sunpathstudent
02-24-2015, 12:50 AM
Hello I need to vent and hope people will hear me out and can relate..
I am taking a class that is highly interactive (normally this would spike my anxiety level off the charts!) and we have to do a group project. I am already familiar with the instructor and his teaching habits, he's pretty laid back and gives us room to express ourselves so I don't feel super anxious about him calling on us, or asking anything from us.
When it came time to decide groups, I was hoping he would assign groups but he made us choose our own groups. I normally look for people and plan out the entire group so I wont get stuck in the awkward phase of going around the classroom asking people if they have room for me (it's really uncomfortable and I find it to be slightly embarrassing like I'm a leftover.) So I ended up with 3 girls and they were nice enough to ask me if I had a group already and I shook my head and they just invited me into their group. Here's the problem...
All of them wanted to do something different, everyone had a different topic they wanted to discuss and I, too, wanted to present something different. We couldn't find common ground so I thought this was the worst mistake I've done because now I cant get out of it (and it just occurred to me that the girls acted pretty catty when they weren't getting their way, they started to talk over one another) I just needed a way out of this...
Okay, so basically my teacher made me move to another group and I was finally in a group I wanted to be in but now I feel a lot more anxious because I feel like this new group doesnt really want me in their group and also when we were discussing about ideas, concepts, topics to present-- another group next to us was laughing and joking about my ideas and laughing at me (dont think they were but everything makes me freak out) Also I needed to ask this new group if they even wanted me to join their group and it was awkward because the group next to us was, again, filled with catty girls staring straight at me and I felt very judged.
It sucks that I couldn't make friends on the first day of class, it would've been a whole lot easier to navigate and form a group when the time came but now I'm super frightened to go back to class next week because 1) I do not know where I should sit because what should i do if the 3 girls I abandoned, start looking at me bad for ditching them/ p.s. I sit next to them normally because everyone already has their preferred seats in class and 2) should I sit next to my new group even though I feel like they dont want me in their group and 3) the random group of girls that laughed at me will be there and continue to judge and or laugh,how should i handle it?
What should I do?
I do not know how to handle these situations and feel like nobody out there can relate or help
Now I REALLY dont want to go back to class next week. By the way, I am a sophomore in high school
I am taking a class that is highly interactive (normally this would spike my anxiety level off the charts!) and we have to do a group project. I am already familiar with the instructor and his teaching habits, he's pretty laid back and gives us room to express ourselves so I don't feel super anxious about him calling on us, or asking anything from us.
When it came time to decide groups, I was hoping he would assign groups but he made us choose our own groups. I normally look for people and plan out the entire group so I wont get stuck in the awkward phase of going around the classroom asking people if they have room for me (it's really uncomfortable and I find it to be slightly embarrassing like I'm a leftover.) So I ended up with 3 girls and they were nice enough to ask me if I had a group already and I shook my head and they just invited me into their group. Here's the problem...
All of them wanted to do something different, everyone had a different topic they wanted to discuss and I, too, wanted to present something different. We couldn't find common ground so I thought this was the worst mistake I've done because now I cant get out of it (and it just occurred to me that the girls acted pretty catty when they weren't getting their way, they started to talk over one another) I just needed a way out of this...
Okay, so basically my teacher made me move to another group and I was finally in a group I wanted to be in but now I feel a lot more anxious because I feel like this new group doesnt really want me in their group and also when we were discussing about ideas, concepts, topics to present-- another group next to us was laughing and joking about my ideas and laughing at me (dont think they were but everything makes me freak out) Also I needed to ask this new group if they even wanted me to join their group and it was awkward because the group next to us was, again, filled with catty girls staring straight at me and I felt very judged.
It sucks that I couldn't make friends on the first day of class, it would've been a whole lot easier to navigate and form a group when the time came but now I'm super frightened to go back to class next week because 1) I do not know where I should sit because what should i do if the 3 girls I abandoned, start looking at me bad for ditching them/ p.s. I sit next to them normally because everyone already has their preferred seats in class and 2) should I sit next to my new group even though I feel like they dont want me in their group and 3) the random group of girls that laughed at me will be there and continue to judge and or laugh,how should i handle it?
What should I do?
I do not know how to handle these situations and feel like nobody out there can relate or help
Now I REALLY dont want to go back to class next week. By the way, I am a sophomore in high school