aml0017
01-07-2015, 06:16 AM
I practically woke up with a panic attack this morning! What a horrible way to wake up. I was so disoriented it took me a few minutes to reassure myself I wasn't in any danger. When it finally passed I just started crying it was such a relief.
On the one hand I want to curl up in a ball and go back to bed and never leave. On the other I want to get to work asap. Truthfully I have been so busy this week that work has been my refuge. Eight hours of no anxiety, my thoughts are so consumed with the job.
Supposed to start getting really cold tonight, so gonna be confined to the house a couple days. Normally my house is my comfort zone but lately all my triggers were things involving my house, or items in my house breaking and changing. I really hate it but can't really avoid it.
I am wondering if SAD is in play here. I always thought of my year-end anxiety as related to the holidays. Maybe not. I have anxiety year round but maybe the season is exacerbating it.
On the one hand I want to curl up in a ball and go back to bed and never leave. On the other I want to get to work asap. Truthfully I have been so busy this week that work has been my refuge. Eight hours of no anxiety, my thoughts are so consumed with the job.
Supposed to start getting really cold tonight, so gonna be confined to the house a couple days. Normally my house is my comfort zone but lately all my triggers were things involving my house, or items in my house breaking and changing. I really hate it but can't really avoid it.
I am wondering if SAD is in play here. I always thought of my year-end anxiety as related to the holidays. Maybe not. I have anxiety year round but maybe the season is exacerbating it.