Hello all, preying fro light at the end of the tunnel :(

[Jbase85]

Hello everyone, I'm known to my friends as Jay. I'm 29 years old and lead a normal lifestyle. Over the past 3-5 years Iv noticed my worry/ anxiety increase to the stage now where it at times is almost unbearable, especially at work. I have a brilliant job working for Audi, I have a loving family at home and I don't drink or take drugs. On a day to day basis I have a constant battle with my anxiety and by the end of the day I am emotionally exhausted. It frustrates me because I don't know why I feel the way I do :(
Throughout the day I have waves of emotion where I think all sorts of things like wether my work colleagues like me or if they talk about me behind my back.
Iv also realised that I find it difficult to walk normally because I am thinking too much about how I am walking which causes me to not walk properly?!
I also know that for some reason I stare and my eyes hurt and find it difficult to make normal eye contact as I just stare? It's very hard to explain what I mean but I know I stare because of how people stare back at me. I really hope other people can relate to this and hopefully understand what I mean.
I have been to my gp and I have been referred to do cbt and I am on a waiting list.
In the mean time I take kalm tablets but to be honest they don't seem to help and even sometimes make my social anxiety worse?
I feel like I'm stuck in a very dark hole and don't know where to turn as it is so frustrating living the way I do?
Sorry for the long introduction post, there is a lot more psychological problematic thoughts that go through my head I just want to live a normal life :(
I thought by maybe sharing my problems on here and talking to others may help me.
Thank you

[gypsylee]

Hi Jay and welcome :)

Oh yes I can relate to that. Talking to others does help a lot though.

I hope you can connect with some of the people here.

Cheers,
Gypsy x

[jeffrocantona]

I can really relate with what you're talking about here, i am a hard working chef with a loving family but some of my biggest struggles with anxiety are in work, the walk thing is something i have also struggled with, but really Jay you can learn to cope with your anxiety, CBT is good and so is sharing your thoughts and issues like you are doing on here, i'm 35 and have had social anxiety disorder for 10 years now, mine all started when i got an std and started worrying about it too much, and feeling like i was some diseased freak, the cbt really helped to deal with the worrying side of it, although i do still suffer the physical affects of anxiety, and i get really emotional when i'm talking to people for some reason, thats probably from bottling everything up , and i too am hoping sharing my experiences on places like this will help,

Hope work goes well for you this week

Bry