xxfairybluxx
08-20-2008, 10:42 AM
Hi, I’m new to this community. I found it after doing some research into anxiety, specifically GAD and found that many of the symptoms match my experiences, yay! I don’t feel quite so weird anymore.
I have been feeling anxious on and off her about 3 years about different things. It began when I started to have niggling little doubts about my relationship. I began to obsess over them. It was like I couldn't feel totally happy because it was always at the back of my mind. I began to wonder why I’m not as romantic as he is or why I didn’t feel the butterflies I use to feel and think about it until it gets blown out of all proportion. They seem to become such massive issues and I think I can’t love him that much. Then I go and open my mouth about not being happy and they suddenly feel so heartless and I realize it’s not actually true and go back to feeling really guilty and a horrible person. I’m always monitoring how I feel and worrying if I don’t feel like I should. I think thats one of the main triggers.
One of my other favourite obsessive thoughts is going over incidents that have happened in the past where I’ve acted stupidly or behaviour I’m embarrassed of. I feel really anxious when I think of them and realize how it must have looked and then I start to wonder why I did it. I feel tainted (I know that sound daft) by some of the weird and stupid things I’ve done in the past and can’t really get over them, even though they’re not that bad.
I also feel often feel anxious when I’m with groups of people too, worrying about how i'm coming across and if I’m saying something stupid. I find it difficult to keep track of what people are saying because of this and feel headachy and dizzy. I don’t know if this is depersonalization, but it sounds similar.
I’m sorry this has been a really long post but i’ve got pretty much everything off my chest. Its not as bad as I’ve made it sound, sometimes I’ll feel fine, then other times I’ll feel like crap (usually when I’ve been on my own and thinking too much). :unsure:
I have been feeling anxious on and off her about 3 years about different things. It began when I started to have niggling little doubts about my relationship. I began to obsess over them. It was like I couldn't feel totally happy because it was always at the back of my mind. I began to wonder why I’m not as romantic as he is or why I didn’t feel the butterflies I use to feel and think about it until it gets blown out of all proportion. They seem to become such massive issues and I think I can’t love him that much. Then I go and open my mouth about not being happy and they suddenly feel so heartless and I realize it’s not actually true and go back to feeling really guilty and a horrible person. I’m always monitoring how I feel and worrying if I don’t feel like I should. I think thats one of the main triggers.
One of my other favourite obsessive thoughts is going over incidents that have happened in the past where I’ve acted stupidly or behaviour I’m embarrassed of. I feel really anxious when I think of them and realize how it must have looked and then I start to wonder why I did it. I feel tainted (I know that sound daft) by some of the weird and stupid things I’ve done in the past and can’t really get over them, even though they’re not that bad.
I also feel often feel anxious when I’m with groups of people too, worrying about how i'm coming across and if I’m saying something stupid. I find it difficult to keep track of what people are saying because of this and feel headachy and dizzy. I don’t know if this is depersonalization, but it sounds similar.
I’m sorry this has been a really long post but i’ve got pretty much everything off my chest. Its not as bad as I’ve made it sound, sometimes I’ll feel fine, then other times I’ll feel like crap (usually when I’ve been on my own and thinking too much). :unsure: