Coco pop
03-27-2015, 11:57 AM
Hi all! I have to be frank here, it took me a solid day to get up the courage to post anything on here. But, I have taken comfort in reading a lot of your posts and realizing I am not alone in this. SO, thank you all for sharing your stories.
I first started having severe panic attacks and anxiety in December, 2014. It all stemmed from hyperthyroidism, but unfortunately I am still suffering the effects of PA and GAD despite having my Synthroid corrected. It's currently so bad, I have been on medical leave from work since the middle of February. I can barely leave the house, and the thought of public places TERRIFY me. Prior to all of this, I worked full time in a high stress job, recently got married and bought a house, and was independent in all of my daily tasks. I was in complete denial that I actually had PA and GAD, because how can something in your mind make you feel so physically incapacitated? I tried to muster through it all, and "man it up" so to speak... but it's just so damn hard. I have it all - tachycardia, chest pains, dizziness, shortness of breath, constant fatigue, constant worry, body aches, head aches, etc. The tachycardia was so bad, 2 trips to the ER with a HR of 160 bought me a ticket to the wonderful world of Beta Blockers (and benzos). My doc also tried to start me on Lexapro, but like a lot of you, I have been scared shitless to take it. I finally opened up to a therapist about everything last week, which has helped a little so far. I've tried meditation, which feels fantastic during the process... but back to feeling my old "crazy" self as soon as I'm through. At first I was self medicating with wine, but now I've realized it made my tachycardia worse. UGH.
Well, enough about me. Sorry for the lengthy post, and thanks in advance for listening. You know more about my current situation than my husband! LOL. I look forward to get to know everyone more, and to hear your stories and relate.
I first started having severe panic attacks and anxiety in December, 2014. It all stemmed from hyperthyroidism, but unfortunately I am still suffering the effects of PA and GAD despite having my Synthroid corrected. It's currently so bad, I have been on medical leave from work since the middle of February. I can barely leave the house, and the thought of public places TERRIFY me. Prior to all of this, I worked full time in a high stress job, recently got married and bought a house, and was independent in all of my daily tasks. I was in complete denial that I actually had PA and GAD, because how can something in your mind make you feel so physically incapacitated? I tried to muster through it all, and "man it up" so to speak... but it's just so damn hard. I have it all - tachycardia, chest pains, dizziness, shortness of breath, constant fatigue, constant worry, body aches, head aches, etc. The tachycardia was so bad, 2 trips to the ER with a HR of 160 bought me a ticket to the wonderful world of Beta Blockers (and benzos). My doc also tried to start me on Lexapro, but like a lot of you, I have been scared shitless to take it. I finally opened up to a therapist about everything last week, which has helped a little so far. I've tried meditation, which feels fantastic during the process... but back to feeling my old "crazy" self as soon as I'm through. At first I was self medicating with wine, but now I've realized it made my tachycardia worse. UGH.
Well, enough about me. Sorry for the lengthy post, and thanks in advance for listening. You know more about my current situation than my husband! LOL. I look forward to get to know everyone more, and to hear your stories and relate.