak. A couple questions for you:

1. why can't you walk to work if you are able to walk on the way back? Is it some OCD thing or some fear?
2. Have you ever seen a therapist or a psychiatrist and if so, did they put you on any pills?
3. What were you doing when you were "house bound for a year"? Were you confined to your bed/couch because you got anxiety/panic attacks by going outside? What happened after that year...what changes did you make which allowed you to go to work?
4. When you get these episodes, what thoughts are you having the few minutes leading up to the episode? If you can't remember, try to note it down next time exactly the sequence of events that led up to an episode (what environment were you in, what were you doing physically, and most importantly what thoughts were you having in your head)

[lee85]

Hi newleaf. I have actually answered this through my phone but I think I've done something wrong an accidently posted this thing twice. Ill be shorter this time. Thanks for replying.
1. I have no idea bud. My anxiety started as a toilet issue which was embaressing enough and I think it's stayed but is there in odd limitations.
2. Yes, in the past I have seen both, but as time went on I considered my issue more related to drugs and alcohol than a real thing. I have been on pills in the past. Venlafaxine and prorpanalol. The psychologist was in recent times was a last resort and at the time worked wonders. but recently I have no idea why it's gotting worse as I was only getting better.
3. I was sports student before all the anxiety happened, training kids in all different sports even part of the Commonhealth Games for the kids. One day I tried to leave the house and it was like hitting a brick wall. there was a run up to this an again it was the need to the toilet and in my head making calculations of distance and time to make my life accessable. During that year as a last resort I saw a psychologist who helped tonnes. my parents wanted to support me so I moved closer to them and things became a little bit. I'm not one to admit defeat easily and forced every situation to get me out and about again, that meant enrolling in college and making my life more of mission to succeed. I think my stubbornness is what allowes me to do most things dude.
4. Okay, so in the message I sent before I was shakin like a leaf so I'll try an make this a more calmer and collected reply.,,,never mind, this is the 3rd time and keep logginme out to to log back in again

[lee85]

To answer your 4th question bluntly...I just don't feel like me and the if things around me are actually happening. I don't know who I'm a danger too, myself or other people.

[gypsylee]

Hi Lee and welcome :)

[Mitchb05]

Hey Lee! Hope you're doing okay man. Jist like you I've always been a confident guy. I'm 24 and I've always been really active in sports and weight training, I'm always the one trying to make people laugh. I've been dealing with similar sensations lately. Looking down at my arms and feeling like they weren't my own, feeling like I was in a dream, and that everything just sounded a bit off of how it should. It all feels terrible. I've had to pinch myself to make sure that I'm in the present. What really helps me is just forcing myself to be in a situation that puts me in the present. I do this through playing board games with friends, playing sports, surrounding myself in nature, hiking and so on. Really just find your hobbies and dive into those. Just make sure it's something beneficial to your well being, like no binge watching Netflix or playing video games or drinking or doing drugs or anything. I recently read an article that said that why you and I are dealing with is actually very common with anxiety. They say to get through those difficult times it may be effective to put yourself in the present, run your hands under cold water and pay attention to and analyze the sensations going through your hands. It also said that counting things may be a good way of feeling better. Hope this helps in some way, good luck man! Keep fighting hard, anxiety can be overcome!

[lee85]

Hi Lee and welcome :)

Hi gypsy Lee. Thanks...I'm not much help on this site yet but hope I can be soon


Hey Lee! Hope you're doing okay man. Jist like you I've always been a confident guy. I'm 24 and I've always been really active in sports and weight training, I'm always the one trying to make people laugh. I've been dealing with similar sensations lately. Looking down at my arms and feeling like they weren't my own, feeling like I was in a dream, and that everything just sounded a bit off of how it should. It all feels terrible. I've had to pinch myself to make sure that I'm in the present. What really helps me is just forcing myself to be in a situation that puts me in the present. I do this through playing board games with friends, playing sports, surrounding myself in nature, hiking and so on. Really just find your hobbies and dive into those. Just make sure it's something beneficial to your well being, like no binge watching Netflix or playing video games or drinking or doing drugs or anything. I recently read an article that said that why you and I are dealing with is actually very common with anxiety. They say to get through those difficult times it may be effective to put yourself in the present, run your hands under cold water and pay attention to and analyze the sensations going through your hands. It also said that counting things may be a good way of feeling better. Hope this helps in some way, good luck man! Keep fighting hard, anxiety can be overcome!

Thanks bud. I will try all of that and see how I get on. I joined this site in desperation and tbh, and not to sound silly, but glad to see other people have had the same experience. Thanks for the advice dude